So my last post was number 200 since March 12th, 2013 when this blog first started. I honestly can’t believe I have had that many. 200 posts in 2 years. Definitely doesn’t work out to one a day, one every 3-4 days maybe? I don’t know… Math’s not my strong point
I started the blog a while back to keep track of my symptoms and journey after being diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and Vertigo. I would love to say they are completely under control. They were for about a year, but the last few months they have been back. I just haven’t been blogging much about them.
It started back around August of 2014. When I got sick with that cough and they thought I had whooping cough. In the last 7 months my vertigo seems to have been slowly coming back and now it is bad enough that I am loosing my balance and falling again and getting nauseous.
The chronic pain is back as well. I constantly feel uncomfortable and my joints and muscles seem to hurt a lot. I have not really had an redness or swelling that I have noticed but find it increasingly more difficult to lay, sit or stand in one place for any length of time.
I am so bad at night the Cory has never came back in the bed from when I was sick a few months ago. I am constantly waking up and having to move. Even the new mattress did not help more then a few weeks. I get sensations of falling, sudden jerks (at night followed by the falling sensation) and feeling disoriented and nauseous almost on a daily basis again.
The pain keeps me up at night, makes me irritable and moody. I am missing work again (not nearly as much as last time), I am trying to push past it and keep going. I don’t like to be touched. Simply touching my wrist or shoulder can send me screaming in pain. I am so tired. Some days it’s a struggle to get out of bed but I am determined to push past it and think about other things.
I am coping with it better then I was before. I know what to expect this time I guess from having gone through it so bad the first time. I am being referred to the Atlantic Dizziness and Balance Institute again and also a Rheumatologist to try and see if we can get farther then last time and see if I can get back into physio. My family doctor suggested massage but honestly I don’t know if I can stand having anyone touch me right now.
I am not looking forward to it to starting the whole doctor thing again. Last time I saw a few different doctors all with their own opinions and no concrete answers. Just the diagnosis of Fibromyalgia which half of them didn’t even believe in. I am hoping that this time they may be able to come up with some concrete evidence of something. But I don’t want to get my hopes up to much.