Who really likes giving injections?

I know I certainly don’t. I don’t think any diabetic does, do they? Whether you have Type 1, Type 2 or Gestational Diabetes, if you need to take insulin you just do… don’t you?? You don’t act like a two-year-old, well unless you really are a two year old and scream and cry or pout or refuse, do you? Well… maybe you do? I know I sure feel like it sometimes. I literally want to lay down on the ground and have a full on temper tantrum and yell at my husband that he’s so mean when he tries to convince me that I need to. Sometimes times I want to be that petulant little toddler who stubbornly refuses to do as I’m told or as I know I should do. Why? Because it hurts… It just fucking hurts. There I said it.

Some of it is probably in my mind. So yeah, great now on top of being a temper tantrum throwing 2 year old, I’m crazy to boot. But am I? Nothing about diabetes is easy. It’s all a struggle. From counting carbs, assuming you do so, and I’ll admit, I really don’t. To testing your blood sugar. Thank you to the diabetes gods for inventing the Freestyle Libre, or no, maybe that was Abbott. To trying to eat healthy and in my case failing miserably. To getting exercise and losing weight, assuming your overweight. To trying to just understand the disease and control it. It just really really sucks sometimes. READ MORE

2nd failed sensor

I had my second failed sensor this week. It looked perfect, no issues from looking at it. Wasn’t even starting to come off. It had been on for 9 days out of 14. I woke up around 8:15 am and it read 5.2. That’s about where out should be and I was proud of that. Since getting hurt my blood sugar has been a little high.

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I Want An Insulin Pump…

I have really gotten comfortable with using the Freestyle Libre and now I am obsessed with Diabetes Technology. I have been reading up on everything and would really love to talk to my doctor about an insulin pump or an OmniPod (a tubeless insulin pump). I have a few reasons I would like to look into it more.

First, insulin shots hurt for me. I always hear other diabetics say “oh it doesn’t hurt, it’s just automatic, I don’t even feel it anymore” well I call bullshit on that… it does hurt. Well for me anyways. It hurts a lot. When I give myself an injection of insulin I react almost every time to the needle itself and to the insulin. I get big welts that look like mosquito bites around the injection site that spread out and are super itchy. READ MORE

Changing the Freestyle Libre Sensor

Today is sensor changing day. Technically it is not due to end for another 21 hours but my current sensor is coming off and the readings aren’t that great because I think the filament is maybe bent or coming out. That’s what happens when you catch it on a door frame if you are not careful

I decided I would do a video of changing it. Not so much as a how to as there are a ton of better ones out there then mine but just more of a “day in the life” kinda thing. I admit it was hard. I am really self conscious about my weight and was self conscious about making a video of myself but I did it anyways. Sorry about the quality. READ MORE

Insulin & Glucose Monitoring

I am such a baby sometimes. I hate pain. I hate pricking my fingers to test my blood sugar, hence the Freestyle Libre FGM (Flash Glucose Monitor) on my arm. There have been points in my journey so far with learning how to control my blood sugar levels where I have literally had panic attacks when trying to or thinking of checking my blood sugar  with my Contour Next One or giving myself an insulin injection. It’s not so bad now that I am only taking Basaglar once a day and only need to test when my blood sugar levels are changing rapidly  or don’t match how I feel and otherwise can just scan my arm.

When checking my blood sugar with my blood glucose meter instead of the FGM I found it quite painful each and every time I tested. My fingers were a mess as I imagine any diabetics who doesn’t use a FGM or CGM would be and who tests often. They were bruised and sore and sometimes when I pricked my finger and got no blood and so I would squeeze it would not only come out of the hole I just punctured but also sometimes out of old ones as well. It got so painful I would skip checking and wait until I felt really horrible before checking which is why I decided I wanted to see if Manulife would cover the Freestyle Libre and asked my doctor about it after his receptionist who uses it told me about it. Now when I have to use my old machine to test since I do it only occasionally I find I’m not as hesitant and somehow it doesn’t seem to hurt as much. READ MORE