• Health & Wellness
  • Winter blues

    I am having such a shitty time right now. It doesn’t even feel like Christmas to me. I feel so overwhelmed. All these Christmas shows on TV and all the commercials are really the only thing that make me even realize it is Christmas time. All I really want to do is hide myself under the blankets and only come up for air once in a while.

    It doesn’t help that neither of us are feeling well. I am so disappointed. Things were starting to go well. But now with my dentist appointments I am back in debt for almost $1000. I know it does not seem like much but it is when you can’t pay it and it is Christmas and it is waying on your mind. I feel like hell and things are just not going anywhere near what I had planned.

    I’m so stressed out over work. I have not felt this kind of stress about work in a long time. However because I am sick I have missed a lot of time. However at the same time if I come to work sick they don’t like it. I worked a week with no voice taking emails and was told it was fine as there was plenty of email in the bin. Wednesday I ended up having to log into the phones even though I warned the coach that I doubted I would make it through a call. [...]

  • Everyday Stuff
  • Why am I sick again?

    I spent the first few days this week sick at home… again. It just feels never ending. We left Mom and Dad’s on Monday and I was supposed to work from 12-8 pm. However, I woke up that morning throwing up. Since I had a 2 1/2 hour drive ahead of us that I would have to do (Cory has never really driven that far and was not feeling well either). I called in to work to let them know I would not be there. It was not an easy decision to make. I only had about 2 hours of sleep because I was so unsettled, my stomach was upset but I was not getting sick.

    I ended up moving from the bed to a very uncomfortable futon around 4 when I realized it was 4 and I had to get up and drive in 2 hours. I should have probably realized at that point that that was not going to happen but I was stubbornly trying to figure out how to manage it. In the end I gave up when I started throwing up. I decided to crawl back in bed and attempt the drive a little later on in the day. [...]

  • Health & Wellness
  • Dropping the ball

    Somehow I really dropped the ball yesterday. I am not sure why but I thought I had posted. However I didn’t. Who am I kidding anyways? I can’t blog everyday, I never have been able to for very long.

    Yesterday I think it was because I went to the dentist and wasn’t feeling the greatest when I got home. Only one more appointment for all my dental work to be done. Yesterday he filled my tooth that I had the root canal on, the molar that broke. He sort of rebuilt it, it’s in the back and I don’t really care what it looks like as long as it functions.

    I am a bit sore today. I also had 3 more fillings on that side done. Took a while for the freezing to wear off again. My appointment was at 1 pm I was out by 2:15-2:30 pm but my whole right side of my face was still frozen when I went to bed. [...]

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  • Most controversial thing

    What is the most controversial thing you’ve ever written on your blog? What compelled you to write it?

    It’s hard to answer this as I don’t think I have really wrote anything controversial. The closest thing was this post about abuse that I had suffered in the past by an ex-boyfriend. I guess you could consider anything related to abuse controversial in the manner that sometimes people will not believe you, or say you deserved it for staying or what you consider abuse may not necessarily be what someone else considers abuse, etc. I could go on and on with this as over the years I have heard anything and everything you could ever imagine regarding it from “it’s too late to talk now” to “you stayed so therefor you deserved what you got”. [...]

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  • Root Canal

    I am so horrible sometimes at keeping up with posting, where did the last 3 and a half weeks go? I am feeling much better but after getting over getting sick about 2 weeks ago I got another really bad infection in my back molar that broke about a year ago. I kept having to put off the root canal as I kept getting infections or getting sick. So after 2 more weeks of anti-biotics I had my root canal done on Saturday.

    It went okay. I was in so much pain leading up to the root canal and then mid week last week they had to drain the abscess twice. I was terrified of the pain I would be in after the procedure as well as what it would be like during it. I have heard so many horror stories. Luckily all I felt during the whole thing was when they stuck the needles in to freeze me which I will not lie, was not pleasant but since the freezing works fast it did not last all that long. [...]

  • Everyday Stuff
  • New computer and back to work, again…

    First off, I just want to say thanks to everyone who commented on my last post. I usually reply to every comment but quite honestly right now I just do not have the energy. But thanks again to Kristina, Holly, Sam, Arlene, Christa, Nancy, Raisa, Sakura and Carolynne for the well wishes gabapentin 400 mg. The good news is, I am finally starting to feel better!

    I have been back to work for 2 days now. I had a whooping cough test done last week and it actually came back negative. I was told that does not necessarily mean that I did not have it, however since I had been coughing for many weeks (6 I believe at that time), that the bacteria could be gone from my system and just the cough remaining or I might not have ever had it at all.

    I had seen a respirologist last week since the cough was still remaining. She said it sounds more like an asthmatic cough now and she did a lung function test and told me I needed to be back on medication for my asthma. Because of the severity of the cough, the possibility of having had whooping cough, and the length of time I have had the cough she decided to throw everything but the kitchen sink at me. [...]