Work, Medication & Relocation

I am about half way through my third week back at work. I am doing six hour shifts this week. So far I am doing okay. Not great but okay. I am still having considerable pain but I am just glad to be back. I started Lyrica about the same time I started back at work (the night before). That is not going so great so far, not that I really expected much. It’s not really helping at all with my pain during the day. At night it makes me so sleepy that I am unsure if I am sleeping okay because of that or because it is helping my pain. I think more just that it is knocking me out

I started at 75 mg and was supposed to increase it after about a week slowly up to no more then 300 mg. I haven’t gone up at all. The reason is that I don’t think I would be a fully functioning human being if I did. I can barely tolerate the 75 mg. I tried last night just the one time to increase to 150 mg, today I struggled with every word at work, I was staring off into space and I felt as if I had cotton balls in my mouth. I am not doing that to myself again tonight so back to 75 mg I go.

I am going to see if I can get a prescription for 25 mg from my doctor and try going up more slowly from 75 mg. I can see why I hate this medication the first time I was on it. It really does a number on you. I am so dizzy as well. I am scared to drive and won’t drive right after I take it. So I take it at night. I am not sure it’s going to work for me but I need to give it some more time I think. It’s hard because I am tired of dealing with the pain which is still pretty considerable. I have pain which is sometimes feels like a stabbing pain and other times a burning or searing sensation down my leg. I have pins and needles and a numb sensation that happens often. I am also getting a lot of swelling still.

I want so badly to just ditch the crutches and walk but I am scared to as well. Sometimes I wonder if that part is in my head. If I am just limiting myself because I am scared. The medication is making me unsteady and dizzy, plus my leg tends to give out from underneath me but should I just stop using the crutches? I am trying to slowly come off them. I can put most of my weight on my leg with them. Without them though I tire so quickly and I hurt so much more. I really am not sure what to do there.

Anyway, so as you can guess from the title of this post, Edward and I have been considering relocating for a little bit now and guess what? We are moving! We’re doing it! Edward found out today he has a job in Digby at Gidney Fisheries! He starts November 19th and gave his notice at his current job today. He was concerned how his boss would take it but he took it pretty good and was happy for him.

I also put in my resignation at the bank today, or at least that was the plan. Instead though I am going to see if I can take a leave of absence at their suggestion. Apparently they have an option when moving to another city or town in the same or different province that you can take a transfer leave which gives you 90 days to apply to and get a position in the same bank with another branch, location or department. If you don’t get one then on the 91st day your employment ceases as if you resigned but it also gives you a chance to keep your benefits and seniority while I attempt to find something and 90 days in case nothing is available right away. I read somewhere I have to give 4 weeks notice to do this but they suggested it so hoping no one notices

When I mentioned I was resigning my manager asked me to give him about an hour before I put in my resignation and talked to his manager then came back and told me this. They said they hope I can stay with the bank. They have branches in both Digby and Yarmouth. Yarmouth is only about an hour’s drive. We could settle somewhere between Digby and Yarmouth if I got something there eventually. In the meantime my parents have offered to rent us the cottage they just bought for quite a bit less then what we are paying for rent here.

They bought it outright so no mortgage. We would pay the utilities and a small rental fee all in one, the utilities will be on budget plans that will be the same each month, they plan to keep them in their name I think and we just pay them one amount to cover it all and even if we don’t and we pay the utilities ourselves in our name we will still be ahead. We’d be looking at half to two thirds what we are paying here once everything is said and done. About a $200 to $350 savings a month over our current living situation here. Edward will be making a bit more then $2/hour more there then here, plus after 6 months he will have full benefits.

If I stay with the bank I will still have everything I have here (full benefits plus lots more) but be $1 to $2 less then I make here. So in the long run it would even out pay wise. I have a lead on a job outside the bank as well and have been talking to a recruiter for a domain registration and web design/hosting company that has an office in Yarmouth and one here in Halifax, they are really interested in me. I have actually worked for them before.

They are looking for both domain specialists (sales) and technical support in Yarmouth. I enjoyed it the first time I worked there but I left to go to Afghanistan and when I came back they weren’t hiring and I moved on to somewhere else and honestly never considered them again till now. I know a few managers and other employees. In the meantime I can do some transcription work for my mom who has a lot of work right now and could use my help.

Overall this is a move in the right direction for us I think. We will be getting out of the city which we both want. We are tired of it here. We will be living in an area we love doing things we love. We’ll miss our friends in the city but plan on still doing a once a month game night with them and they can come visit and we will be in the city a lot still. We have to keep our doctor in the city as there is currently a shortage and over 50,000 Nova Scotian’s who don’t have family doctors. Plus we like him and want to stay with him anyways

So anyway, in the long run though it will mean saving more and much faster. We can save a down payment now, it would actually be possible. I plan on taking the full amount we would pay for rent up here each month, pay my parents what they want and take the rest and put it in a savings account. Something we can’t easily access. Also it will be good as well because the cottage is 2 bedroom, or will be in a few months when we make it back into a two bedroom. So we will start the process again for fostering/adoption. We are so excited!

My cat, the elastic thief

I thought this was too cute not to share. My cat the elastic thief. I am careful about keeping elastics hidden because he will steal anything not nailed down. However I failed to take into consideration his determination and apparently how smart he is too!

Since not much has gone on in the last 10 days I have not bothered to post, figured it was about time. We are getting a snow storm (go figure) again this weekend with up to 50 more cm’s of snow. However the last few days have been really warm (well above 0°C anyways) and some of the snow is melting, still lots there and more to come but we had a few days of spring like weather, more to tease us then anything I am sure.

