I’m going back to work!

I received the results of my bone scan today. Thankfully there are no fractures. I do have osteoarthritis in the hip and an impingement which the previous CT and x-ray showed but for now he just wants to keep an eye on that and re-scan in about 6 months. He believes the pain I am experiencing now is not actually stemming from my hip at all but my lower spine and sacral joint where he believes I may have caused some nerve damage which is affecting my left hip, thigh and groin as I have some numbness on the outside and inside of my upper leg and hip area as well as pain.

He wants to start me on Lyrica at a low dose for a few months to see if that helps with the pain. As I have Fibromyalgia and have been on medications before I am familiar with Lyrica and have been on it at higher doses before. My only concern is the side effects. I was never a fan of them before. Hopefully I can keep it a rather low dose. Between my doctor and pharmacy team I am going to stress I want the dose as low as possible. I can deal with some breakthrough pain as long as it is under control. I just don’t want super heavy side effects.

If this doesn’t help I am going to push for them to look into this more. I don’t know if there is a way to confirm nerve damage and where exactly it is. Sometimes it’s hard cause I am always in pain somewhere and it can be hard to isolate an injury from something else. I thought I had gotten pretty good at living with the pain but sometimes things happen that aggravate or cause other issues that are unrelated but cause more pain. He mentioned I may need more testing and see other specialists. I am not sure what other specialist I can see, I guess a neurologist maybe?

The good news in all of this is that I can go back to work ASAP. I am expecting a call tomorrow from the short term benefits company and we already talked about me starting back this week coming or next on a graduated return. Which would be: 1st week – 3 days x 4 hours, 2nd week – 5 days x 4 hours, 3rd week 5 days x 6 hours and 4th week back to normal. As I am still on crutches for the time being and still in a considerable amount of pain when sitting I am okay with that. I will be weaning myself off crutches as I start on medication at my own pace, he told me to push it a little but not overdue it and take some time to get off them completely. I have a temporary handicap parking tag as well for 6 months to allow me some time to heal. Hopefully it won’t take that long.

He also suggested no physio at the moment as he is concerned that they might aggravate it more if I get a physiotherapist that is not as versed in nerve pain. I think the physiotherapist over the summer I was seeing would be able to handle it and would actually help a lot but I will wait and see how the medication works, besides my $750 a year for physio is pretty much gone so why start something I can’t afford to finish.

I am also going to be possibly switching insulin as well from Basaglar to Toujeo as the Basaglar stings and burns like crap. Last night after injecting it in my thigh it hurt for an hour! I mentioned that while I was there and he said he thought Toujeo would be a better option and is still only once a day. Mom’s on it and I asked her and she said she has not had any issues with it stinging other then occasionally for a second or two as it is going in, not a burning so bad you are rubbing your leg to get it to stop which you should not be doing kind of burn.

October & Forza Horizon 4

I can’t believe it is half way through October already. Fall has just flown by! It’s the 14th already but it seems like September. Our weather has been so nice I don’t even have winter tires on the car yet. Speaking of cars, Eddie downloaded Forza Horizon 2 for me while ago when it was free with Xbox Gold. I never played it but was looking for something to do the other day so I decided to play and loved it. I noticed Forza Horizon 4 was released October 2nd for Xbox One and was part of Xbox Game pass. I decided to get a 14 day free trial as we had it once before but the games weren’t that great. I downloaded Forza Horizon 4 and started playing and I am in love!!!

I honestly can not get enough of this game! Seriously. I’ve only been playing 4 days and I am at level 50 already. For me that’s pretty impressive because I get bored of things easily but there is so much to do! There are races, an open world to drive around in and things to find including rare cars (barn finds) that you can fix up. It’s like a giant treasure map. I can’t believe we had Forza Horizon 2 all along and I never played it.

The shots are of my actual cars, it has a great photo tool and the scenery and graphics in the game are amazing. I have played racing games before and enjoy them but never really played anything that I couldn’t put down. That’s what all started this. We were over at Eddie’s sisters place and the kids wanted to play on the Xbox and of course the adults got involved and started racing each other and the kids. It was Forza Motorsport 5. She mentioned they downloaded it for free a while ago so when we got home I went looking. I saw we had Forza Horizon 2 but didn’t really think I would be interested because I was looking for a track racing game.

Eddie mentioned to me that it was open world sort of like GTA but without the violence. So I decided to try it and now I am hooked. Seriously he may never see his Xbox again

 

Orthopedic Specialist

I saw the orthopedic specialist a week ago. We didn’t wait all that long in the waiting room before going in which was nice. He started off by reviewing my x-rays of my knee, femur and hip and then the CT scan of my hip. I noticed on both the x-ray and CT of my hip he kept absentmindedly circling the top of my femur with his pen. He never said anything though initially. He gave me a gown and left the room.

After changing into the gown and waiting a few minutes he came back and asked me to climb up on the table. Not an easy feat when on crutches and unable to put full weight on my leg. After a few minutes of fumbling with the help of my husband I was able to get up and lay down. He started out with my uninjured leg and moved it around in the hip socket a bit and asked me if it hurt. It did but not on that side it just hurt some on the injured side as he was moving me around on the examination table a bit. Then he moved on to my injured side.

