Work, Medication & Relocation

I am about half way through my third week back at work. I am doing six hour shifts this week. So far I am doing okay. Not great but okay. I am still having considerable pain but I am just glad to be back. I started Lyrica about the same time I started back at work (the night before). That is not going so great so far, not that I really expected much. It’s not really helping at all with my pain during the day. At night it makes me so sleepy that I am unsure if I am sleeping okay because of that or because it is helping my pain. I think more just that it is knocking me out

I started at 75 mg and was supposed to increase it after about a week slowly up to no more then 300 mg. I haven’t gone up at all. The reason is that I don’t think I would be a fully functioning human being if I did. I can barely tolerate the 75 mg. I tried last night just the one time to increase to 150 mg, today I struggled with every word at work, I was staring off into space and I felt as if I had cotton balls in my mouth. I am not doing that to myself again tonight so back to 75 mg I go.

I am going to see if I can get a prescription for 25 mg from my doctor and try going up more slowly from 75 mg. I can see why I hate this medication the first time I was on it. It really does a number on you. I am so dizzy as well. I am scared to drive and won’t drive right after I take it. So I take it at night. I am not sure it’s going to work for me but I need to give it some more time I think. It’s hard because I am tired of dealing with the pain which is still pretty considerable. I have pain which is sometimes feels like a stabbing pain and other times a burning or searing sensation down my leg. I have pins and needles and a numb sensation that happens often. I am also getting a lot of swelling still.

I want so badly to just ditch the crutches and walk but I am scared to as well. Sometimes I wonder if that part is in my head. If I am just limiting myself because I am scared. The medication is making me unsteady and dizzy, plus my leg tends to give out from underneath me but should I just stop using the crutches? I am trying to slowly come off them. I can put most of my weight on my leg with them. Without them though I tire so quickly and I hurt so much more. I really am not sure what to do there.

Anyway, so as you can guess from the title of this post, Edward and I have been considering relocating for a little bit now and guess what? We are moving! We’re doing it! Edward found out today he has a job in Digby at Gidney Fisheries! He starts November 19th and gave his notice at his current job today. He was concerned how his boss would take it but he took it pretty good and was happy for him.

I also put in my resignation at the bank today, or at least that was the plan. Instead though I am going to see if I can take a leave of absence at their suggestion. Apparently they have an option when moving to another city or town in the same or different province that you can take a transfer leave which gives you 90 days to apply to and get a position in the same bank with another branch, location or department. If you don’t get one then on the 91st day your employment ceases as if you resigned but it also gives you a chance to keep your benefits and seniority while I attempt to find something and 90 days in case nothing is available right away. I read somewhere I have to give 4 weeks notice to do this but they suggested it so hoping no one notices

When I mentioned I was resigning my manager asked me to give him about an hour before I put in my resignation and talked to his manager then came back and told me this. They said they hope I can stay with the bank. They have branches in both Digby and Yarmouth. Yarmouth is only about an hour’s drive. We could settle somewhere between Digby and Yarmouth if I got something there eventually. In the meantime my parents have offered to rent us the cottage they just bought for quite a bit less then what we are paying for rent here.

They bought it outright so no mortgage. We would pay the utilities and a small rental fee all in one, the utilities will be on budget plans that will be the same each month, they plan to keep them in their name I think and we just pay them one amount to cover it all and even if we don’t and we pay the utilities ourselves in our name we will still be ahead. We’d be looking at half to two thirds what we are paying here once everything is said and done. About a $200 to $350 savings a month over our current living situation here. Edward will be making a bit more then $2/hour more there then here, plus after 6 months he will have full benefits.

If I stay with the bank I will still have everything I have here (full benefits plus lots more) but be $1 to $2 less then I make here. So in the long run it would even out pay wise. I have a lead on a job outside the bank as well and have been talking to a recruiter for a domain registration and web design/hosting company that has an office in Yarmouth and one here in Halifax, they are really interested in me. I have actually worked for them before.

They are looking for both domain specialists (sales) and technical support in Yarmouth. I enjoyed it the first time I worked there but I left to go to Afghanistan and when I came back they weren’t hiring and I moved on to somewhere else and honestly never considered them again till now. I know a few managers and other employees. In the meantime I can do some transcription work for my mom who has a lot of work right now and could use my help.

