Winter blues

I am having such a shitty time right now. It doesn’t even feel like Christmas to me. I feel so overwhelmed. All these Christmas shows on TV and all the commercials are really the only thing that make me even realize it is Christmas time. All I really want to do is hide myself under the blankets and only come up for air once in a while.

It doesn’t help that neither of us are feeling well. I am so disappointed. Things were starting to go well. But now with my dentist appointments I am back in debt for almost $1000. I know it does not seem like much but it is when you can’t pay it and it is Christmas and it is waying on your mind. I feel like hell and things are just not going anywhere near what I had planned. READ MORE

A little update…

Two posts, one day… I decided to post a bit of an update about me health-wise. As some of you might know I have been struggling with Fibromyalgia, previously un-diagnosed, for some years now. Since I was about 17 actually. I was finally diagnosed last March with it and with Pre-Diabetes at the same time. I have had issues with vertigo which I am still unsure if this is something on its own or part of the Fibro diagnosis.

I have been on amitriptyline for more then 12 months now, 6 of which I have been at 30 mg, which is a fairly low dose. However, this along with physical and vestibular physical therapy has helped a great deal. I have mostly gotten the pain, vertigo and other symptoms under control. I still have the “Fibro Fog” and cognitive issues, however amitriptyline is know for causing the same symptoms so it is likely compounded from that. I can still function for the most part, I just have to work harder and remove distractions and make sure that I get a really good nights rest. READ MORE

Fibromyalgia, sleep, diabetes and weight loss

I am finally using my gym membership! In the last 14 days I have been to the Canada Games Centre gym 7 times for 1 1/2 – 2 hours each time, gone on 5 long walks on the other days and had 2 days “off” (went camping 4 days out of the 14). I am really loving the exercise.

My boyfriends sister has been going with me. From here on out we plan on going 2 days in a row and taking the 3rd “off”. In still plan on doing something on those days, a walk maybe. I’ve been walking on the treadmill and am working my speed up to a jog. Doesn’t sound like much, but to someone who spends the evenings and weekends on the couch its a good start. READ MORE

Week #6

Yep, 6th week on crutches starts tomorrow. I have an appointment on April 9th @ 9:30 AM with an orthopedic specialist to have a look at my knee and see what is going on. It still swells if I put weight on my leg and even when I don’t. Three times yesterday I was trying to hobble along in the house and it just gives way, buckles, let me say having your knee bend the opposite way to what it is supposed to bend is a funny and somewhat painful feeling.

If you read this post about the hassle of getting around at my work, well… it is getting a bit better. My elbow and wrist (can’t remember if I mentioned this.. I think I did in some of the posts that got “lost” when my site was hacked) are not hurting me anymore, but my collar bone was last week. READ MORE

Always so cold

I have noticed something lately that seems to be another symptom possibly of Fibromyalgia that I had not really thought of before, however seems to be happening often. I am always cold. I mean hands and feet turning blue! It happens a lot. I will lay in bed at night trying to cuddle as close to Cory as possible because he is always so warm and I am forever feeling cold. He says my feet and hands are like ice.

I don’t really know if this has to do with Fibromyalgia or with maybe poor circulation but it is hard to regulate my body heat, especially in the winter. Turning up the heat has little effect till the house is sweltering and Cory is complaining it is too hot. My fingers and toes are numb with cold most of the time. I guess it’s something to ask my doctor about. Just another thing to add the the ever growing list of things… READ MORE