I thought I was gonna die. The pain was so extreme I screamed and screamed. He asked me where it hurt. I told him where. It was mostly in my groin on the inside top of my thigh but some just on the top and on the side of my hip as well stretching around to the back. The pain in my groin area was so bad though. He didn’t do anything else after that. He just told me to get down and change back into my clothes.

After this he came back and said he was really concerned about my hip. He thought I might have an occult (hidden) fracture in my hip somewhere despite what the report with he x-ray and CT scan said. He looked at my CT scan for a few more minutes and then said “Yeah, I think we need to do more testing on your hip”. So now I have to go for a bone scan. Which from my understanding is a CT scan but with a radioactive substance that will highlight any fractures, even if they have been there a few weeks or months or even years. It will show other anomalies as well such as bone regrowth, tumors, etc.

He told me to continue using crutches and keeping the weight bearing to a minimum with the crutches. I can put down the leg to help steady myself and to ensure my knee and ankle don’t get stiff and sore again as they are still healing as well but he said not to put full weight on it and be really careful as if there is a fracture one wrong move including just twisting or stepping on it wrong could be catastrophic and cause a really bad break.

I had a further talk with my family doctor yesterday and he filled out paperwork to see if we can extend my short term a bit longer and keep me at home. Getting to and from work is an issue and sitting is an issue as I can not sit very long at a 90° angle. I start to hurt so much. I can’t do physio or anything yet. So hopefully they wont give me a hard time about it. I have to recline at like a 135° angle to get some pain relief or stand with the crutches which is hard in itself.

My family doctor gave me paperwork to get a temp accessible parking pass and I am using a wheelchair for longer distances so I can at least go to Walmart for an hour or so with my husband to get out occasionally. But an hour at Walmart just tires me out and causes a lot of pain so I am mostly just home trying to keep the pain under control with tylenol and ibuprofen. They won’t even give me anything else until they know what it is. He also mentioned that if it turns out there is a fracture there I will need to have surgery to insert a rod and pins/screws etc as it will not heal on it’s own unless I spend 3-4 months on strict bed rest. Which is not an option and they don’t recommend unless you can’t have surgery for medical reasons.

Leaves me in a bit of a predicament though, on one hand I hope that it is not fractured so that I can get on with my life, however as I am experiencing the pain and they can not find a reason that’s not really getting on with my life or on the other hand you hope that they can tell you yes it’s fractured, here’s what we are gonna do and by this time next year you will be back to normal after surgery and time to heal.

It’s left me frustrated beyond belief, more frustrated then I have ever been before. Even the time leading up to the diabetes diagnosis and the other health issues weren’t this frustrating.

Vacation 2018 & Other Stuff

Wow I can’t believe it is September already! And I can’t believe I have gone the whole summer without blogging even though I said I was going to blog multiple times a week. I am guessing that was a little bit of an impossible goal for me. I will apologize a head of time that this post is going to be a little bit of everything, all over the place, but that is kinda what blogging is all about, right?

Since my last post a lot has actually happened. I fell again and re-injured my leg and hurt my hip (which I didn’t hurt the first time) at the beginning of August. I am just now starting to be able to tolerate a bit of weight on it. I am back using crutches again but this time we said the hell with it and rented a wheelchair for a month or so. They did both x-ray’s and a CT scan. I am awaiting the results of the CT which was done last week. I am assuming nothing major or I should have been contacted by now.

In the process of having my leg and hip checked out I found out I do have something wrong with both of my hips. The head of the femur bone is not formed right and doesn’t fit in the hip socket right according to my family doctor. He said that if nothing is done about it it will only get worse and cause issues like arthritis (which the x-ray said there is already signs of) and/or needing surgery or hip replacement. Of course I googled it, but the only thing I could find was something called hip impingement which I have had some symptoms of in the past but very mild. However now it seems to really fit with my current symptoms after the second fall. I am not sure if a fall could aggravate something that was already there and mild and make it worse. I have an appointment on September 20th with an Orthopedic specialist who is a retired surgeon who consults.

Apparently according to my doctor who is my parents doctor and my mom it runs in my family. My father had it as well and had surgery as well as arthritis. My Dad’s sister told me that she had it and it caused arthritis and damage to the point she has had both hips replaced. I knew she had the surgery but wasn’t aware the cause. My Grandfather on his side and his brother also had the same thing and ended up having surgery. So I guess I will find out if that is what I have and if a fall could have aggravated it and caused a lot of pain. Hopefully if I need any kind of surgery they can do it now while I am still off work already and not have me go back to work for a few months and then have to go back on short term again. Although knowing the health care system in Nova Scotia I am sure I am at minimum going to see a 3 month wait and at maximum a few years wait to get surgery if it is needed.