Overall this is a move in the right direction for us I think. We will be getting out of the city which we both want. We are tired of it here. We will be living in an area we love doing things we love. We’ll miss our friends in the city but plan on still doing a once a month game night with them and they can come visit and we will be in the city a lot still. We have to keep our doctor in the city as there is currently a shortage and over 50,000 Nova Scotian’s who don’t have family doctors. Plus we like him and want to stay with him anyways

So anyway, in the long run though it will mean saving more and much faster. We can save a down payment now, it would actually be possible. I plan on taking the full amount we would pay for rent up here each month, pay my parents what they want and take the rest and put it in a savings account. Something we can’t easily access. Also it will be good as well because the cottage is 2 bedroom, or will be in a few months when we make it back into a two bedroom. So we will start the process again for fostering/adoption. We are so excited!

A Broken Toe & New Theme

Between my husband and I we should be locked up in bubble wrapped, rubber padded rooms. Eddie broke his pinky toe and damaged the one beside it and has a huge bruise on his foot. He had a run in with my office chair. Needless to say, the chair won He’s been told to keep off it for 2-3 days then take it easy after that. When he first did it it was displaced I think. It was crooked, but he sat down and started playing with it and all I heard was a pop after the initial crack and then he said it hurt less.

The x-ray tech said it was definitely broken and that it was no longer displaced and suggested he just tape the two toes together because even though the other one hurt and was cut and bruised it was not broken, might be fractured a bit. I swear everyone in my family is a klutz, last weekend my brother dropped a bed rail while they were moving things from the cottage to the house on my mom’s arm. That had a huge hematoma and bruise and she is waiting the results of an x-ray (her tech was not as nice as my husbands). So she could have a broken arm as well. The doctor said there was a good chance it was broken so she was splinted. And I am still on crutches

In other news, the new theme is ready. I am not entirely sure I am happy with it or even like it It’s something different, a change, I guess. I still have the old one in case. I just copied it and changed the colors and a few other things. It was my theme I made with Underscores anyways. I had initially planed on doing a 1980’s theme in blue, pink, green and yellow but I abandoned that when I didn’t end up liking it. I still have it so I might keep working on it. I abandoned it for a 1950’s theme which I was going to make a logo for. I abandoned that as well. I ended up just going with colors I liked. I got bored with creating a theme pretty quickly. I get frustrated when it doesn’t go my way.

Halloween, Moving & A Ghost

I can’t believe it is almost Halloween!!! Only a few more days left! I am back at work on a gradual return and after two 4 hours days (with a day in between) I am feeling a lot of pain but just glad to be back. We haven’t decorated or anything but I am okay with that. We will for Christmas. We took the wheelchair back and I am still using crutches for work and outside the house, inside I am using a walker, to give my arms a bit of a rest.

Anyways I am sure you are more interested in hearing about the “Moving & A Ghost” part of this post aren’t you? So your probably wondering if Eddie and I are moving and the answer to that is no. We aren’t. It’s actually my parents who are. Strangely enough though they bought a house the 1st of October they are actually moving somewhere else. They are moving into a house my cousin and her husband bought around the same time. Both are in Digby and my parents are renting out the one they bought which they will eventually retire in but they will be living in my cousins house and guess what?!?!? It’s haunted! Yep, that’s right, haunted. It’s about 150 -180 years old. I can’t remember exactly what she said.

So the story goes that a woman who’s husband was a Sea Captain took sick while waiting for him to come home from sea. She passed away before he came home so her family decided it would be a shame to bury her before he came home and had his chance to say his goodbye’s. Being winter they wrapped her in blankets and put her in the shed which believe it or not was normal at that time. They waited for him to come home as he was due home in a week.

They waited and waited and after a few weeks they decided they needed the shed she was in and so they moved her closer to the bay to a pig shed. Still they waited and waited and the husband never came home. He was presumed dead, lost at sea. Finally spring came and they were able to bury the woman on her property close to the house. It’s said that she walks the property looking for her lost husband still to this day, waiting for him to come home from sea.

