Pain, Fatigue & Kittens!

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It’s a cute kitten kind of a day! Why? Because I just need to look at their sweet faces. Actually, we are getting a kitten in about 5-6 weeks. Two little orange ones we are naming Mango and Marmalade! These are not them by the way. Just two cuties I found on Unsplash. I don’t have any pictures of the ones we are getting yet. We are taking Marmalade and Mom and Dad are taking Mango, as long as Max does alright with Marmalade, if not Mom and Dad are taking both but one is still ours.

I guess it doesn’t really matter in the long run because we are actually moving sometime within the next couple of months into the house they are in sort of with them. I say sort of because they have a trailer behind the house that they want to stay in, it has heat, a/c, a full washroom, kitchenette, etc. It’s a camper trailer, not a mobile home, but the plan is for them to eventually start travelling Canada and the US with it and only being here a couple of months in the summer and staying on the property with it down by the pool where it is now.

It may be a year or more before we get there though, one because of COVID-19 and two because they both need surgery. Which is why we are moving there. Dad needs surgery on his back, he has a few problems including a couple of herniated disks. Denton will be moving into the cottage on his own (fingers crossed) and we will be moving into the old house, the “haunted” one, which should be interesting. We are moving into the master bedroom, there will be a spare room which we hope will be used soon enough for a foster child, which we will start the process for once we are moved in and things are settled down a bit and then the 3rd bedroom will be a spare for Mom and Dad or Denton in case they need to sleep in the house.

Dad can’t use the upstairs at all so they have not been sleeping up there, which is why they were initially out in the camper, they love it though so they want to stay there even over the winter. We will just have to see how it goes. I am both excited and somewhat scared it won’t work out well. It’s important though to try and get my brother out of there and into his own place because they can’t handle him anymore, but I am not going to get into that at the moment, maybe later.

In other news, I have been experiencing some major fatigue, like completely debilitating fatigue. I am having the hardest time sometimes just sitting up on the couch. I’ve had issues with fatigue before, but nothing like this. I am struggling with everything at the moment. Mentally wise, not so much. I am actually okay. Maybe a bit stressed and slightly anxious but, no depression. I am not sure if the fatigue is from being in the pool so much. I am in there a few hours every other day. This started before the pool was up though and I have just been fighting it for a long time as it gets worse.

I start school at the beginning of September again so this should be interesting considering I will need to be in Halifax (a 2 1/2 hour drive) for 2 days a week. I am just going to have to power through. I am absolutely determined to make this work despite all the setbacks. I have been doing my best to just keep occupied and deal with the pain, fatigue, headaches, dizziness and nausea(and more) that has been going on forever and has just gotten worse since COVID-19 started (of course when I can not get in to physically see a doctor). At least now I can get in for certain things if needed, so I am going to try and get in and see him as soon as I can.

In the meantime, I am just puttering around waiting for things to happen. There was no point getting a job for a month as I won’t be able to continue it if I am in Halifax two days a week (weekdays at that) and home the rest of the time. I still have a bit left over from my last student loan so I am just making it last as long as I can while I wait for the next (new?) loan on September 5th. Oh, and I have been designing some stickers for my Redbubble store.

I’ve always liked to draw and doodle so I am teaching myself how to doodle digitally on my tablet. The designs are also available on a lot of other merchandise as well. So if you’d like to support me and help me keep Life With Kadie (and this blog) going this is a great way to do it. Right now I just have the four doodles but I plan to make a few more today. Hopefully, I will improve some as I go. Pen control on the tablet I have seems so different from pen on paper, at least to me it does, am I the only one that thinks this? I am completely new to drawing digitally and don’t have the best equipment but wanted to try with what I have before I commit to anything more expensive.

“Camping” in the Backyard

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We are spending some time “camping” at my parents this week. I am not sure how long we are staying for, maybe a few nights here then a few nights back home and just keep doing that for the rest of the summer. I want to maximize the rest of the summer and get as much time “camping” as possible. I say “camping” in brackets because honestly, we are in a clearing in their backyard. Not at a campground or even down at the beach as we were last year. It’s camping all the same and lots of fun.

Last year they had the popup camper set up down at the beach on the same property. This year they decided to have it a bit closer. It’s about a kilometre walk down a wooded path to the beach. It’s a little farther then my Dad can easily walk right now to go all the way down to the beach. Towards the end of last year, he was taking the lawn tractor down. After putting up the pool in the clearing about a third of the way down the path they figured there was lots of room so why not put a camper there. Then they decided to bring the second camper up from the beach and put it there as well.

So we are staying in the second camper, the pop up one for a few days. I am really enjoying it. We spend a lot of time with them and this just lets us spend time camping like we used to without actually having to go to a campground. It’s a good way to chill out and relax and get some pool time in. I am loving the pool. It’s so nice to be able to float around in the saltwater and relax. I have been in it a number of times already and we should be able to enjoy it possibly right into September, depending on the weather. It’s been super hot all summer so far.

