Sometimes it really sucks to always come in second or third. Yes, I came in second at work again. It’s so frustrating. Sometimes I think it is best to just not know how you made out compared to others. I would not say that I am an overly competitive person. I would much rather best my own record then someone else’s record. But maybe I really need to become more outwardly competitive?
I guess in a way I did beat my record, so-to-speak, last time I came in third, this time I apparently came in second. Which is a step up. I guess I am just getting bored. I love my job but I find it is not challenging me enough. I just feel bored and tired when a call comes in, it just feels like the same old stuff.
I don’t really know how to challenge myself. Other then my attendance which is a work in progress the only other thing I got a standard rather then an exceeds standard in for my yearly review was my “computer skills”. Which was very loosely defined. Basically I really have no idea how or what they are looking for to get to “exceeds standards” for that. I guess I am going to have to get someone to really explain what they are looking for so I have a better idea.
I hate saying I am bored with my job. It’s the first job in a long time that I enjoy and that I feel confident enough in myself to try and move up in position. Normally I just don’t care. It’s just money at the end of the day. I hate feeling so lost. I am scared that I will loose interest and start going downhill. Should I admit that to my coach? I have no idea. All I know is I really really do not want to get frustrated and loose interest this time.
Totally unrelated we have a rather nasty Nor’easter heading our way… 40-50 cm of snow, 100km/hour winds and a rather messy Wednesday. If you wanna follow for yourself click here. I guess I have to drag my boots out one more time, should be interesting with the crutches.