I’ve been thinking more and more lately about the future and what it may or may not hold… I guess I’ve just had a lot of time on my hands. I keep thinking that we need to be more careful. About what we spend. When we spend it and what we spend it on. But the more thinking I do the more frustrated I get. I have a hard time setting up guidelines and following them. It’s even harder to do so when you have someone else helping you spend the money (both yours and theirs).

I am finally in a stage in my life where I feel like I am in full control and about time too…. I am in a relationship that is finally good for me. He treats me really well. And I in return do the same. Sure we joke around and sometimes we annoy the crap out of each other but we are happy. We are healthy. And we are in love.

Living with someone is so much more different then I remember this time around. I guess I was much younger the first 2 times. And the last time I was with someone for any length of time, He and I did not live together. So this is taking some getting used to but I think we are doing rather well. Maybe we are not getting everything done that I imagine we should. I don’t suppose anyone really does do they?

Nothing is ever set in stone. However I sometimes wish I had more of a backbone. That I could say no to something that I don’t think we need right now or say “just wait a bit hun, we’ll have money later for that…” Not that I imagine it would do much good. If he wants something he just goes and gets it. It bothers me a little. And maybe it should? But sometimes I just don’t want to argue. Which probably annoys him.

I just wish I was better at this whole communication thing that everyone seems think is the cornerstone of a relationship. I should at least get points for trying should I not? He’s pretty good though. He understands that and he understands me. Overall I’d say we get each other well. Which is what a relationship is all about.

So to say that even though I feel sometimes like I take a step forward and 2 steps back I don’t care. Ultimately and most importantly I am happy. Because we are doing it together. And one day that is going to count for a lot. If it hasn’t already.

I managed to get my computer past the very unnerving black screen vista kept giving me when I tried to turn it on and load it up. I still haven’t figured out what program(s) are causing the problem and now I seem to have lost administration privileges on every user account! It’s frustrating as hell. I can not figure out what is going on. I hope I am not going to have to give in and take it to someone to fix it for me. I have done everything I can think of…

On a lighter side I am loving the new job. Who would not love a job that pays well and all you have to do is take a couple of chats and/or calls a night and the rest of the time your free to do whatever you want. I can’t complain there. To bad there is no TV. But computer and internet access is good enough for me!

Last night while playing a game on Facebook. Yes I’m obsessed! My computer decided to freeze up. No bid deal. Just reboot right? Yeah well, of course not. I rebooted it and all I kept getting was a black screen with a curser. It would not load anything. So I took it into Best Buy today. For the 3rd time since I bought my Toshiba Satellite since June of last year. They told me it was a software issue and was not under the warranty. I’ve had this computer since the end of June so 7 months and already they have replaced it once and repaired it twice because the hard drive keeps crashing and I keep loosing all my data. So anyways the tech tells me he disabled all programs from opening in the start and to take it home and back up all my data onto my portable hard drive. And then bring it back and they will do a tuneup for $49. Which may or may not work. If it doesn’t then we will reinstall windows for you for an additional $99. Which may or may not work, which would then mean it was not a software issue but rather a hardware issue and then we would need to send it to Toshiba. He then asks: So what would you like to do? Uh…. what do you think? I think I’ll take it to someone who knows WTF they are doing thanks…

Sidney Crosby just won Canada the GOLD medal in Men’s Hockey! Go Sidney!!!

We went to a house warming party last night for friends of Keith’s who bought a house few months ago. It put us both in a frame of mind that we now want a house. Not another apartment. Not to buy. Not yet anyways. But just a small house, or duplex or something similar to rent. It’s not so easy to find something that is exactly what you are looking for however. It’s actually much harder then I ever thought it would be. Still it would be nice.

We took our time on the way home driving down the valley. I just wish I had of brought my camera with me. I want to get back into photography. I have always loved it. I have an SLR Camera. It’s not the greatest one but it’s certainly a good start. I bought my other domain with the idea that I would start getting back into it and have somewhere to display them. It seems there is more sites like that then ever though.