What is the most controversial thing you’ve ever written on your blog? What compelled you to write it?
It’s hard to answer this as I don’t think I have really wrote anything controversial. The closest thing was this post about abuse that I had suffered in the past by an ex-boyfriend. I guess you could consider anything related to abuse controversial in the manner that sometimes people will not believe you, or say you deserved it for staying or what you consider abuse may not necessarily be what someone else considers abuse, etc. I could go on and on with this as over the years I have heard anything and everything you could ever imagine regarding it from “it’s too late to talk now” to “you stayed so therefor you deserved what you got”.
But I wrote it at the time that I did because in my mind I was still trying to make sense of it all. The truth is most women and men in situations like that do not reach out at the time it is happening for help. So many suffer in silence because either they do not know what to do, or they tried to say something to someone and did not get the reaction they expected so they were hesitant to say anything to anyone else or because they were just to scared to say anything.
I remember at the time that I wrote that on blogger (the original post), I only let a few people read it as I was still scared. Looking back I don’t know why. I had realized that I was worth more then what he kept telling me I was worth. I knew I had to end it. Eventually something just pushes you over the top. Sometimes people do something like I did and walk away, other times they end it in a substantially different way. If you know what I mean. Luckily I was not in that frame of mind at the time, though I was close.
So is the whole thing controversial. Not really. Not to me anyways, but to some people it might be. Abuse, depression, suicide are all topics that can be really controversial and even though I have touched on all of them in my life I don’t tend to write about it much. Maybe because I am scared of what people will say.