Round two

I don’t know where to start but want to keep people update and am still hoping for some ideas, comments or suggestions on what I should do next if this keeps happening. I really am a bit lost. And I really need to get this figured out ASAP. Is there something important I am missing? Or that they are overlooking?

And sorry another super long post. And I promise I will visit some blogs tomorrow if I do not end up at the hospital again.

I left work by ambulance because of the same thing as Monday, only it was worse. I spent the morning alternating between coughing and struggling for air, it got worse about 30 min of taking my inhaler (Ventolin) and I got really itchy and my hands feet went numb again. I let a couple of coaches know and they called an ambulance.

The EMTs at first said that all my vital signs were okay while we were still at work, they asked it I wanted to go to the hospital so I said yes, I really felt weird and did not want to stay and have to have them send for another ambulance later as I had a little less then 6 hours left in my shift. The EMTs walked me out to the ambulance.

On the drive one of the EMTs (never noticed names) was talking to me and noticed that I had my hand on my throat and was struggling for air again. I was also having a hard time concentrating on his face. Everything was blurry and doubled. I kinda slid back in the chair and appeared to have passed out. At first he just shook my arm and that was enough to wake me, I told him I was sleepy.

He told me to not go to sleep to just stay with him and keep trying to talk. I did this one more time before they got to the QE2.

While that EMT went to register me, the driver came to stand by my wheelchair and was talking with me (pretty one sided since I could only grunt, shake my head yes or no (then get really dizzy), while talking to me, he moved closer and asked if I could putt the front of my top down a little.

I said yes and he asked if I knew how red my chest was under my throat and the cheeks and sides of my face. He said it was really warm to the touch, an indication of a severe allergic reaction that usually accompanies hives.

He asked if I had ever gone into anaphylactic shock and I said yes, 5 years ago. He picked up the phone can called in to the hospital. I didn’t understand what he said as it was all in codes. But the other guy started driving a lot faster and turned the lights on.

When we got there the EMT in the back stayed with me while the driver got a wheelchair. The EMT in the back with me went to register me while the other one brought me to the triage nurse. While we were doing that the other one came back and said “she’s going right into a room to be hooked up to the monitors”, just waiting for it to be cleaned.

A few minutes later one of them rolled me into the room and they both had to lift me out of the chair onto the bed as my legs were numb again and wouldn’t hold me. The numbness was traveling up from my hands and feet into my arms and legs.

By the time they got me in the bed I was shaking uncontrollably but felt warm. They got me a blanket anyways and then left.

Cory was there by then and was sitting in a chair beside my bed.

A few minutes later nurse came in asking me what was going on, so for the third time (EMT, Triage and then Nurse) I tried to talk but it was really hard. I could only get 1-2 words out at a time. After pretty painstakingly (on both our parts, but she was sweet) I was able to give the story again and correct a few things the EMTs got wrong or the Triage nurse did.

A doctor came in fairly soon and said he wanted to give me an Ativan in case this was anxiety related and then have a EEG and spirometry test done.

A few minutes later a nurse came in and he gave me the Ativan. I layed there as quiet as I could considering I was shaking still and still gasping for air. The EEG technologist came and and did the EEG which did not come out very good as I was shaking uncontrollably again. She left.

The girl doing the spirometry test came in and tried to hook me back up to the monitors as I had to used the washroom a few minutes before and she was concerned about my shaking, wheezing and whooping. She listed to my chest and had an odd look on her face. I think she could see on the outside I was wheezing and whooping when trying to breath but you my lungs were clear… go figure.

She took off the the nurses station and I could her telling them what was going on and then basically railroaded her and told her to get back in there and do the job she was supposed to be there for not theirs. So she did.

She explained to to me how to do the test which is really easy in theory. After she sets it, you hold the two ends (fits in your hands it’s not big), take a deep breath in, close your mouth around the mouth piece and one it is sealed you blow the breath out steady and hard until she says stop or until you just cant go any longer. Simple enough?

Anyone with Asthma or COPD or many other lung diseases would likely disagree with that. I am 34. I was diagnosed with it at the age of 5. 29 years of this test and other older tests and they are not as easy as it seems.

When she told me to take a deep breath in I told her if I breath too deep I will start coughing. She said everyone says that and it’s never that bad. Besides you heard the nurse it needs to be done. So 1st try: and immediately I started a coughing fit that lasted for 5 minutes. 2nd try: I spit the breath back out before I could even try to hold it cause I was coughing. 3rd try was a 10 min coughing spree.