As you can probably guess by the title of the post we had vacation set for this year as well that was suppose to coincide with our 2nd anniversary at the end of August. All those plans went down the drain. Last I mentioned it we were going to Quebec City. Then later on in the summer we decided we would go to Connecticut to visit my cousin Robin and her husband instead. My parents still went but because I can’t walk without crutches and because of the pain I am in when sitting or standing or doing pretty much anything we stayed home. I am still off work on short term benefits anyways so I told Eddie to keep his vacation days booked and we would have a stay-cation. We ended up at my parents place as I can not do the stairs in our building and get around very well plus it is still super hot here. We have had the hottest summer I can ever remember and they have air conditioning. It means a lot of back and forth for Eddie to feed our cat Max as he can’t come to my parents as he doesn’t get along with their dog Scamp who we are dog sitting.

In my time off I have been doing a lot of thinking. I am thinking I want to go back to school. Like really want to go back to school. Just the community college maybe part-time and continuing to work or maybe even think about trying to get a student loan and going full-time. I just honestly am unsure what I want to take. At 38 I am still unsure what I want to do with my life career wise I love working at the bank but hate the call center. With the amount of time I have missed it is hard to get anywhere. So I guess until I get all the health issues under control I might as well not really make too many plans.

I am also thinking about starting up a small web hosting company again. Last time I just didn’t bother putting any work into it. But since I have all the extra space in my reseller account and have done it before I might try again. I need to come up with a name and buy a domain for it if I decide to or maybe I will just have it as a part of this domain and also have a small free package and a few paid ones. I only currently host a couple small sites for Deanna and for my mom’s business website, but that’s it. I kinda want to try it again.

I still struggle with my diabetes as well. Getting and keeping my blood sugar under control is really hard. I thought that the Freestyle Libre would make a big difference and it did at first but so much of it comes down to me and my self control. Its so much easier to pop in a pizza in the oven then to cook a meal. Especially now when I can’t really get around well. I’ve been really eating crap. It’s frustrating but it is what it is. I need to get my A1C checked again so I can see where I am at and see if the doctor wants me back on MDI’s, if that is the case I am going to apply through my insurance for a pump maybe, an omnipod or something. At least my insurance covers that stuff for type 2’s as a lot don’t.

Update: Still on crutches

I figured it’s time for an update. I haven’t felt much like picking up my laptop because I am so uncomfortable. It’s been more then two and a half weeks since my fall and I am still on crutches. The x-rays came back with no apparent fractures. I am still in a lot of pain in my knee and ankle both and still a considerable amount of pain in my back, neck, shoulder and pretty much most of my left side. I can’t put much weight on my leg and if I do I am in a lot of pain afterward. My doctor wants me off work due to the pain and fact that I still can not put weight on my leg for a while longer. He has me off until at least July 9th for now.

I started physiotherapy yesterday. The physiotherapist confirmed that my ACL and Meniscus seem to be intact but feels I have a grade 2 sprain and partial tearing in my MCL and that I have a grade 2 eversion sprain and possible tearing to the ligaments on the inside of my ankle. He wants me to remain non-weight bearing for another week or  so and then toe touch and then partial weight bearing as tolerated but not to overdue for the next week or two after. He also taped up my knee. Which may not seem like a lot but it really helps with the swelling, as my knee was really swollen before. You could clearly see the fluid on my knee. Luckily I don’t have much bruising and the swelling in my ankle is minimal but still there.

He was concerned about the fact that I have an eversion sprain (sprain to the inside instead of outside of the ankle) as he said usually that is associated with a fracture at the end of the fibula. I don’t really understand that as when I looked it up the fibula is the outside bone not the inside one. He mentioned to let my doctor know when I do a followup that it seems I may have an eversion sprain as my doctor may want to do another x-ray to confirm if there is a fracture there as it might not have shown up unless they knew what they were looking for on the first x-ray. I would assume they would check for that but maybe not?

So crutches have been an adventure and a half. I have fallen twice on them, the second time I even hurt my ankle a bit more. I am still having a hard time being non-weight bearing or no more then a toe touch weight bearing which I have had to do a bit to maintain balance. I am trying not to put too much weight as I don’t want to rupture anything while it starts to heal but I am really having a hard time on crutches. I don’t know if it is because I am overweight. I don’t imagine an extra 40 lbs bodyweight really helps. I also find it aggravates my back and neck which hurt from the fall itself.

I am able to get to the washroom and back but trying to get to my car and down the stairs in my building is hard. We are on the second floor of building that is definitely not wheelchair accessible. Going to physio yesterday tired me out so much I could barely move around the house last night. The palm (heel area) of my hands feel bruised and numb and painful and my forearms hurt and my shoulders. The physiotherapist readjusted my crutches yesterday and showed me how to properly use them including going up and down stairs and how to sit and stand from a chair which helped a little.

Last night Edward suggested we take the self adhesive ace bandage that I bought for my knee which I don’t need and wrap it around the hand grips on the crutches to see if it helps absorb some of the shock and help with the pain and it works really well!

Don’t mind the scratches on our couch, our cat has made a mess of it.

I can’t wait to get off the crutches and I can’t wait to get back to work. Sitting around all day is boring, at least I have CBS All Access and Netflix and a bunch of other stuff on our Roku.