not off to a good start…

Well I didn’t get off to a good start. I woke up with a migraine today. There is only one way for me to get rid of them. Dope up on IB Profen and Tylonal and go to bed. So I did. And called in sick to work. I hope like hell they’ll understand. I had no way to go and get a doctors note either. So of course I’m kinda worried about that. So I slept most of the day. Not a good idea… that unfortunetly that makes me depressed. God, this isn’t what I had in mind. I’m like only on day 2. I still have like 58 to go! I have to do this though. For my own peace of mind. Everyone around me is giving me mixed feelings. No one has come out and said it’s a bad idea or a good idea. But not matter it’s not about them. It’s about me right? So why do I care then so much what others think? Why do I care?

I’m tired of fighting with people. I’m tired of people ignoring me and being mad at me. I just wish that I didn’t care. But it’s a good thing that I do right? Everyone wants friends right? Why do I have to justify everything… Why should it matter what others think. I should be doing this for my self. Or so I keep trying to tell myself. I can’t let this go this way. Today was just a bad day. I’ll just have to get over it and move on. Tomorrow is a new day. A new chance at a new life. Or rather same life just lived slightly differently.

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