She said we would take 5 min and try again. So I layed there concentrating on breathing slowly in and out, in between cough fits. They we tried again. This time we got all three. However on the first one I took the deepest breath I could till I felt the couch tickle, then blew out, it did not come out very well. Second one went about the same I did not make it to her stop and started coughing immediately. The third was so bad because it work except I felt pressure to cough half way thought and held it till she said stop. She left.

That started a coughing fit that lasted 10-15 min followed by me shaking really bad and my breathing became really labored which caused me to hyperventilate again. It got so back that I lost all feeling in my arms and legs.

The nurse grabbed a doctor (not even the one that was seeing me that night) and he said my hands and arms were very blue and so where my feet. They tried to have me move my toes and I could’t move anything, he stuck his fingers in between my curled up hand that I also lost all control over and told me to squeeze. I could not even make a finger twitch. On my own I tried to lift my arm and leg from the bed and they would not budge. And I was tachycardic again.

He said I was actually in real trouble this time, he got another Ativan and put it under my tongue in case it was anxiety and a paper bag to blow into to increase the levels of carbon dioxide in my blood and said that I would pass out soon if they could not get it under control. It worked after a while but I semi passed out twice while they were making me breath in the bag, I started to slide off the bed.

The cause if it all though, the cough, was back after the hyperventilating stopped.

So when the doctor came back in he gave me a prescription for Ativan and told me that the spirometry test came back normal. Which in all the years I have had asthma I have never every had one come back normal. Not even when it was not all that bad at that time. I really don’t know how to take that one.

I really think that there is something missing, something I did not tell them (even though I ended up telling them tons of irrelevant things), or something that I did but that they over looked.

He told me to keep taking the prednisone and the 4 puffs every 4 hours of the ventolin and added the ativan and said to keep taking the antibiotic too as he figures I may well have had pneumonia.

Then he said “There is one more possibility: pertussis (whooping cough) and in adults you often do not have the “whoop” sound when they breath in like in children and adolescense” and that they don’t bother testing for it because they can not treat it.

(Not true… It can be treated by antibiotics because it is a bacterial disease caused by Bordetella pertussis.)

I am also guessing he did not hear the whooping sounds from earlier. But still, the timeline for it might fit. But I would assume that that would be something they can hear. And since my lungs have been clear thorough all of this and my oxygen saturation was in normal range.

It’s just left me feeling more confused. Did/do I have pneumonia? Is it my Asthma, am I having panic attacks and hyperventilating or do I have whooping cough? Oh and the Ativan gives me double vision… how am I supposed to take that at work?

Last two weeks in a nutshell

Okay so I am only really going back to the weekend before last since anything before that and post dentist appointment (last post) is a bit of a blur… I went home to my parents for a visit before they took off last Friday for a trip to Ontario and through the US. Since my brother’s brother was visiting for a few weeks it also seemed like good timing as he lives in Moncton, New Brunswick which is 466 km/289.6 mi from Digby, Nova Scotia where my family is. He is 264 km/164 mi from Halifax, Nova Scotia where I live if you drive around and less then that if you take the Ferry to Saint John, New Brunswick. Anyways…

My brother is adopted if you are wondering and he has 5 siblings between his birth mother and birth father (he was the first born) and was adopted by my parents and I. Since I was 11 and had a say in the whole thing (which was cool), I fee I can add “I” in there. I will maybe do a longer blog post about that later since it will give me something to blog about later this week. But moving on.. Sorry my train of thought is a little awkward and all over the place right now. You’ll see why in a few more minutes.

So yeah my brother (who is 23) and his brother (who is 13) were both sick with colds that they had picked up at the cadet camp that my brother’s brother goes to and that my brother works at. That was the reason my brother’s brother was in Digby cause it is on the old Navy Base my parents live in. Needless to say by Sunday when I left for home I was feeling a little under the weather. I took the boys down to the first island down Digby Neck called Long Island.

Which was fun because we got to take a small ferry accross. We went to see the Balancing Rock. Which is literally a rock balancing seemingly impossibly on another rock. Yep, pretty cool. We had a great time.

I left Sunday night to go home and by Monday morning I was congested, coughing, sneezing, runny nose and all the fun stuff that comes along with a cold. I called and VLE’d for the day.

