back to work

I don’t know why I stress over the little things! I started and did just fine today. Some people were actually glad to see me! Lol, I don’t know why I was worried at all. I just panic for no reason at all. It’s stupid really. But it’s just habit. I get all uptight, and stressed the night before something major (or even something not so major but just that might feel major). It’s just the way my mind works. I used to hypervenitalate.

But it was a pretty uneventful day. No really bad calls. Just the same old, same old. Which gets annoying after a while. At least they didn’t sit anyone new with me. Probably so I could get myself back on track I guess. I still have to tell Bethany about the panic attacks and the other stuff. Just putting it of. Never had one there. Maybe I never will…

Right now I’m talking to queen_of_lies on MSN. And l listening to Eminem’s Mockingbird. I have so much running through my mind and so much I want to say. But I just don’t know where to begin. It’s like there is so much turmoil that I just can’t seem to break through. I can’t put nothing into words. There just stuck there in my head… waiting for another day maybe?

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