Apparently she has been heard in the house and on the property. Things move around without anyone touching them. She also likes to tuck people in including kids and she will kiss them on the cheek. She is said to be kind and gentle and not at all scary. Can you imagine? And my parents are going to be living there. I can’t wait to be honest! I love a good ghost story. It would not be my first encounter with the paranormal and likely wouldn’t be my last. I can’t wait to stay the night there.

We are going down Friday but will be staying in the cottage as there are not enough beds in the house yet.

Orthopedic Specialist

I saw the orthopedic specialist a week ago. We didn’t wait all that long in the waiting room before going in which was nice. He started off by reviewing my x-rays of my knee, femur and hip and then the CT scan of my hip. I noticed on both the x-ray and CT of my hip he kept absentmindedly circling the top of my femur with his pen. He never said anything though initially. He gave me a gown and left the room.

After changing into the gown and waiting a few minutes he came back and asked me to climb up on the table. Not an easy feat when on crutches and unable to put full weight on my leg. After a few minutes of fumbling with the help of my husband I was able to get up and lay down. He started out with my uninjured leg and moved it around in the hip socket a bit and asked me if it hurt. It did but not on that side it just hurt some on the injured side as he was moving me around on the examination table a bit. Then he moved on to my injured side.

I thought I was gonna die. The pain was so extreme I screamed and screamed. He asked me where it hurt. I told him where. It was mostly in my groin on the inside top of my thigh but some just on the top and on the side of my hip as well stretching around to the back. The pain in my groin area was so bad though. He didn’t do anything else after that. He just told me to get down and change back into my clothes.

After this he came back and said he was really concerned about my hip. He thought I might have an occult (hidden) fracture in my hip somewhere despite what the report with he x-ray and CT scan said. He looked at my CT scan for a few more minutes and then said “Yeah, I think we need to do more testing on your hip”. So now I have to go for a bone scan. Which from my understanding is a CT scan but with a radioactive substance that will highlight any fractures, even if they have been there a few weeks or months or even years. It will show other anomalies as well such as bone regrowth, tumors, etc.

He told me to continue using crutches and keeping the weight bearing to a minimum with the crutches. I can put down the leg to help steady myself and to ensure my knee and ankle don’t get stiff and sore again as they are still healing as well but he said not to put full weight on it and be really careful as if there is a fracture one wrong move including just twisting or stepping on it wrong could be catastrophic and cause a really bad break.

I had a further talk with my family doctor yesterday and he filled out paperwork to see if we can extend my short term a bit longer and keep me at home. Getting to and from work is an issue and sitting is an issue as I can not sit very long at a 90° angle. I start to hurt so much. I can’t do physio or anything yet. So hopefully they wont give me a hard time about it. I have to recline at like a 135° angle to get some pain relief or stand with the crutches which is hard in itself.

My family doctor gave me paperwork to get a temp accessible parking pass and I am using a wheelchair for longer distances so I can at least go to Walmart for an hour or so with my husband to get out occasionally. But an hour at Walmart just tires me out and causes a lot of pain so I am mostly just home trying to keep the pain under control with tylenol and ibuprofen. They won’t even give me anything else until they know what it is. He also mentioned that if it turns out there is a fracture there I will need to have surgery to insert a rod and pins/screws etc as it will not heal on it’s own unless I spend 3-4 months on strict bed rest. Which is not an option and they don’t recommend unless you can’t have surgery for medical reasons.

Leaves me in a bit of a predicament though, on one hand I hope that it is not fractured so that I can get on with my life, however as I am experiencing the pain and they can not find a reason that’s not really getting on with my life or on the other hand you hope that they can tell you yes it’s fractured, here’s what we are gonna do and by this time next year you will be back to normal after surgery and time to heal.

It’s left me frustrated beyond belief, more frustrated then I have ever been before. Even the time leading up to the diabetes diagnosis and the other health issues weren’t this frustrating.

Vacation 2018 & Other Stuff

Wow I can’t believe it is September already! And I can’t believe I have gone the whole summer without blogging even though I said I was going to blog multiple times a week. I am guessing that was a little bit of an impossible goal for me. I will apologize a head of time that this post is going to be a little bit of everything, all over the place, but that is kinda what blogging is all about, right?