It got worse each day till I was really coughing a lot and having some difficulties breathing and taking my Ventolin inhaler (I have Asthma too) quite a lot, or I thought so anyways. I called in sick Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday and on Thursday made an appointment to see my family doctor. He listened to my chest and said it sounded like pneumonia and since I was not getting better he gave me a prescription for antibiotics. Which he advised me to fill on Friday or even wait till Saturday morning to see if I started to get better on my own (as long as I was not getting worse, in that case I was instructed to fill ASAP). 

I was not feeling better Saturday morning so I filled the prescription. 2 more days passed and by Monday morning, one week and one day since I started getting sick, I was so bad I was wheezing constantly and coughing so much I could not catch my breath. I went to work anyways and made it to the last hour I was there (11-7 shift). Just after 6 PM I was wheezing so bad and gasping for breath that I could not even cough. I started to get dizzy and feel faint so I sent a message to one of my coaches saying I was having problems breathing and was going to the washroom for a sec to take my inhalers and put some cool water on my face. 

By the time she saw the message I was back in my seat and sent her another message saying I was going to give it another 10 min or so to see if the inhaler worked. It didn’t so I took it again. I am really shy and embarrassed about taking them in front of other people but at this point the pressure on my chest and the gasping was starting to scare me a little so I took it again. My hands started to go numb and tingly. At this point another agent that was standing up on a call and walking around noticed me and I asked him to go get her (the coach). Which was good because I was too numb to type. She was heading over to see how I was doing anyways (I think she sent me a message and I was not answering)

She took one look at me, yelled out the name of another coach on the floor, she went upstairs and got a third coach from our project.They started talking among themselves and decided that a cab might in fact be okay as long as someone went with me and I think myself it was probably quicker. The other coach came downstairs and sat with me.

I know that at that time of night they (cabs) are normally close by as lots of people leave the building between 5 and 7 and call cabs and the wait is never long. So they called one.

The coach from upstairs that was going with me worked on my project and who I was also really familiar with and who is kind of known as the “mother” on our project and on the coaching team. She came and sat with me while they called a cab and she called Cory at that point and said they were taking me to the hospital and could he meet us there. 

In the meantime she was trying to assess me and determine what was going on, she knew I had been sick and I think she knew I had had pneumonia and was on antibiotics, I told her anyways by gasping out answers and pointing to things (like the antibiotics). 

I told her my hands were numb and she pressed my on my fingernails to see if they turned white and then pink again but they were bluish too and where not really changing color at all. She asked what other meds I was on and anything else she could in case I could not talk when I got there. Which was quickly becoming the case.

So, the coach going with me and I made our way downstairs after she called Cory. There was no cab but I was not getting any worse at that point, just about the same so we waited what seemed like forever but was only about 3 minutes. We got into the cab and I have to give the cab driver credit, for someone who barely spoke English, he could see right away I was having an issue breathing and he raced to get me to the hospital, looking back on me every few seconds when stopping impatiently at a red light, ready to run it if it was safe and if it was necessary. 

My breathing was getting worse on the cab ride, I started to hyperventilate at some point on top of the wheezing and gasping for air. At the hospital there was no wheelchairs available and no one came out to help when asked so the cab driver got me out of the car and my coach got me to the triage area and my coach practically yelled at a paramedic on my behalf saying that she needed to help me cause I could not breath when they told us to have a seat. Its kind of funny thinking back on it cause I have never seen her yell at anyone. She’s so calm.

Anyways, the paramedic agreed when she looked up at me and sat me right down, took my pulse which was over 140 beats per minute which is really high when at rest, my oxygen saturation level which was actually normal. She explained that during an Asthma attack which she suspected this to be, 100-115 beats per minute was considered moderate, 115-130 was considered severe and over 130 was critical even though it can go higher when exercising quite heavily without being really dangerous. She said that my lungs sounded fine. However in the documents below it says at critical then that can happen and I read that when an Asthma attack gets severe enough it can happen.

The paramedic said she suspected that it was that high because of both the Asthma and pneumonia as well as I was hyperventilating which was likely causing my carbon dioxide levels in my blood to be really high, which could cause me to pass out even though my oxygen levels were normal (or the nurse or doctor said that later, I remember it being said but can’t remember when or who, which seems to be a common theme, I pieced most of it together from what I remembered and what Cory and my coach said to me when I was more aware of things). She said she wanted to assure me that if I could slow down my breathing that I would be okay and the Asthma attack would likely lesson some on its own even though I would still need to be treated and more tests done (which the doctor never did…). 

