I did it! I went today for a pap test so I decided I’d mention that I wanted off the medication like I planned. She’s all for it! So it’s a go. I have to wean of Effexor and not stop all at once but in about 2 months I should be med free! I stop Remeron now and wait two weeks on my normal dose of Effexor them I go from 225mg (one 150mg pill and one 75mg pill) to 150mg’s for 2 weeks, then to 75mg’s for 2 weeks. Then lastly 37.5 for 2 weeks. After that if I find I’m dizzy, nauseas, or have bad head aches rather then stopping the 37.5 all together I can take it every other day. Or stop. Just depends. Then I go back to her in about 2 months to let her know how I’m doing. Of course anything out of the ordinary I have to go back ASAP. I’m excited though! Finally I’ll be med free after 5 years almost 6 on anti-depressants.
I know it’s likely going to me hard. I know I’ll have good and bad days. I just hope people who know me will understand. I’m going to let them know at work. And my family knows. My friends know or will know. There’s only a few people to tell anyways. I think this is going to be for the best. I really do! I just can’t wait. I’m so excited. Finally something to look forward to! Plus I talked to JuJu for a while the other night about budgeting and saving money and he gave me some really good ideas. I just have to get things set up. I have to make some lists of goals, etc., and how I plan to reach them.
Something else I really need to do is, to do something to my computer. It’s so full of junk (mp3’s and various other shit that I have no idea what it is or where it came from..), spyware, and other crap. It barely works. Takes forever for anything to load. Can’t do much at once or it ran out of memory and everything stops responding. I don’t even wanna think of what virus’s might be on here. My brother and father just download and install anything and everything. I get mad, tell them NOT to and they ignore me. So people say “well, it’s your computer, don’t let th em on it.” Sure ok that’s fine. But I threatened not to let Denton and/or Dad on and Mom threatened me and said she’d take the internet away if I don’t allow them on. I suppose I can understand it it’s the only computer we have at the moment on the internet. Mom’s laptop’s not hooked up to the internet. And I swear that Kristina’s friend must have walked to China to get the parts for Mom’s computer that they are *supposedly* fixing. I shoulda just did it myself. Would have been much faster. If I knew all it needed was a hard drive there would have been a simple solution to that. I’d put mine in their computer and buy a bigger one for myself.
I just spent like an hour on the phone with Aliant. Man was I pissed. I had this bill last month for 2 months. I had already paid one of them and refused to pay it again. Sent them proof. They threatened to shut my phone off if I didn’t pay the full $124 something. So I went in and paid it. But before I did I took my bank statement in and showed them in person. She said I had a choice. Pay it or they’d cut my phone off. It fucking said Aliant acct number XXXXXXXX on it (obviously matching my account) but since they had no record of it they made me pay the $60 something from the month before over. Anyways I paid the full amount meaning I paid one month twice. So today I log in to pay my bill for this month and what does it say I owe? $184 something. Talk about mad! I was like NO FUCKING WAY AM I DOING THIS AGAIN.
So I called and asked what I owed and he says. “184.xx Mam”.
My answer “Fuck that!”
He says “Excuse me Mam?”
I said “look sir I’m not gonna yell at you. I work in a call center. I know you yourself have no say in it. So here’s the thing. Last month I paid 124.xx on *whatever the date was*. And it was supposedly paid up. So… how do I owe $184 is that just from this month?”
He says “No, mam that is from the last 3 months none of which it shows you paid. May I ask how you paid”
Me “Yes, I paid $60-something 3 months ago online… then last month I paid 124-something because they refused to believe I paid it even though I faxed a copy of my bank statement AND went in and showed them. So I paid 124 at the Aliant in Mic Mac mall. And now your saying I didn’t pay that or the original. I’m sorry sir but can I speak to a manager. I’m getting just a bit frustrated here.”
Him “sure mam, I can understand that. Can you hold please while I get him?”
Then 40 min later (It was actually 36 minutes. I wrote down the time…)
“Hello, Kirsten? My name is *so-and-so* (I can’t remember her name for the life of me…). How can I help you??”
So I explain….
“Oh, well that seems to be a problem, we have no record you paid.”
I said “Ok how’s this. I have not only the bank statement in front of me I have the aliant receipt. Now tell me I didn’t pay it.”
Her “Oh, good, can I have the receipt number…” She tells me where it is.
Then “Oh, Ok I guess you did pay it. So you only owe $60-something. Can I ask when your going to pay that?”
Me “It’s paid. Just did it. I know it doesn’t show up in your account yet. But how can I make sure this isn’t going to happen again?”
Her “Mam, you have my word. If it does you call back and tell them I told you to ask for me.”
So yeah talk about fun. I’m sure everyone in the aliant call center knows my name now lol. I was so fucking mad. I was ready to beat the living crap out of someone. It takes a lot to get me mad but I was really really pissed! Looking back on it it’s funny now though. But I still paid that one month twice and I’m considering trying to find out if there is something I can do about that. I have proof I paid it. The bank statement show’s the date and the aliant account number… they have to accept it or so I’m told. Anyways… All that before 1pm. What next. No don’t answer that :p
I feel awesome though. I’m in a really good mood. I’m even looking for a second part time (like 1-2 days a week) job. So I can make more money and save more money and I suppose spend more money. I work later in the day tomorrow 11:30-8. Then nights on the weekend. 4:30-1 or I guess 4-1. And 12-9 Sunday. We’re still doing extra hours but it’s gone from 10 hours (9.5 working) to 9.5 (9 working). Then I have 3 days Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday off next week. So that’ll be nice. But then I’m later days again the rest of the week and nights.