Camping & Crutches

Before you ask, no I did not go camping on crutches but yes I am on crutches and yes we had planned to go camping this past weekend but that was before I ended up on crutches This put an end to our camping plans with my parents. My parents ended up going without us this past weekend because I was in too much pain and can’t get very far on the crutches, I was only able to get to the washroom and back before my back and neck were in extreme pain.

I fell on Sunday June 10th, just after we got back from the Salt Marsh Trail. I had already wrote and scheduled the last two posts so I didn’t bother updating them I ended up injuring my ankle, knee, back and neck on my left side. At first I was more concerned about my back and neck. I went to see the on call doctor on Monday and he said I likely sprained my knee and ankle and soft tissue injuries to my back and neck. He put me off work till the end of the week. Within a day or two though I was unable to put weight on my left leg.

I ended up going back Friday for a follow up and was told that I have severely sprained my ankle and knee both and he was also concerned I might have fractured something in my knee or ankle so he wanted x-rays to rule out any fractures. He was concerned enough he told me to get a pair of crutches and stay off the leg till the x-rays came back. He didn’t want me walking on a fractured ankle. I haven’t heard anything back yet so I assume no news is good news

I plan to try and make an appointment tomorrow morning to go back and confirm and find out if I can start slowly putting more weight on it. I was told I might need physio as well. I am still in a lot of pain and the crutches really bother my back so I am trying to stay off it as much as possible. Hopefully this wont be much of a set back in terms of walking and hiking and camping and that within a few weeks I’ll be back to normal mostly.

My parents actually gave us a new tent today. They bought it for us for our birthdays which are coming up the beginning of July. So I am really excited to be able to get a few weekends of camping in hopefully this summer and if I have to camp on crutches I will! Just kidding. Hopefully it wont come to that. I should be back to work this week or Monday at the latest as I have Sunday booked off already.

I Really Need a Break

Most people need a break from work, me I need a break from being sick. I’m not talking diabetes or fibromyalgia or anything like that. I’m just talking colds, infections and the flu. I have literally lost track of the number of colds, flu and infections I have had over the last year or two. It seems I go from one to another to another. I have another cold right now.

It started last Tuesday with a sore throat coming on a few hours before I left work. I powered through a sore throat all day Wednesday and Thursday and some sneezing but it wasn’t all that bad, just more of an annoyance then anything. By Friday night the congestion set in, all stuffed up, runny nose, watery eyes etc., all the fun cold symptoms. I’ve always been told as an asthmatic not to take cold medication/cough syrup but I have always done it and apparently it can raise your blood sugar as well but at this point I am miserable.

Friday was a stay at home and relax on the couch day after I had a dentist appointment for a cleaning. I don’t work Fridays. I never canceled the cleaning because last time I tried to cancel a cleaning appointment when I woke up the morning of it with the flu they got really mad at me and wanted to charge me $100 for the appointment. So I just told her about the cold before we started and she said as long as I was okay it was fine. Later that evening the symptoms were more bothersome but still controllable with cold medication (Shopper’s Drug mart brand of Tylenol Cold basically).

Saturday I felt pretty good and Edward convinced me that as long as I bundled up warm it would do me some good to get out and go for a walk so we chose Peggy’s Cove. In hind sight maybe the wind and salt water air may not have been the best choice, or maybe it was. Who knows. I felt okay Saturday night. I just relaxed and watched TV with Edward.

Sunday I woke up feeling really horrible with a really hoarse and sore throat, wheezing, coughing, headache, fever, congestion and generally feeling like I was hit by an 18-wheeler. I ended up calling in sick to work. I relaxed on the couch again and kept warm and fell asleep with the cat laying on my feet. Later I woke up feeling sick to my stomach but I am guessing that is just the congestion and everything else because I never did get sick.

Today I am feeling a bit better and am heading to work shortly armed with more cold medication, throat lozenges, my inhaler and lots of water. Maybe I’ll grab a peppermint tea from Tim Hortons before I start work today. It’s going to be a busy day, Monday’s always are but it is a short week because of yesterday plus my next week is also a short week because I booked Sunday the 13th off (at least I think I did, I’ll have to double check when I get there). So at least I can get some rest and try and get rid of this cold.

As I was saying before it’s just one thing after another. I am not sure what is causing me to get sick so often or what I can do about it but I have fought multiple chest infections, throat infections, a uterine infection (which put me in the hospital for 3 days), colds, the flu (3 or 4 times), plus the infection and dry socket from the wisdom teeth extraction all since October and it doesn’t seem to want to stop. I really need a break. I’m not even really under that much stress right now. I just need to have a few months without getting sick.