She left and checked with a doctor (not sure if it was the same one I saw later) who said he wanted an EEG done before they sent me to the waiting room to ensure there was nothing going on with my heart besides the Asthma attack and hyperventilation to cause such a high heart rate. That much I actually remember (most of this was things that my coach or Cory told me and some things here or there I remember myself).

I was registered after my coach asked if she could get my health card out of my wallet as I was having a hard time answering questions I was still breathing too fast at that point and was only able to gasp out a word or two and since my voice was already really hoarse and almost none existent from days of a really bad cold I was not very understandable so my coach told her the info that I gave her. At this point Cory got there, my coach saw him and called him over when she heard him say my name to a paramedic, his parents drove him to my work to get he car and he drove over to the hospital. My coach left when she knew he was with me and I was not alone but not before telling me to call in the morning for an update. 

I posted updates on Facebook since I knew a few people that were at work that night were concerned plus it gave me something to keep my mind off what was happening in the hopes my breathing would slow down, the paramedic actually suggested getting out my phone and keeping myself occupied while taking long breaths to try slow everything down while they waited for an EEG technician to come down from wherever she was.

Through all of this the numbness spread through my hands up to my arms, into my face and cheeks and then later through my legs when I was sitting in the waiting area later. I was directed to an area right behind the paramedics so they could keep an eye on me and to wait for the EEG tech inside where the doctors where and I sat for about 30-45 minutes which is just guessing at this point cause I did not check the time and I am sure it could have felt longer then it was. During this time I was working on breathing as slow as I could but it really was not working well. I would accomplish it for a few minutes then I would feel the tightness in my chest and it seemed easier to breath faster and it was like my body had a mind of its own. It must have worked some cause during the EEG my heart rate went down to like 105 which she said was still in the moderate range for someone having an Asthma attack and sitting still on a bench without moving much for the last 15-20 minutes or more. 

After the EEG they sent me out to the waiting room. I had to walk as there was still no wheel chairs and I think they wanted me to. I don’t know what time that was but I got there about 6:15-6:30 and I am guessing it was roughly an hour or less when I was sent to the waiting room. I then waited till past 10:00 before my name was called. Cory and I just sat he wasn’t saying much, maybe cause he did not want me to try and talk. I was playing around on my cell and tablet by then as much as my numb hands would allow and was trying to control my breathing which seemed to work for 5-10 minutes before I would forget to pay attention and then my breathing would get faster and shallower and I would start hyperventilating again. 

I got up twice to walk to the wash room and had him walk me there and could feel everyone’s eyes on me as I tried to get my arms and legs to work. After the second time which was about 15 to 30 minutes. This part I remember vividly even though I was yawning and having a hard time sitting up strait and then I would be fine and then it would come back, I have no idea how long in between it lasted. I was sitting back in the chair and my arm not only went number it actually started to twitch then I could not move my thumb and index finger and could not hold my phone or tablet. Cory was laying with his head against the wall beside me and had his eyes closed, I said his name but he did not hear me. I was still gasping intermittently for air and and was at that moment so I just sat and prayed that they would call my name soon. 

After a few more minutes, which felt like hours, even though I could tell by everyone around me not much time went by, they called my name. I walked again through the hall to another part of the emerge and the nurse went to fast, Cory steered me around the corner to the chair in the hall not 3 feet from where I started out when I was waiting for and got the EEG, he must have been paying attention to where she went as I was just looking at my feet and trying to get them to work and sure as hell was not paying attention to where she was walking, I was trying not to pass out, there were black spots. Cory grabbed my arm and guided me into a chair. 

Then I was asked again (for the third time) what was going on and for the third time I struggled to talk then just pointed to the chart in her hand. She looked at it and said “so you have a fever and coughing, is that what brought you in?”. I managed to give her a really dirty look before literally spiting out ” AMONG OTHER THINGS”. She asks me what other things?? I give her another really dirty and pissed off look. In the meantime I am literally gasping for air from the walk from the wait room and wheezing and spit out again “I CAN NOT BREATH”. She says “Oh.” and then says “You need a mask if you are coughing, let me get one”. 

