I don’t know how to explain how I feel to you. I care about you very deeply. I wont say I’m in love with you. Because I really have no idea if it is. I’m not really sure if I’ve felt love for anyone before. I’ve thought I have but looking back I just don’t really know. Someone told me love is love. Period. But what’s that really mean? I have no idea. All I know is the more time I spend with you. The more I want to spend time with you. I’m really curious about you. And I love being around you. I like you a lot and want to know eveything about you… I know that’s not possible. There are things people just aren’t willing to share. And believe me when I say I understand that.
But I want to, more then anything, be a real friend to you. Like you have to me. I want to be there for you when your hurt or sick or need a shoulder to lean on. I also want to share the joy and triumphs with you. I’m not saying I want to be with you forever or marry you. Life’s short and who knows what the future will bring. But I so wish that I could be these things to you.
It hurts sitting here writting this. All day all I could think about was the fact you’d be in pain. And not feeling great. More then anything I just wanted to leave work and go to you. Maybe it’s just my desire to have people around me when I’m feeling under the weather. I want people near me. I want people to care for me. I want a hug or someone to tell me they love me or care about me. Maybe it’s just that that makes me want to be near you. But I just do. I hate the thought of you being in pain.
I really enjoyed our walk through the gardens the other day. It was so serene and such a gorgeous day out. I felt you opened up a little more to me. And I really appriciate that fact you felt comfertable enough to do that. I never want to take you or your friendship for granted. In such a short time you’ve become a very important part of my life. One I’ll always cherish reguardless of what happens.
I don’t know why I’m writing this. I don’t know if I’ll ever have the guts to show this too you. But I needed to “say” it. It’s been waying on me for weeks. I love you Hun. In what way, I don’t know. But I do know your a very important person in my life. And hope you will stay in my life for a long time.