I have been doing good at work and have had a whole month without a cold or getting sick somehow and work is starting to slow down some and the work is starting to make more sense to me. I had a few weeks of feeling so lost and not understanding what I was doing that I just wanted to quit but believe it or not a 30 minute chat with a colleague helped immensely and I am understanding more and catching on more.

So overall I am looking really forward to summer because of the weather and because work will slow down and I will have time to think and time to really let everything I have learnt sink in.

This weekend when I have more time I will reply to the comments on my last post and this one if there is any and visit some people sites and comment.

What was he thinking?

As more information becomes available about the guy that worked with us that planned the failed massacre plot at the mall on Valentines Day, the more disconcerting and confusing it’s becoming. Co-workers are starting to speak out to the media and more information is being dug up on social media showing his intent to open fire on his co-workers at my work. If you have no idea what I am talking about reading this post explains more.

A co-worker of mine alleges that he talked to her about shooting up the workplace. There is an article in the paper about it from yesterday and another co-worker of mine sent me a link to it on Facebook. But I have questions, questions I hope will be answered soon in one way, and in another way I wonder if maybe we are better off not knowing.

If he opened up to her or mentioned to her about opening fire at our work, why did it take her a week to go to the media with it? I wonder if she was the one who tipped off the police… If not did she just think it was a joke? Another question I would have is when was this supposed to have happened? The plan for the mall was for Saturday the 14th of February and he was arrested on early Friday morning the 13th at 2am picking up the girl that was accused along with him.

Apparently he quit work on Thursday the 12th. So when would have have done it? Why did he quit on Thursday? What would have been the point in quitting? Especially if you planned on opening fire on your work place the next day or day after. Were we really less then 7 hours away from him actually doing it on Friday? They arrested him at 2am, most people are at work by 9am… was it really that close? Would we really have been in that position in a few more hours? My boyfriends mom works with me, my ex-boyfriend works with me, both of them on the same floor of the building as he was on. I am one floor below. We go back and forth all the time. He would have had access to both floors. Was the mall the original target or were we actually the original target?

I mean if he planned on opening fire at work on Friday, what would make him think he would make it to Saturday for them to open fire in the mall on Saturday together? What the hell was going through their minds? I know as the trial begins that some things that we probably don’t want to hear or know about may come out. Maybe the woman alleging this is only saying it for the attention. Then again, she did not give her name, no one knows exactly who she is. Why would she lie about it?

Either way, none of us can stop thinking about it. Even though we don’t really talk about it outright, I am sure we are all have questions.

Just a short update

It’s hump day and it really feels like hump day. I can’t wait for this week to be over. I have waited on average 1 1/2 hours each evening after work for a cab that tonight never showed up (after 1 hour and 45 minutes). A co-worker offered to drive me home and before I had a chance to call the cab company the driver called me and I answered not thinking and he gave me an earful… so I yelled right back. Won’t be calling that cab company anytime soon.

I’m in awe of human beings. Since I started supporting software I have been called every name in the book. I get people who don’t know how to turn on a computer and navigate Windows or the Mac OS and they expect you to solve everything for them… including errors that have nothing to do with any of our software and clearly say so. Spent 45 minutes today trying to explain to a woman who could not even find the power button on her Mac that I can not explain to her how to install software if she did not know  how to turn on her computer or what a file or web browser was. This is going to be a bit of an adjustment period I think.

Oh yeah, and it looks like I wont be going to New Brunswick for my Great-Grandmothers birthday after all. Pretty bummed about that. But hoping Mom and I can go in the spring. Would like to take Cory there and spend some time in the cabin on the lake that my Aunt and Uncle own. They said pretty much anytime.

I’m a software agent!

So today was my first day as a software agent officially as last week they still had me taking hardware calls on Friday and doing any software emails as they came into the bin, as there was not enough software emails in the bin. I was a bit excited last night about a full day of emails while listening to music. However they ended up just sticking me on the phones in the afternoon as there was no emails left in the bin. Nothing like getting thrown into the fire…

There is so much difference between hardware and software it is unbelievable. With hardware you have projectors and with the exception of the interactive projectors that actually just project onto the wall or a plain old whiteboard (the old school kind) and the touch is through the pen or through what they call a light curtain, anyways the rest of the projectors are just that, a projector that connects to a computer and gets image via a VGA or HDMI cable and that the touch part is the actual whiteboard which connects to the computer via USB.

There is many things with hardware that can go wrong, image issues, touch issues, kids breaking things, pens not writing, etc and it usually all comes down to something not plugged in or something that someone broke. Typically though it is usually just common sense that as you are walking a teacher through steps on fixing the issue it clicks in their head and their head (until next time anyways when they seem to forget everything you told them a week before when it happened lol). Sometimes also the boards need to be calibrated or oriented etc. All simple stuff. All fairly easy for me to understand. Though I am sure I remember feeling overwhelmed myself in training 3 years ago and almost breaking down and crying one day.

But with software there is way way more issues that can go wrong. There are errors, there are usability issues, installation issues, computer issues, OS issues, compatibility issues, and just plain “the issue is between the computer and the chair” issues. If you don’t get that one, think about it a sec, who is between your computer and your chair? Lol you would be surprised how many people do not get that…

It’s all a little overwhelming but I am just glad to have something different to do, some calls where I feel challenged and have to really dig to find the answers rather then walking away from my computer, grabbing a drink while talking and saying everything by memory.

It’s different, that’s for sure and despite myself I am actually going to love it I think. Even if I resisted so long.

Other then that it was an interesting day in other ways. Last week I was moved over by a window from in the middle of the center. I forgot how much I missed sitting by the window. Hopefully these 2 images will explain themselves.

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