Yesterday was moving day. What a long day! I don’t know if it was anticipation or the fact I forgot to take my prescription however I did not sleep at all on Friday night. I finally gave in around 6:30 yesterday morning, got up and got showered and headed to Halifax.
I picked up Erin and we met my parents at the apartment, we did not finish packing and moving everything till 11 last night. I am beat. I didn’t sleep well last night either. I should have but I didn’t. Hopefully everything will get back to normal. I have my own bed back now.
Today I went in to Walmart and spent about $120 on sheets, pillows, a few t-shirts and some food. I am going to give my Aunt $150 every two weeks, since I did not pay rent before this will give me time to get used to paying about $300 a month so that we I move into an apartment here shortly then I will not have to worry. I will just be changing who I am paying.
I am trying to do as much as I can for Aunt Ferne so that I don’t feel like so much of a burden. Tonight I helped her make Chili for supper. I have never really tried it because I hate beans but I am going to give it a try. I am not much of a cook but maybe I will pick up a few things. I have 2-3 months to learn.
It was a beautiful warm sunny day yesterday. I got burned a bit from the time outside. But today has been pissing down rain and humid and warm. The rain brought a cool breeze at least. I am hoping it will stop so I can go for a bit of a walk after supper.
I am itching to listen to music on my iPhone and just walk the neighbourhood but so far it has not happened. I am trying to plan a walk that is about 5 k to start with. Once a day, then 2 times a day then I will maybe start jogging it or something. Except it will not stop raining!
I am really excited for the summer. I am looking forward to saving up some money while living with Aunt Ferne and the kids and then moving into my own apartment in August or September.
Right now the plan is to save up the damage deposit and a months rent. I mentioned that my brother is planning on coming up. He’s going to come up the end of July or whenever his course is finished and start looking for a job.
I am excited that he is moving in with me. It’s my turn to take care of him. My parents have been doing it for his whole life (24 years) and it’s time for me to take over and help. I think he will do good up here.
In the meantime I am getting settled into my Aunts. It’s a little awkward since I am used to taking care of myself and not worrying about anyone else. Good practice for my brother actually. I am hoping that however long he lives with me I can help him take control of his own life and stop acting like a child.
Given his issues I know that’s probably wishful thinking but anything is better then where he currently is. I know it’s going to take some planning and some homework to get him into the right programs with my parents help but I am hoping that we can move towards more independence and maturity.
He really is a great kid and I love him to death and just want what’s best for him. At the same time it is time for my parents to get a break. They deserve a little alone time. He’s not only hard to handle but he’s a full-time job to a point. Maybe that can change? Hopefully I am not getting my hopes up. But I have noticed a big change in him lately in some ways. For the better.
In the meantime I am going to enjoy the summer. I am putting together a summer bucket list of things I want to do. At the top: indoor rock climbing, whitewater rafting and some hikes to find some waterfalls and take pictures.
It’s been a tough emotional weekend which I really don’t want to get into too many details about, but it has resulted in me moving in with my Aunt and her two kids and my parents taking Max for now.
They are coming up this coming weekend to help me pack up my stuff and they are taking it home. As you can probably guess. Cory and I have decided to break up. I am moving out.
I am not gonna get into details right now. I don’t want it coming out like I blame him because I don’t. It’s just one of those things that happen I guess. I am trying to keep it together and so far feel I am doing a fairly good job. Considering I am currently sitting on a single bed in a Tinkerbell room at my Aunt’s lol wondering where the hell everything went wrong.
Anyways, at this point in time the idea is for my brother to move up here with me when he is finished his course. He was taking a 12 week course through social services and then is planning on coming up to look for a job over the summer. So if all goes as planned then him and I will look for an apartment together in August or September.
Should be interesting. I am not sure how this will work out. He is a handful. But I love him and I am hoping it will be really good for him to get up here, get a job and face real life for once. I am just hoping I know what I am doing…
On another note. My Canon EOS Rebel T5 arrived today. I skipped out on work (voluntary leave) early to pick it up before going to my Aunt’s. I am excited to use it, too bad I have no money to drive anywhere.
I have a 40-45 minute drive to work now so maybe I will see something along the way.