I just started to panic more when the mask was put on my face over my nose and mouth and I felt like I was suffocating, said “CANT BREATH” again while she is getting my pulse and oxygen and blood pressure and listened to my chest again. The mask ticked me off. I was okay to sit for over 3 hours from the time I got there in the waiting room without a mask surrounded by about 35-45 people but now that I was near her she wants me to wear a mask, not out of concern for the other people or me but herself? Seriously? I even said that out loud one gasped word at a time and a shorter more colorful version. She then cursed me out and then she says “okay lets get you in a bed” and proceeds to get up and hurry around the corner, I hear Cory curse and sigh and drag me to my feet and around the corner and into the room that was a little ways down the hall.

Anyways, to give you a better idea of the set up of the emerge, picture a square of hallways with rooms on both sides but the inner side is hollow beyond the halls and has the nurses station and doctors area. At the foot or bottom of this square is the hall where my EEG and “questioning by the nurse” was done and on the other side of a glass wall is the paramedics cubicles for triage and then beyond that was a small waiting area for triage, one for registration and then more glass walls and doors that were open into a large waiting room. From the hall with the EEG area to the waiting area on one side was another glass enclosed hall that connected the two areas without going back through the other waiting area(s) and triage area but to the side of it. No idea the footage but when you can not breath, cant think strait and when your arms and legs are numb its A LONG WAY!

So back to walking to the room with said bed, which was actually a room with 8 fairly comfortable high back chairs, four on each wall, which they put in to put less severe patients that do not need to lie down. Which was fine. I could handle that, I remember from past experience with mild Asthma attacks that laying down made it harder to breath. So she puts me there then walks out, turns around in circles a few times like she cant figure out what she is doing, then comes right back and says “lets go next door” and proceeds to take off my mask I cursed her for putting on me and which she cursed me out for resisting and puts me in an optometrist chair in another room that they work on eye issues/injuries. By now I stopped trying to question anything and just kept thinking I need to stay calm and keep breathing and Cory was so quiet.

I sat in that very uncomfortable optometrist chair for about 15 minutes listening to her and the doctor talk to the patient in the bed beside me as each room has room for 2 beds or 8 chairs or in this case a bed and optometrist chair. You try not to listen but with parts of your chair touching his bed and nothing but a curtain in between it is impossible not to. 

He was there for suspected ruptured appendix. A serious emergency right? You’d think. Well it was his third time there in 4 days cause he had appendicitis, which I actually heard the doctor say they knew he had 3 days ago (2nd visit) but they often send appendicitis patients home with antibiotics. I hear the guy say “but no one gave me antibiotics” and the doctor just kept right on talking and saying that they get them to come back in. 

Did not say how the patient is to know when to come back in or what instructions they are given, but the fact this guy was not even told from what I can tell or it was really downplayed and he was apparently not given antibiotics, was kinda mind blowing. I looked it up and seems like a lot of people have had this happen in the last little while as it is a new thing they do, seen complaints from Canada, US, Austria, Australia and Britain about it and serious complications… but I am not a doctor. It kept my mind off of myself for a few minutes and made me feel really bad for the other guy. 

After that the doctor left and the nurse brought in a mask and hooked me up to a Ventolin mask. I sat for another 30-40 minutes while that was going and then when it ran out it seemed like there was still oxygen coming out, another 5-10 minutes and the doctor came in and asked how I was feeling. I said I was still having a hard time breathing and was still struggling and gasping for air, he listened to my chest and said “your oxygen levels are normal, your chest sounds fine and you seem to be breathing better”. He then tells me “I believe that you either do not have pneumonia because your voice sounds really hoarse (then jokes that he is sure it does not normally sound that way) or that I have viral pneumonia or a viral thingy (his words not mine), stop taking the antibiotics because they will just give you diarrhea (and he mentioned something else but I stopped listening after diarrhea for a sec), and will not cure a virus. If it was me I would never have given you that”. Way to make your patients feel confident in their doctors… But okay I get that part and I know that taking them when you shouldn’t be can build up resistance to them or something like that. Still not thinking completely straight… 

He then tells me that I am likely having issues because my doctor only has me taking 2 puffs of Ventolin every 4 hours (as per his instructions Thursday, and I have always only taken 2 puffs in the past when needed or every 4 hours depending on how bad it was). He says he wants me taking 4 puffs every 4 hours and if that is not helping I can take more in between. 