Mental Illness & Me

This is always a tough topic for most people to talk about and I am no exception. I really wish I had some of my posts from my blogs from the worst phase, depression wise in my life. They would really provide me with some insight I think into the way my mind works sometimes and maybe some insight for other people in my life to see where I was then and where I am now. I don’t want to say that it is all a thing of the past for me, because it is not. I still and always will suffer from depression, anxiety and panic disorder. It’s not something I think that will ever 100% fully will go away for me.

However, that being said I think I am at one of the best points I have ever been in my life in regards to mental illness and me. That doesn’t mean I don’t still get depressed and have bad thoughts. Not talking suicidal, I have not had those in many many years. I do still sometimes think very negatively about some things that have happened to me past or present. Much like anyone would I guess. I don’t want to say I suffer from PSD because I don’t but sometimes I do have a little bit of stress from past traumas or past life experiences that have affected me. I’m not really going to get into detail about them right now. I’m not sure if there is posts about them on this blog or not but feel free to dig if you want to know. I can’t honestly remember what’s there.

I still have days where I do not want to get out of bed or that I feel things are hopeless or that it will never go away. But I think my depression has changed and evolved a little bit. Now it is more situational. I get depressed or anxious more when I think about certain things then just always feeling depressed or anxious. I think also now that I am married, I have someone to share it with that I feel 100% comfortable sharing with and who feels for me in a way no one ever has. Someone that gets me in a way no one ever has and that helps. Someone who experiences my highs and lows and just rolls with it and works with me to help me learn how to deal with my emotions. If you have someone supportive in your life it helps. I only wish everyone could have some but realize that sometimes some people aren’t so lucky.

If I am having a problem at work or at home I still dwell on it more then is healthy. I over analyze and get frustrated and angry very easy. More them most people? Well, who am I to say. Everyone is different. Even situations in my own life though seeming similar to past situations may not be the same from one time to the next. And I also worry so much about things that are beyond my control. Before my depression was a constant in my life that I could always depend on to be there. It was something familiar that I just took for granted would always be there.

Then I had a few years where it was almost non-existent. I even thought I was cured and no longer needed medication. I am now resigned to the fact that even though I am not on and do not need medication at the present that I may in fact need it in the future at some point. I also realize fully that I may not and that there are so many factors that go into it that it is impossible to predict and that if I do need to go back on medication for my depression, anxiety or panic attacks at some point down the road that it is not a failure but in fact the exact opposite. It is a win. Why? Well because to me failing to notice and/or denying there is an issue, that would be more of a failure then recognizing I need help. It’s okay to need help, but it is imperative to ask for it and not to just wait for it to be offered.

Exercising & Walking

I’ll be honest, I am doing up a couple posts at a time and scheduling them as I know I will not have time during the week days. Friday and Saturday are my days off, Edwards too. I am not aiming to make this a diabetes blog but it’s what’s on my mind right now. I want to go into a bit more detail about one of my May goals.

Since I am now taking the bus back and forth to work I am walking to the bus stop and back. Which I will be honest about as well, it is not far. 4 minutes and then I get off at Scotia Square Mall and just walk into the mall through the food court and upstairs via the stairs, elevator or escalator depending on my mood. Going home I have to walk a litte further since I take a different bus home and have to walk about 7 minutes to my bus stop from the mall. I also walk around the mall a lot just to increase my steps and my walking time. My phone is a Samsung Galaxy G6 with the Samsung Health app on it which I am hoping to utilize more. I am getting about 30-45 min walking a day and about 3500-7000 steps a day.

I want to aim for 1 hour and 10,000 steps. To start anyways. I would like to add more exercise in other forms as well. I am considering a gym again or the Canada Games Centre which I previously a few years ago had a membership for. For now though I had previously set my goal to half the recommended which was 30 min walking/5000 steps. I am consistently doing that now and more. I have set it now to 45 min/7000 steps. Once I consistently meet that which I hope to do in a week or two. I will increase to 1 hour/10,000 steps. I am trying to figure out ways in my everyday activities to increase my walking time and steps without necessarily going out for a specific walk, which I would like to do as well. Once I get the bus route down to work and back (just started taking it last week) I will start walking a few extra stops on the way to work so that I am walking 2-3 stops beyond mine. I don’t want to do that at night when I come home at 9:45 PM for safety sake. My area is safe enough but still.

