I Really Need a Break

Most people need a break from work, me I need a break from being sick. I’m not talking diabetes or fibromyalgia or anything like that. I’m just talking colds, infections and the flu. I have literally lost track of the number of colds, flu and infections I have had over the last year or two. It seems I go from one to another to another. I have another cold right now.

It started last Tuesday with a sore throat coming on a few hours before I left work. I powered through a sore throat all day Wednesday and Thursday and some sneezing but it wasn’t all that bad, just more of an annoyance then anything. By Friday night the congestion set in, all stuffed up, runny nose, watery eyes etc., all the fun cold symptoms. I’ve always been told as an asthmatic not to take cold medication/cough syrup but I have always done it and apparently it can raise your blood sugar as well but at this point I am miserable.

Friday was a stay at home and relax on the couch day after I had a dentist appointment for a cleaning. I don’t work Fridays. I never canceled the cleaning because last time I tried to cancel a cleaning appointment when I woke up the morning of it with the flu they got really mad at me and wanted to charge me $100 for the appointment. So I just told her about the cold before we started and she said as long as I was okay it was fine. Later that evening the symptoms were more bothersome but still controllable with cold medication (Shopper’s Drug mart brand of Tylenol Cold basically).

Saturday I felt pretty good and Edward convinced me that as long as I bundled up warm it would do me some good to get out and go for a walk so we chose Peggy’s Cove. In hind sight maybe the wind and salt water air may not have been the best choice, or maybe it was. Who knows. I felt okay Saturday night. I just relaxed and watched TV with Edward.

Sunday I woke up feeling really horrible with a really hoarse and sore throat, wheezing, coughing, headache, fever, congestion and generally feeling like I was hit by an 18-wheeler. I ended up calling in sick to work. I relaxed on the couch again and kept warm and fell asleep with the cat laying on my feet. Later I woke up feeling sick to my stomach but I am guessing that is just the congestion and everything else because I never did get sick.

Today I am feeling a bit better and am heading to work shortly armed with more cold medication, throat lozenges, my inhaler and lots of water. Maybe I’ll grab a peppermint tea from Tim Hortons before I start work today. It’s going to be a busy day, Monday’s always are but it is a short week because of yesterday plus my next week is also a short week because I booked Sunday the 13th off (at least I think I did, I’ll have to double check when I get there). So at least I can get some rest and try and get rid of this cold.

As I was saying before it’s just one thing after another. I am not sure what is causing me to get sick so often or what I can do about it but I have fought multiple chest infections, throat infections, a uterine infection (which put me in the hospital for 3 days), colds, the flu (3 or 4 times), plus the infection and dry socket from the wisdom teeth extraction all since October and it doesn’t seem to want to stop. I really need a break. I’m not even really under that much stress right now. I just need to have a few months without getting sick.

Eating & Drinking with Diabetes

One of the biggest things that has been on my mind lately is eating and drinking. I eat horribly and I never know what to drink. Despite that I have somehow been able to bring my A1C down to 6.1%. But if I am being absolutely honest with myself I am not really sure how I did it. I have made some changes. The biggest one was cutting out sugary pop. For much of my teen and adult life I have been a big Pepsi and Root Beer drinker. My husband and I have stopped buying regular pop. However we have just replaced it with Coke Zero (which was the closest taste wise to Pepsi I found), which I know is just trading one issue for another. This has likely contributed to my A1C lowering because I was drinking insane amounts of regular sugary pop before I was diagnosed and even a little after while I was sort of in the denial phase.

I have been trying hard to just drink water but I find it so bland. I am not a fan of the flavor water enhancers. I know they are sugar free but I find they are bitter or taste like chemicals. Which I know is the Stevia or Aspartame or whichever natural or artificial sweetener is in them. I don’t drink fruit juices unless my blood sugar is low and it’s all I have access to then I will for the sake of bringing my blood sugar back up. I really struggle with what to drink. I know plain old water is best and sometimes I actually just want cold plain old water but other times I crave the bubbly fizzy taste of pop.

I also really really struggle with what to eat. I am very picky and have some allergies. I’m allergic to shell fish and do not like any other kind of fish. I tested positive years ago for an allergy to peanuts and almonds and some other tree nuts (can’t remember which ones) and a few years ago found out I did not actually have an allergy to peanuts. I was recently re-referred to the Halifax Asthma and Allergy Clinic and was tested again for peanuts and tree nuts and she came to the conclusion that I have Dermatographia and Chronic Hives because I reacted to everything including me scratching my arm on her desk while she did it which swelled up had a big welt. So that had been giving me false positives for years. Blood tests revealed that I am not allergic to peanuts or any tree nuts. I have been slowly reintroducing them back in.