He said “it is pretty much impossible to OD on the stuff. I work at the IWK (Children’s hospital) and if I have a 5 year old come in I give him the equivalent of 10 puffs initially (I can only assume he means in the mask or maybe he will give a puff every few seconds or minutes or something, didn’t really say) and then in 10-15 (he may have said more but I know it was no more then 30 minutes) he will give them up to the equivalent of 10 more puffs (this might have been when he said it is virtually impossible to overdose on it, I can’t remember, I remember it both ways but know he only said it once). 

He then sent me home after putting down my family doctor even more, still gasping for air (less then before but still happening) without doing any other tests that I kept being told by paramedics and nurses said I would need to wait for. He did also give me a prescription for Prednisone, 50 mg once a day for 5 days which from what I can tell the maximum dose for adults is 60 mg a day. My pharmacist questioned both and wanted to know if what he told me matched what he wrote down. She filled them and told me to read the pamphlet for the Prednisone with a “grain” of salt as a lot of side effects and cautions applied more for people on it for an extended period of time. She then told me that the Ventolin was a very high dose and that the most common complaint was shakiness/jitteriness and increased heart rate after taking it and palpitations.

I figured out for the inhalers, in one inhaler there is 200 metered doses. At 4 puffs every 4 hours that is 24 puffs in a day so that is 8.3 (and a whole bunch of 3’s) days per inhaler. They aren’t expensive but it just seems to me like so high a dose. I googled it and get mixed results. Anyone on a dose that high (one had a 20 month old on 6 puffs every four hours through a spacer because he would only get one to 2 puffs out of it, I thought that was what the spacer was for was to ensure they got it all and it was “spaced”) seemed to question it and any stuff of reputed medical sites or manufactures said not more then 8 puffs a day. That is 200% more then the recommended daily intake. 

Also I was looking up Asthma and even though these are from the UK I am sure they are similar to Canada (I could not find anything in for here) and found these two files showing information on the severity levels of Asthma attacks, one in adults and one in children. I could not completely understand the adult one but the child one really made me question everything a bit.

On one hand if I was severe or critical I am sure something would have happened and a few puffs of Ventolin would not have gotten me out of trouble even though I still had a lot of issues during the day today. But at the same time everything that there were telling me fell more under severe or critical and it was a little surprised they sent me home so quick after the Ventolin mask. 

I have no idea how much was actually in the mask, he said in children they give the equivalent of 10 puffs which I assumed he meant in a mask, not sure if that even matters, so I would assume that it would be higher in adults? I am still having some difficulty breathing if I talk, walk around or do anything strenuous. I still have a very hoarse voice and at times it is not there at all. The coughing comes in spurts and was really bad at work. Between the coughing, still not being able to breath deep and occasional gasping for air I did emails today. I don’t think my voice would have handled talking on the phone and I think that I would have been having more issues with breathing and/or coughing if I was.

I guess I am starting to second guess how my family doctor handled everything, was he wrong or is the doctor at the hospital wrong. Should I just wait it out and see if I continue to have issues, I have no idea how long it will take for things to go back to “normal”. Plus I just wanted to vent about the whole experience.

So yeah, that was my last 24 hours. Sorry it was so long but if you read to the end (or even skimmed over, I would give you credit for that) then thanks

I can’t believe I am still up at 4am when I have to work at 11 am tomorrow but I can not sleep, the pharmacist warned me the Prednisone could cause sleep issues. And the amitriptyline I am am on for FMS is supposed to make me drowsy but I think one is counteracting the other a little.

A little update…

Two posts, one day… I decided to post a bit of an update about me health-wise. As some of you might know I have been struggling with Fibromyalgia, previously un-diagnosed, for some years now. Since I was about 17 actually. I was finally diagnosed last March with it and with Pre-Diabetes at the same time. I have had issues with vertigo which I am still unsure if this is something on its own or part of the Fibro diagnosis.

I have been on amitriptyline for more then 12 months now, 6 of which I have been at 30 mg, which is a fairly low dose. However, this along with physical and vestibular physical therapy has helped a great deal. I have mostly gotten the pain, vertigo and other symptoms under control. I still have the “Fibro Fog” and cognitive issues, however amitriptyline is know for causing the same symptoms so it is likely compounded from that. I can still function for the most part, I just have to work harder and remove distractions and make sure that I get a really good nights rest.

