I really don’t like insomnia…

I’m really having an issue with not being tired, despite the fact I had next to no sleep last night and was at the hospital all day today with Cory. I just can’t sleep. I don’t even feel tired at all. Compared to a someone that 3 months ago could never make it past 10pm, I just can’t shake the feeling this is not normal for me.

I did suffer from insomnia years and years ago when I was having issues with anxiety and panic attacks but that has not plagued me for a good 5-6 years. It took a while to get it under control and get back on some sort of schedule and I am concerned it might be happening again. Not the anxiety or panic so much. But the insomnia/trouble sleeping/sleeplessness. I think I can kinda blame it a little on this site as well. And the stuff that is going on in my life right now. But still. I hate to think of it happening again. READ MORE

A bad case of food poisoning!

So I was woken up at 8am by Cory pretty much screaming my name. I went into the bathroom and he was pretty much doubled over in pain and pooping blood! Talk about scaring the shit out of me.

Last night we got hungry around 12am and decided to order from Alexandra’s a local pizza place. He got a donair sub and I got garlic fingers with bacon on them. Prior to that we both had spicy fries and Jane’s chicken fingers for lunch. Not very healthy I know… but that’s beside the point! READ MORE

New theme

There now I finally have a theme that I am happy with! I’m hoping to leave it up at least a month and maybe work on a few more themes that I can chose from later if I want. A theme a month maybe or a theme a season. Something like that.

In the meantime this theme is available for download on the themes page… Yay. READ MORE

More things to think about

I’ve pretty much been sick all day again today. I talked to one of my coaches at work, didn’t even recognize her at first even though she is one of my favorite people in the world. She wanted to update the project manager on how long to expect me to be out. Since I am not really sure I pretty much said that. But we figured it will take a month or so to get into the ENT so like a month or two.

That’s kinda concerning money wise. EI pays you next to nothing (like 55% or something). So now I need to add that stress onto everything else. Cory gets paid good but it is not fair for him to take on what I can not pay for. And besides even if he tried it would still not be enough. Not sure what we’re gonna do there. I have tried to figure out what we could do without and we can’t really cut back much more. It’s kinda frustrating. I’ve never been very good at finances. READ MORE

It Came From No Where.

I just had a really bad headache come out of no where, started to get nauseous. I thought I was gonna get sick so I got up and everything started spinning. I fell (didn’t get hurt). I made it to the washroom, got sick a few times and made it back to the couch. I called my mom I was feeling so dizzy. Not that she can do anything for me from 265km away but still felt better having her on the phone with me. I wish I knew what was wrong. I hate feeling like this.