I only like a few vegetables like carrots, peas (kind of), celery (raw only, can’t stand it cooked), radishes, lettuce, cucumber and sweet potatoes and potatoes. I would love to add in more veggies but I hate the taste of cauliflower, broccoli, zucchini, spinach, squash, green beans and eggplant. My friends and family always say it’s all about how your prepare them but honestly I have never been able to find a way to prepare any of them that make them even slightly tolerable to me. I tend to like raw veggies more then cooked. Also as I mentioned in my last post. I have no time in the day to make anything before leaving for work. I never have the time on the weekend either to do any meal prep for the week.

I have the hardest time finding things that I like to take to work. I scour Pinterest, Facebook, and websites for recipes and ideas and just never come up with anything appealing which typically leads to me bringing already prepared stuff from Sobeys (grocery store) or Walmart or getting supper in the food court at work or even drinking a Glucerna for supper. I have met with a diabetic nurse and a nutritionist and still find it hard to put their ideas or suggestions in place.

Sometimes we will make casseroles like Sheppard’s pie, scalloped potatoes or a macaroni casserole with enough leftovers to take to work with us. I still find though that I get bored with eating and sometimes I just don’t enjoy eating at all and find it more of a chore that has to be done then something to enjoy. I get so frustrated because I feel like a failure because I can’t really cook other then the basics.

I haven’t been counting carbs like I have been advised to because quite honestly it is depressing. I can never get it right. I always have to many carbs but yet am left feeling hungry not not full. The only time I thought I had a decent grasp on carb counting was when I was in the IWK Woman & Childrens Hospital for 4 days in October with a uterine infection and I had to choose from their diabetic menu. I kind of which I had kept a copy of it because it was so easily layed out and so simple. I wonder if I can find a copy online…

Handwriting recognition, Asthma, and allergies.

I am really having a hard time with blogging lately. Its not that I don’t have the time. I do. I just either forget about it or I start but then get sidetracked and then I never finish my post. By the time I go back, I just want to start over. I thought some about giving up the domain and hosting, but I really don’t want to. I love the domain name so much and have had it since 2005. I just can’t imagine getting rid of it! Both the domain name and hosting are due to renew soon…

I was sick all last week again. I got a cold over the weekend and ended up with a really bad cough again. I missed a week of work because I was so sick. I couldn’t breath and was coughing up so much phlegm I was literally choking on it. I was also running a fever and had the chills. I lost my voice completely for 6 days, which is why I didn’t go to work. Its really starting to suck. I am constantly getting sick or not feeling well. It’s rough.

Oddly enough on Monday of this week I went to see a specialist at the hospital and had a Pulmonary function test done and I ”passed” it . So the specialist said she does not actually think I have Asthma… which I find frustrating, for one thing I was diagnosed, and have been treated for Asthma since I was five, when my Mom and Dad bought me a down filled duvet and Smurfs cover and sheets.

I had a bad reaction to the down fill and kept waking up wheezing, gasping for air and turning blue. I also had hives, but no swelling or Anaphylaxis. I developed a cough as well. They did allergy testing and said I was allergic to feathers, cats, rabbits and dust and mold. They also did pulmonary function tests and said I had Asthma and I have been treated for and taken medication for ever since. I have even been hospitalized a few times for my Asthma. So to say I don’t have it doesn’t make sense to me at all.

In my teens and 20’s and 2 years ago they repeated the tests and nothing changed. This time however on Monday they said I passed all the pulmonary function tests and that they don’t believe I have Asthma and that my allergy tests only showed an allergy to dust (which I could clearly see for myself, and feel because of the hives, redness, swelling and itching). I know its possible for allergies and even Asthma to change and/or go away, but I just don’t buy that its not Asthma and I don’t know why I have pretty much had this cold and cough since August.

Anyways, while I was sick my Musee Notier stylus came from Japan, my folding case for my tablet, and the screen protectors that I ordered. I’m loving the stylus and handwriting recognition. It works fairly well. I found an Andriod app that incorporates handwriting recognition in the WordPress app, Chrome, and just about any app that uses a keyboard. Its called StylusBeta. Where ever the keyboard would shorw you get an area to write and as you write it turns to ”typed” words. It’s fairly accurate and even recognizes my messy writing quite well.

Winter is finally here after a late start. Since January 1st we have had 109.1 cm of snow fall. In the last 48 hours we have had about 30 of that 109.1 fall. We are supposed to get 10 cm tomorrow, 10 cm on Monday, 10 cm Tuesday and 10 cm on Thursday of next week as well with cold temperatures all week. So what is all ready there is not likely to go anywhere. So much snow! New Brunswick and P.E.I. have actually had more then us! Needless to say, with so much snow and with no snow tires my car has not left the parking lot. I tried on Monday and got stuck so I decided to leave it where it is. Cory’s Dad has driven me in and I hitched rides with co-workers or took a cab back home…

I haven’t even tried to go anywhere else. Just started my car a few times to make sure it works. Which twice it actually didn’t and we had to get a boost. Other people on my street are in the same boat. I’ve had to boost one guy twice and he in turn boosted us once and pushed my car to the other side of the lot a few times cause we couldn’t even get it over there when it would start. This has been a brutal few weeks weather-wise for the whole Atlantic sea-board (I think thats what its called).