Overall I am doing really well and am really pleased with my progress find out here.  I am happy that I am able to do all this with only one medication. Previously I was on 6-10 different meds and the side effects were unmanageable.

My next step I have already started, which is to reverse the pre-diabetes if I can and become healthier and loose some weight. I am going to the gym 2-3 times a week still, every night was just too much for my body to handle. I was doing really well with food and healthy eating, however I have slipped a little. When we get paid tomorrow and get the car we are going to go shopping and I am going to make sure I have lots of unprocessed healthy foods, mixed in with the less healthy stuff.

I quit counting calories.  It drove me nuts. I was hungry all the time. I think if I control portions, add lots of healthy fruits, vegetables and whole grains and cut the processed and fast food as well as the sugary drinks down quite a bit that I will still loose weight. I’m not sure about that one. My best friend (a nutritionist and big suppliment and 100% unproccessed fan) disagree on that one. I am sure I should probably listen to her, she knows what she is talking about, however my mind has not yet accepted the reality of it all I think. I am certain I can get there though, somehow.

Confessions of a Blogger

1: When did you start your blog?

I started this particular blog on March 12th, 2013.

2: Have you had anyone online presence before? Another blog, YouTube etc?

I have been blogging since 1999, I can’t even remember the site, something similar to LiveJournal, but I don’t remember the site. My first domain I owned sometime in 2001. I also blogged in tons of other places and have facebook, youtube, twitte, tumblr, pintrest, instagram and ficker accounts among others not listed here.

3: Why did you start your blog?

I started first with just sites about things I was into and liked, then moved into blogging when I was going through a period of really heavy depression and social anxiety. I found it helpful. Still do.

4: When did you become serious about blogging?

Sometime around 2006 or 2007. I kept moving around though.

5: What was your first post?

Very first. Who knows. On this blog it was about Vertigo. You can read it here.

6: What has been your biggest challenge about blogging?

Trying to keep active. Sometimes there is just not much to say and other times I just don’t have the time. I also have a hard time coming up with topics even when I feel like posting and I have the time. The blog is mainly about me so I don’t really like doing paid blogging or picking topics I really have no interest in.

7: Where do you see your blog in one year?

Pretty much as it is now. With some new posts hopefully

8: What is the most rewarding thing to you about blogging?

Finding other bloggers that have something in common with me and who understand me. In the past some friendships have come out of it and maybe some will again. I have never actually met any fellow bloggers yet as I know some of you have. I guess I have never really met anyone I have connected that much with or that I was in their area or them in mine

9: What is the most discouraging thing that happens to you?

I would say lack of comments. Especially when I can see people are visiting. Just say hi

10: What is your lasting motivation?

Writing something that I can look back on years later and see how far I have come. Some of my earlier posts from other blogs are still online and I have found them before (nothing recently) but it is cool to read things that I wrote 10 years ago and see what the difference is now. Like I said this is mostly for me but if I end up having a post that makes someone else think or brighten their day. Then that is a pleasant plus. Not sure if that has ever happened but who knows.

Found at: She’s Slothly, Jenn.nu & Cupkate.org

A year in review?

I wish. I can’t remember what I was doing yesterday. Never mind at the beginning of the year. Here are a few things I do remember:

  • One hell of a hangover on Jan 1st, 2013
  • Cory overdosing on anti-represents sometime towards the end of Jan.
  • Moving in together Feb 1st, 2013
  • Going on a leave of absence near the end of Feb till June because my vertigo was so bad I could hardly stand.
  • Uncle Mark passing away in Oct

I’m sure there was more but those are the few things that stick out. I had a pretty good Christmas and enjoyed spending it with Cory and my family.

My day at work today was really slow and it gave me some time to look up some things related to one of my New Years resolutions, to go back to school. Geri g financial aid for going back to school seems impossible.

Basically there isn’t any that I can find that would apply to me since I am not right out if high school and since I defaulted on my student loan.

So I think I’m going to have to just save up the money for the ASL courses and then when it comes time for the more in depth stuff I am gonna most likely try to apply for a line of credit or personal loan of some sort.

My bank, PC Financial seems to have some good terms and a low repayment rate of about $60 a month. Guess that may be the way to go. I’ll keep looking into it.