I am hoping to get Eddie and I up and out walking for an actual walk 2-3 times a week to start for an hour each time just around here. There is lots of walking paths at the end of our street as well as it’s a very residential and rather safe area (despite not wanting to walk it alone at night) with lots of streets to make walking loops on. I can easily map out a 5k, 10k and 15k walk with MapMyWalk. So I am hoping to go once each weekend and at least 2 times during the week working up to just about every day.

There is a Gym in Bedford called Fit4Less which is a 15 min drive (opposite direction to my work unfortunately) which has two memberships $4.99 biweekly (for one location) up to $10.99 biweekly (for any location across Canada, shareable with family) for a membership. I have been considering it. $4.99 biweekly for each of us is not bad. Eddie said he would go. But I am concerned time wise if we have time. Closer to us (literally at the end of our street through a path and a ball park is the Canada Games Centre which I previously had a yearly membership for which is $23.35 biweekly for me and $13.22 biweekly for Edward however it has a gym and so much more, there is pools, 2 waterslides, saunas, a hot tub, weight room, indoor track and a field house and other stuff I am likely missing. I am really wanting that more then Fit4Less and it is much closer and would be easier to get in an hour in the morning before work a few days a week and on the weekends anytime.

My only concern with either is will we use it. The membership I had before I used for a while and then just kind of stopped going and ended up cancelling. As they are both yearly memberships I want to make sure we will both use it. With paths, side walks, a ball park and outdoor track etc at the end of our street (all part of the Canada Games Centre but free to use outside) I don’t know if it is worth paying. However we might only use it in the summer. I love to swim. I love waterslides. That is what really makes me want to get the Canada Games Membership more then the Fit4Less one. I want the access to the pools and slides and indoor track etc.

I have been on the fence for months about it. It’s a lot to shell out if we get stuck in a one year contract and end up not using it. I am really craving the exercise for a lack of a better term. I really loved the Canada Games Centre once I got over my initial fear of exercising in front of strangers. I am not sure if Edward would feel the same as I did in the beginning. He says he’d go. I just have to talk us both into it and have to set aside the money to do it.

I Want An Insulin Pump…

I have really gotten comfortable with using the Freestyle Libre and now I am obsessed with Diabetes Technology. I have been reading up on everything and would really love to talk to my doctor about an insulin pump or an OmniPod (a tubeless insulin pump). I have a few reasons I would like to look into it more.

First, insulin shots hurt for me. I always hear other diabetics say “oh it doesn’t hurt, it’s just automatic, I don’t even feel it anymore” well I call bullshit on that… it does hurt. Well for me anyways. It hurts a lot. When I give myself an injection of insulin I react almost every time to the needle itself and to the insulin. I get big welts that look like mosquito bites around the injection site that spread out and are super itchy.

In talking to and showing my allergist and immunologist she diagnosed me with dermatographia and chronic hives about 6 months ago after about 3 months of torture everytime I took one of the 5 insulin shots a day I was taking. She at that time suggested a pump but was unsure how I would react to it. At the time I did not have any major reactions to adhesive just to punctures and scratches of the skin so she thought it might be something that might help.

I never did find out though because my endocrinologist said to just wait that they would not put me on a pump until I had completed at least one year of insulin therapy. I’m guessing because I was so new. It was supposed to be the same with the Libre, only it was 2 years of testing and managing blood sugar but my family doctor gave me a prescription anyways and Abbott did not ask and neither did my insurance.

Second, an insulin pump provides greater control and increased flexibility in lifestyle. In other words instead of having to go to the washroom before a meal, test my blood sugar (or mostly scan in this case), figure out how many calories I’m going to eat, calculate how much insulin in my head, prepare and give myself an injection all before I can eat and  in a 30 minute work supper break that does not give me much time to actually eat, all I would have to do is calculate the calories, input them into the pump and let it do the rest for me (from my understanding anyways). I would say that is a much better way to go.

At the moment I am not taking meal-time insulin only long acting (24 hour) insulin, however my family doctor said that if I continue to spike over 8 mmol/l after meals then the next time I see him (in one week) that I will have to start back on the short acting insulin and I have continued to spike, despite my A1C going down. So I am not looking forward to that. It means 4 times a day (each meal and at night) I will be injecting again. So really if that is the case maybe it really is time to really look into and contact my health insurance provider to see if it would be covered.

I know sometimes they will say no as well but if you can get a note from a specialist stating that it is medically necessary and not just more for convenience as in the case of the dermatographia then maybe they will consider it. I hear all the time about people lobbying their insurance providers for things that were denied and just keeping at it until they give in. I really have no idea how they do it though.