At work this week, I was trained on software support. I y-corded with 2 software agents and did a few hours of email only time. They do that with all new agents or agents switching to other projects or departments within projects. I’ll have another day or so of email and y-cording and then by Tuesday I should be taking calls. I’m excited to be doing something different since I didn’t get a coach position last time they hired. Just going to keep trying I guess. But I am getting tired of filling out the coach workbook and applying.

I think I am done writing for now, my hand is starting to cramp and the tip of my stylus which is rubber is starting to squeak. That really doesn’t sound right…

Why am I sick again?

I spent the first few days this week sick at home… again. It just feels never ending. We left Mom and Dad’s on Monday and I was supposed to work from 12-8 pm. However, I woke up that morning throwing up. Since I had a 2 1/2 hour drive ahead of us that I would have to do (Cory has never really driven that far and was not feeling well either). I called in to work to let them know I would not be there. It was not an easy decision to make. I only had about 2 hours of sleep because I was so unsettled, my stomach was upset but I was not getting sick.

I ended up moving from the bed to a very uncomfortable futon around 4 when I realized it was 4 and I had to get up and drive in 2 hours. I should have probably realized at that point that that was not going to happen but I was stubbornly trying to figure out how to manage it. In the end I gave up when I started throwing up. I decided to crawl back in bed and attempt the drive a little later on in the day.

And what a drive it was! I had to go the old route (more then 3 1/2 hours) because it was slower then the highway and the motion of the car was making me really sick and the last thing I wanted to do was get sick in my new car. I made it as far as Kentville before getting sick. After that I had to stop abut 4 times. When we got home I crawled into bed assuming I had what Cory was getting over and that I would be fine in the morning. I wasn’t though.

Now I have the cough back that I had a few months ago where I cough till I either pee my pants (I wish I was kidding) or I throw up, or both. I feel so miserable. The last 2 days I was coughing a lot up which was making me sick as I probably swallowed as much as I coughed up. Now I have a really deep dry hacking cough that vibrates everything around me. I feel really tight and wheezy as well so I assume it is my Asthma flaring up again.

I am still taking Singular once a day (a pill at night) and my inhalers Symbacort and Ventolin. I take the Symbacort first and after reaching 8 “puffs” then I switch to Ventolin as they told me in the Pulmonary clinic. I had stopped regularly taking Symbacort and Ventolin, though I kept taking the Singular. I am guessing I stopped too soon. They told me not to but I always end up doing that, as my symptoms die down I tend to automatically wean myself off them. I don’t even do it purposely. It seems to be ingrained in me to do it and I don’t even think about it. I guess I have to be really careful about that.

I haven’t even had then energy to pick up my computer other then to click the Netflix icon when there is nothing on TV to watch or when I am not sleeping. I did go to work yesterday and today but I have no voice again either. It’s really really hoarse when it is there and the more I talk the hoarser it gets and the more out of breath I get and the more I cough.

I am hoping that next week will be a bit better. I almost feel that I am getting another cold, before the one I have is even gone. I am stuffed up again and sneezing (which usually happens just at the beginning and not 4-5 days into it). I am not sure what I am going to do if I am not feeling better…

Dropping the ball

Somehow I really dropped the ball yesterday. I am not sure why but I thought I had posted. However I didn’t. Who am I kidding anyways? I can’t blog everyday, I never have been able to for very long.

Yesterday I think it was because I went to the dentist and wasn’t feeling the greatest when I got home. Only one more appointment for all my dental work to be done. Yesterday he filled my tooth that I had the root canal on, the molar that broke. He sort of rebuilt it, it’s in the back and I don’t really care what it looks like as long as it functions.

I am a bit sore today. I also had 3 more fillings on that side done. Took a while for the freezing to wear off again. My appointment was at 1 pm I was out by 2:15-2:30 pm but my whole right side of my face was still frozen when I went to bed.

This morning it was out but sore. That combined with another cold and the loss of my voice again I ended up just doing emails at work today. I missed Monday and Tuesday because I could not talk or breath again. My asthma is back and so is my cough. If you add in yesterday it was a really short week for me and I spent most of it and last weekend in bed.

It was during one of those days in bed that I decided to try doing a blog post every day, not that that lasted all the long. Cory is gone away for the weekend and wont be back till Sunday so I have a weekend to myself. Just me and the cat. Who I am about to kill if he attacks me one more time…