We have had heatwave after heatwave all June and July. Hottest June on record and July is pretty hot too. I don’t usually do well in the heat but being outside in the pool, in the shade of the trees and sleeping at night outside in the tent has helped with this a lot. I am doing much better than I usually do. It’s also giving me a nice distraction from worrying about everything else.

Where do I go from here?

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It’s hard to keep up two blogs. I am spending most of my time on the other one and at the moment I am losing interest a little bit in this one. My life’s not all that interesting at the moment. There is stuff going on but it’s all school-related. My last post here was on my 40th birthday 6 days ago and since then not much has happened. Yesterday was Edward’s birthday. He turned 38. I can’t believe I’m 40 and he’s approaching 40! I don’t feel 40.

We’ll be celebrating his birthday today, as he worked yesterday, by going for a drive somewhere, getting ice cream then coming home and I am making him lasagna, or rather heating up a store-bought one since I have never made one and don’t want my first time to be his birthday supper in case it doesn’t turn outright. So I will buy our favorite Superstore one to heat as well as Ceasar salad and garlic bread, one of his favorite meals. Then we are going to have a movie night on Netflix and/or Amazon Prime. Looking forward to it.

I mentioned above that anything going on right now has to do with school. I am frustrated beyond belief with Athabasca University. I am still waiting for help for 2 of my 3 courses and am now stuck and can’t go on further until they reply. I complained weeks ago to them by email and still have heard nothing back from that either. It’s ridiculous and now I am so behind I doubt I’d catch up.

It’s pushed me to the decision of looking into…well, more than looking into, I started the process already… of changing schools. Before I checked into other schools I called Canada Student Loans and advised them of the situation and they told me it’s not the first complaint they have gotten. I asked about switching schools and was advised I could do it. I just needed to withdraw from Athabasca and apply to the new school. They advised me to double-check with Nova Scotia student loans first to ensure I would not be penalized by them and I did and I won’t as it’s the first time I have withdrawn from a course or program.

So started the search last week (even before my last post) for another program and school. There is nothing in my immediate area so I talked it over with my family and Eddie and after searching I found a place called Academy of Learning in Halifax. They offer a web design diploma program that covers some of what I want and they are in the process of getting a second software and web developer diploma program approved which has most of the rest of what I want to take.

So I reached out to the school and spoke to a woman there who sent me all the info. I explained the situation and she had the school’s director (owner) contact me and we did a zoom meeting and I have to say I was extremely impressed. They have both been incredibly helpful. They have been helping me sort things out and giving me advice and help with Athabasca. Sure it could be because they are a private college and just want the money from me, but honestly, I don’t think so. That’s just not the impression I got. The two of them have gone above and beyond to help me.

I finally found a phone line yesterday that was still working and managed to talk to a person over the phone at the university. I am now awaiting a supposed call back from my program advisor at Athabasca (who I didn’t even know existed because she was supposed to reach out to me within the first week and did not). I say supposed because, well nothing has gone to plan so far with Athabasca. She is supposed to discuss withdrawing from the program with me, knows my intent to withdraw, and that I plan to appeal if they say I am not getting my money back. So who knows where that’ll go.

In the meantime, I looked up reviews on the other school and they seem great. People don’t seem to have an issue getting positions with their diplomas and are satisfied with the school and after all the help and the long conversation with the program director who was awesome I am beyond sure that that’s where I want to go. I will have to spend two days in class in Halifax (2 1/2 hours away) so it means spending a few days in the city and staying somewhere overnight. I am going to ask my Aunt I think. The other 3 days I can work from home which is nice. It’s also nice to have it be a local (well within the province anyways) school. I won’t make that mistake again. So that’s school, in a nutshell, a f’*cking mess at the moment.

On top of that today (well late last night early this morning as it is after midnight) I wrote a sponsored post for Life With Kadie, I spent hours researching it and a few hours writing the post and then submitted it. They came back saying they liked the post but then asked me to not disclose it’s a sponsored post. Which is illegal in North America and probably a lot of other places and also against the influencer network’s policy. So I spent a good hour replying back and forth with the person running the campaign resulting in them asking me to delete the post. Just that nothing else.

I was a bit shocked, but at the same time, I put a lot of work into it. So I replied back asking if I was going to be paid. Their response was yes, even though you can’t follow instructions. Then they marked it to be paid. I didn’t delete the post though. I deleted the shares to social media and I made it back into a draft. Thinking about it I am thinking that because it was not a post that they provided me but one I researched and wrote and that there is nothing in the contract with them saying it’s not my property that I would just re-write parts of it removing them from it completely and post it later down the road. I am assuming it would be considered my property.

Honestly, I don’t really know the answer to that. I am just assuming, which might not be a good idea. I am going to see what I can find online about it and ask in some Facebook influencer and blogging groups and see what people say. I have never run across this before. Then again it’s only my 4th or 5th sponsored post.  Makes me mad. Kind of annoyed now. I probably should go to bed. It’s after 2 a.m. and hubby is snoring on the couch with the cat (who is also snoring).