A year in review?

I wish. I can’t remember what I was doing yesterday. Never mind at the beginning of the year. Here are a few things I do remember:

  • One hell of a hangover on Jan 1st, 2013
  • Cory overdosing on anti-represents sometime towards the end of Jan.
  • Moving in together Feb 1st, 2013
  • Going on a leave of absence near the end of Feb till June because my vertigo was so bad I could hardly stand.
  • Uncle Mark passing away in Oct

I’m sure there was more but those are the few things that stick out. I had a pretty good Christmas and enjoyed spending it with Cory and my family.

My day at work today was really slow and it gave me some time to look up some things related to one of my New Years resolutions, to go back to school. Geri g financial aid for going back to school seems impossible.

Basically there isn’t any that I can find that would apply to me since I am not right out if high school and since I defaulted on my student loan.

So I think I’m going to have to just save up the money for the ASL courses and then when it comes time for the more in depth stuff I am gonna most likely try to apply for a line of credit or personal loan of some sort.

My bank, PC Financial seems to have some good terms and a low repayment rate of about $60 a month. Guess that may be the way to go. I’ll keep looking into it.

A little bit of inspiration

Helen Keller (June 27, 1880 – June 1, 1968) & Anne Sullivan (April 14, 1866–October 20, 1936) vacationing at Cape Cod in July 1888.
Image Credit: Global Research

I think that almost everyone can say that they have been inspired by someone at some point in their life. This could be someone living who they have met, someone who they have never met or someone who died long before they were even born. Either way, that person or persons have had a big influence on their life or has just served as a source of in inspiration.

I would have to say that for me it would be both Helen Keller and her teacher Anne Sullivan both pictured above. A lot of people have at least heard of Helen Keller. She was born in Alabama in the US in 1880. Around the age of 19 months she was struck with illness (most likely Scarlet Fever or Meningitis) which left her both deaf and blind.

Who most people are not so familiar with however is her teacher Anne Sullivan. Anne Sullivan was born in 1866 and at the age of 20 in 1887 went to work with Helen at her home in Alabama. Anne herself was visually impaired from untreated trachoma that she contracted around 7 years earlier. She quickly went to work teaching Helen to communicate by spelling words into her hand.

I remember from the movie The Miracle Worker Anne teaching her to spell her first word “d-o-l-l”, which was a doll that she had brought with her as a present for Helen. Ever since watching that movie in Junior High School in my American Sign Language (ASL) class I have been intrigued by Anne and Helen both. The patience and understanding that Anne must have had with and for Helen would have had to have been phenomenal.

Imagine loosing either your hearing or your site. Now imagine loosing both at the same time. Now image this when you are very young and just learning to communicate. Suddenly you are in a dark silent world that you can only feel and smell and taste. You can no longer hear it and you can no longer see it. The frustration would have had to have been endless, I would imagine.

For Helen herself to overcome this, to learn to communicate and accomplish as much as she did in her life and for Anne to have the courage, strength and patience (which Helen also obviously had herself as well) to teach her and to guide her along her way. To me they are both truly inspirational. They have taught me that if you are willing you can overcome anything.

So I would like to know. Who do you find inspirational? And why?

I would loose my head if it wasn’t attached…

I really would. Day started out fairly normal. Had to make a call to ALC to help Cory’s cousin get back $125.00 he spent by accident on Web Cash thinking he could buy anything anywhere online with it. Ummm… No, you can not. It is for ALC products only, it’s a gift card for them… Yep, one of them days.

Then the three of us went to go get his ID photocopied, get a stamp and mail the Web Cash to ALC to get his money back and look for a winter jacket for Cory. I have 2 debit cards, one I mainly use and one that is my Visa debit. Well that’s the one I had the money on… so what did I do? I brought the other card and forgot the one I need at home. How’d I figure this out? We decided to stop for KFC/Taco Bell on the way in the mall. At the cash register after I ordered I realized the card I did have had less then $5 on it. So we borrow $20 from his cousin to pay.

So that was okay… While waiting I transfer money to the card I do have. Gotta love smart phones! We do what we need to, we find Cory a jacket, a nice Columbia one for $129! I love a deal, 2 jackets in 1 week that were worth over $300 each that we got for less then half price!

We take his cousin back and drop him off at our apartment to get his car and then decide to go to Bayer’s Lake, a large outdoor mall area to pay off the last of my debt. On the way my Mom calls and asks us to check out a 16 GB Lenovo Tablet on sale for $99.99. They initially bought my brother a 4 GB one but (despite me repeatedly telling them there was not enough space) quickly realized there was not enough space. Go figure. So we buy it for them and then pay the bill we needed to pay and head to Sobeys for groceries and my card that I had transfered the money onto earlier? I can not find it anywhere!

