Sunday April 19th, 2020 will be a day forever etched in my memory. A day I will never fully get over. I have not felt much like posting anything the last few days, too much shock, too much heartbreak, too many unanswered questions. Honestly, it took me till last night to really fully process everything that happened Saturday night and into Sunday in my lovely little Province on the East Coast of Canada. The cartoon above contains 18 pairs of shoes and was done by Michael De Adder a local (Halifax) political cartoonist. The shoes represent 18 lives lost on Sunday which incidentally is now up to at least 22 maybe more in the northern part of mainland Nova Scotia at the hands of a mass murderer.
The shoes include those of a 17-year-old girl and her parents, a nurse, a continuing care worker, 2 parents killed in front of their small boys (I believe they were the correctional officers), a beloved Royal Canadian Mounted Police officer and a pregnant mother who had not yet even had the time to tell her family, among multiple other people that shattered a small Nova Scotia town and spread to other locations before the police eventually caught and killed him in Enfield, Nova Scotia. I will not mention his name. He doesn’t deserve the recognition.
I am not going to go into detail. It’s too horrible, to be honest, and it is all over the news anyways, a simple google search will bring it up. You’ve probably already heard something about it pretty much regardless of where you live by now. But it was senseless and heartless and watching it unfold and knowing he was still at large Sunday morning was heartbreaking and terrifying at the same time.
I do have family close to where he was but he was also on the move dressed as an RCMP officer for some of it and in a mock RCMP car so it was hard to know what was going on. Nothing came out over the Emergency Response System just a tweet from the RCMP. It’s just beyond words. Beyond comprehension. Beyond anything, I have ever experienced in my life and I was not even all the close to where it was happening at the time. With all the locations (16 active crime scenes) it will take a while for them to gather more info and there may be more bodies we are being told. I just don’t understand it. I can’t wrap my head around what would cause someone to lose it like that or the hatred that must have been there as there was planning to a point it seems.
The outpouring from people across Canada, the US and the World has been amazing and healing. I hope that eventually, we will get answers, and most importantly that the families will get some peace one day, but how do you? How do you get closure or understanding from something like this? They will though. Nova Scotians are strong. We will stop looking around the corner in fear one day. We will rise up again. We are a family and we stick together.