Since my last post a lot has actually happened. I fell again and re-injured my leg and hurt my hip (which I didn’t hurt the first time) at the beginning of August. I am just now starting to be able to tolerate a bit of weight on it. I am back using crutches again but this time we said the hell with it and rented a wheelchair for a month or so. They did both x-ray’s and a CT scan. I am awaiting the results of the CT which was done last week. I am assuming nothing major or I should have been contacted by now.

In the process of having my leg and hip checked out I found out I do have something wrong with both of my hips. The head of the femur bone is not formed right and doesn’t fit in the hip socket right according to my family doctor. He said that if nothing is done about it it will only get worse and cause issues like arthritis (which the x-ray said there is already signs of) and/or needing surgery or hip replacement. Of course I googled it, but the only thing I could find was something called hip impingement which I have had some symptoms of in the past but very mild. However now it seems to really fit with my current symptoms after the second fall. I am not sure if a fall could aggravate something that was already there and mild and make it worse. I have an appointment on September 20th with an Orthopedic specialist who is a retired surgeon who consults.

Apparently according to my doctor who is my parents doctor and my mom it runs in my family. My father had it as well and had surgery as well as arthritis. My Dad’s sister told me that she had it and it caused arthritis and damage to the point she has had both hips replaced. I knew she had the surgery but wasn’t aware the cause. My Grandfather on his side and his brother also had the same thing and ended up having surgery. So I guess I will find out if that is what I have and if a fall could have aggravated it and caused a lot of pain. Hopefully if I need any kind of surgery they can do it now while I am still off work already and not have me go back to work for a few months and then have to go back on short term again. Although knowing the health care system in Nova Scotia I am sure I am at minimum going to see a 3 month wait and at maximum a few years wait to get surgery if it is needed.

As you can probably guess by the title of the post we had vacation set for this year as well that was suppose to coincide with our 2nd anniversary at the end of August. All those plans went down the drain. Last I mentioned it we were going to Quebec City. Then later on in the summer we decided we would go to Connecticut to visit my cousin Robin and her husband instead. My parents still went but because I can’t walk without crutches and because of the pain I am in when sitting or standing or doing pretty much anything we stayed home. I am still off work on short term benefits anyways so I told Eddie to keep his vacation days booked and we would have a stay-cation. We ended up at my parents place as I can not do the stairs in our building and get around very well plus it is still super hot here. We have had the hottest summer I can ever remember and they have air conditioning. It means a lot of back and forth for Eddie to feed our cat Max as he can’t come to my parents as he doesn’t get along with their dog Scamp who we are dog sitting.

In my time off I have been doing a lot of thinking. I am thinking I want to go back to school. Like really want to go back to school. Just the community college maybe part-time and continuing to work or maybe even think about trying to get a student loan and going full-time. I just honestly am unsure what I want to take. At 38 I am still unsure what I want to do with my life career wise I love working at the bank but hate the call center. With the amount of time I have missed it is hard to get anywhere. So I guess until I get all the health issues under control I might as well not really make too many plans.

I am also thinking about starting up a small web hosting company again. Last time I just didn’t bother putting any work into it. But since I have all the extra space in my reseller account and have done it before I might try again. I need to come up with a name and buy a domain for it if I decide to or maybe I will just have it as a part of this domain and also have a small free package and a few paid ones. I only currently host a couple small sites for Deanna and for my mom’s business website, but that’s it. I kinda want to try it again.

I still struggle with my diabetes as well. Getting and keeping my blood sugar under control is really hard. I thought that the Freestyle Libre would make a big difference and it did at first but so much of it comes down to me and my self control. Its so much easier to pop in a pizza in the oven then to cook a meal. Especially now when I can’t really get around well. I’ve been really eating crap. It’s frustrating but it is what it is. I need to get my A1C checked again so I can see where I am at and see if the doctor wants me back on MDI’s, if that is the case I am going to apply through my insurance for a pump maybe, an omnipod or something. At least my insurance covers that stuff for type 2’s as a lot don’t.