the oddest thing happened to both mom and i last night/today. last night i had the fan turned on full and on me cause it was so hot. sometime in the night i got cold and reached for the blanket but it wasn’t there (i’m assuming it fell between the wall and bed or on the floor…) anyways i just went back to sleep with nothing but the sheet. a little later (a min? a few min? i don’t know…) i felt someone on the bed. thought it was the dog who was in the room with me. and i just went back to sleep. i woke up a little while after and the blanket was wrapped around me. i figured mom got up for some reason and did it. i thought nothing about it and went back to sleep. never thought about it again. anyways i’m sitting here writing in one of the lj groups i belong too and i start to cry. mom calls me out in the living room at about the same time. i say “just give me a sec”. i try and wipe my tears away cause i don’t want her seeing them and asking questions. so i go out and she says “did you pull the blanket up over me last night”… odd eh? so i say “no why?” she says… “i was chilly and shivering last night, and at one point i felt something on the bed near my back and i said ‘get off jasper'(the dog) and then a little later i wake again to find the blankets around me and tucked behind my back. i thought maybe you did it?” i started crying again and she says “what’s wrong” i was smiling. so i told her what happened to me… it’s so weird! there was no one else home last night. just mom, me and the dog. i didn’t pull the blankets over her… she didn’t pull them over me… if you ask me… i think i know who did. anyways, back to what i originally was writing.. i fell so over whelmed sometimes. but the last few days on top of the over whelming feelings which are still there i feel a peace too. like things are going to be ok. like things will get better. like things are getting better. i know there is still a ways to go. i know i’ll have more ups and downs. i know i have a long road ahead of me. but i know it will be ok. i feel like it’s so worth it. like i have been given a gift. i’m not a very religious person. i don’t really now what i believe in. but i believe in this…

this was originaly posted in and i was writing that post when mom called me out so when i came back i wrote it into that… and copied it here and edited one part “anyways i’m sitting here writing in one of the lj groups i belong too and i start to cry..” which was originally “anyways i’m sitting here writing this and i start to cry…”

do i believe in an after life? definetly. do i believe in angels? i think so. things like this happen to my mom and i all the time. is it just because we’re more open to it? because we believe in ghosts, and angels, and stuff like that? is it our imagination? maybe… a coincidence? maybe… but how likely is that?! all i know is it makes you think!


Work went by pretty fast today. Finished my choker and another bracelet at work. We’re extremely busy now cause of hurricane Katrina. And there was an e-mail today saying “all 8.5 hour shifts (8 working hrs) while be changed to 10 hours (9.5 working hrs) till further notice” in other words or shifts are upped to 10 hours a day. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck… Oh well. Not much I can do. Made 2 new bracelets while watching TV. Pictures below. Click for a slightly larger image.


made two bracelets today, or rather one bracelet and an anklet since the first bracelet was too big

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about half completed:

and completed:

what do you think for my first try?