I admit now looking back I was totally over-reacting. I knew this all along anyways but here goes… Ok so I’ve gone out twice with him. And I have talked to him a lot on MSN as some of you know. But basically I’m falling back into the same trap that happened with someone else and basically I have some feelings for him. Nothing major obviously as I don’t know him that well and it hasn’t been all that long. What I’m worried about is more is just repeating it and having the same thing happen all over again.
I’m not sure I could handle that right now. It’s me I know. It’s just the way I am. I get attached way to easily but I can’t seem to help it. This time at least I have the benefit of having done it before and knowing what I’m doing but it doesn’t always help. We talked about it last night some and I just told him that I can’t do the same thing again. That I have to try and distance myself.
He said basically that he wants to just see what happens. And go from there. I guess it doesn’t have to be that complicated right? He wants to be friends. But it’s when you add other things that it becomes complicated. I just have to make a choice I guess. I want to be friends. And I just have to take it one day at a time I suppose. And try to keep things as simple as possible and not look to far ahead.