I search my pockets, I search my purse, I search the car, then Cory searches my pockets, then my purse, then the car. It is no where! Vanished. So I call the last couple of places we went. No one has it. It has not been found. So I drive all the way home, leaving Cory at Sobeys with the shopping cart full of unpaid for grocery’s next to the cash. I get my original card that I forgot earlier and go back and pay. I was so embarrassed!

Get home after that ordeal, open up the tablet and guess what? The apps he was trying to install on the other one that did not have enough space, are not compatible with this tablet… seriously pissed at this point. I turn my tablet on to see if they were compatible with it. It will not turn on. Just repeats the Samsung logo over and over and over again. I google it, restart it in safe mode and then reboot it again and it works.

In the meantime supper is in the oven. Chicken fingers and fries. When it is done cooking I put mine on a plate, add some bbq sauce, go in the living room and turn on the TV. The cat stalks me all the way in, waits till I put the plate down on the arm of the couch and then fly’s at me landing in the middle of the freaking plate right in the bbq sauce! He looks at me and I swear he was grinning. I scream, the plate goes flying in one direction, the cat in the other and me onto the floor. Yes, it really was one of those days.

Symptom or side effect?

Getting to and staying asleep has become a bit of a chore lately. I have been waking up every few hours and suffering fro what I can only assume is some sort of sleep paralysis. The first time it happened I thought I was either having a bad dream or some sort of paranormal experience. Ya my brain just automatically goes there!

I woke up out a dead sleep in the middle of the night. I could hear Cory beside me moving in his sleep. I could feel the weight of the cat on my feet and felt completely awake, however I could not move at all. It lasted what felt like minutes to me but I am sure was only seconds. I was really freaked out and had a hard time getting back to sleep.

I usually take 30mg of Amnitryptoline before bed. It was working really good for a bit. Now when I fall asleep, two to three times a night, I get the sensations of falling. I’ve had this before but not this bad. It happens almost every single night to varying degrees.

I know the falling sensation which will happen when I am sitting down and relaxed sometimes too can possibly be attributed to a vestibular (ear) issue. Which I am still waiting for a MRI to diagnose. I mistakenly thought previously that it was ruled out but I got a call a few weeks ago for the MRI and when I asked what it was for she said to help rule out or diagnose any vestibular related issues. I kinda thought the other testing ruled it out but apparently not completely.

I am rely struggling with not only getting enough sleep but the quality of my sleep too. I am waking up as tired, if not more tired then when I went to bed. I really don’t know at this point if it’s a symptom or now a side effect of the meds. I’m guessing just a symptom.

I haven’t really written much about everything over this past month but nothing’s really changed. I’m still struggling a lot with my diagnosis of Fibromyalgia and with the pain, fatigue and everything else I have been dealing with for years.

I’ve just been having a couple of bad nights with it. To make matters worse Cory was walking down the stairs at Mom and Dad’s yesterday and when he was almost at the bottom he stepped wrong and felt a pop and now he is having a healed time putting any weight on his ankle. He only managed to work 1 day this time. He had to call in today cause he can’t stand on his leg for very long.

I know his CMT makes his ankles and lower legs weak and more prone to getting hurt but it’s at the point were it is happening constantly. I gave up on trying to get him to wear the leg braces a while ago.

2014 is approaching fast!

Tomorrow is December 27th. What does that mean to me? Tomorrow is the day my cheque clears and I am paying off everything else that I owe. It means that as of tomorrow I owe nothing to no one. I know I have mentioned this before. But it’s a really really big deal to me. This means that for the first time in over 10 years that I have been out of dept. It is almost New Years, so this means I have to make resolutions for next year.

So what are my resolutions going to be? I have 5 more days to figure that out. That’s not really a lot of time. I have some ideas and am open to suggestions. I am excited for 2014! I think it is going to be a monumental year for me. I am starting it with a clean slate so-to-speak. The playing field is even. So what can I accomplish? What can I work towards?

☐ Save $650 ($25 x 26 pays =$650)
☐ Go to the gym weekly
☐ Loose 32 lbs (0.5 lb/week)
☐ Get a 40¢ raise (I got 36¢ last time)
☐ Make enough through Simple Illusions Hosting to pay for my reseller hosting account next year.
☐ Go back to school

Well that is what I have so far. I think I will keep working on it over the next few days (even through January). Full list will be here: 2014 Resolutions.