I’m really having an issue with not being tired, despite the fact I had next to no sleep last night and was at the hospital all day today with Cory. I just can’t sleep. I don’t even feel tired at all. Compared to a someone that 3 months ago could never make it past 10pm, I just can’t shake the feeling this is not normal for me.
I did suffer from insomnia years and years ago when I was having issues with anxiety and panic attacks but that has not plagued me for a good 5-6 years. It took a while to get it under control and get back on some sort of schedule and I am concerned it might be happening again. Not the anxiety or panic so much. But the insomnia/trouble sleeping/sleeplessness. I think I can kinda blame it a little on this site as well. And the stuff that is going on in my life right now. But still. I hate to think of it happening again.
The only other thing I can think of is the pain is keeping me up. I’m in a lot more pain then I let on to people around me. You know the feeling of pain and pressure you get when in an airplane (especially if you just had an ear infection or have ear issues)? Well I am getting that 24/7.
I noticed something else today. The insides of my ears feel swollen. I was feeling intense pressure in my right ear earlier so I – for whatever reason – stuck my finger in my ear a bit. Just like as if you have a hair that has gone in your ear and made it itchy and you need to fish it out. Doing this, I found the inside of my ear swollen, with a few little bumps like blisters in it. It really hurts.
When we decided to take Cory to the hospital earlier he asked if I was okay to drive. I have not driven in over a month and only drove a few times in the month before that. I had not up till that point experienced any vertigo, nausea, pain, etc. Plus I knew he would be in the car with me. At this point I figured he was worse off them me so I said yes. And I drove for the first time in over a month. And I did okay!
At the hospital however after sitting for a bit I had to pee and stood up. And just about went flat on my face. Thank god for things to grab onto. After that point I experienced it a few more times. I still drove home but made sure Cory was sitting up, talking to me and alert so if anything happened he could at least grab the wheel. I don’t want to drive again anytime soon. Am I being overly cautious? I just don’t know. But why take chances with my life or anybody else’s.
I’m just glad I have not got sick today at all, haven’t even really felt nauseous… yay for small blessings.