Happy Holidays!

I hope everyone is having a good holiday season! Eddie and I had a great Christmas. We spent Christmas Eve at home in front of the fire while watching It’s a Wonderful Life and sipping hot chocolate (reduced sugar one for me). The only thing that would have made Christmas any more wonderful would have been cuddling on the couch together but we only have one comfy couch and one not so comfy one and the comfy one is only a small love seat which really is not big enough for the two of us. He almost always gives up the comfy couch to me. We went to bed after the movie finished around 11 p.m. because we wanted to get up fairly early in the morning to drive over to Mom and Dad’s for breakfast and presents.

We got up about 7 a.m and drove over just after 8 a.m. to my parent’s place. My parents gave us all the stuff from “Santa” for Christmas. We got a new 12 piece reversible comforter set for our bed in blue and beige and a car remote starter kit which hasn’t arrived yet as they had to order it from a store up in Halifax and some gift cards. I got 2 sets of PJ’s, 2 sweaters for work (oh and I got a job like 3 days before Christmas but I’ll explain more about the below), socks, a toque and a Fortnight hoodie and my father had the idea of putting lots of chocolate and candy lose in all our stockings which is why it is in a ziplock bag.  I am ashamed to say I ate most of it already. So much for self control.

I laid all of my presents out on the bed on top of our new comforter set which came with 4 pillowcases, 2 shams, 3 throw pillows, a flat and fitted sheet and the comforter below and took a picture:

Eddies stuff is not in the picture because he had it all put away but he got 2 pairs of PJ bottoms (apparently sets are hard to get for men), 2 long sleeve t-shirts, socks, a toque, a spaetzle maker (we love spaetzle and he cooks more then I do) and honestly I can’t remember what else he got but I feel like there was more. Oh yeah, we both got 3 expansion packs each for Cards Against Humanity. He got expansion packs 1, 2 & 3 and I got 4, 5 & 6. Mom didn’t realise they were just the expansion packs so we still need to get the main game but that’s okay. We love playing it and you can get it online for about $35.

My parents also bought a dart board for out in the 3-season room at their place for Denton, Eddie and I or anyone who wants to play. They had made a skating rink outside but it leaked and the water all came out before it could freeze over so we never got to go skating which we wanted to start as a Christmas tradition. I am so looking forward to Eddie and I started some of our own Christmas traditions over the next few years. Ones I hope will include kids eventually. I can’t wait to get going on the paperwork to foster. We have to get the bedroom’s finished first and the bathroom so it’s still on hold until after the holidays.

We had Christmas dinner at their place at about 3 p.m.  A traditional Turkey dinner with all the trimmings and then hung out till about 5 until we headed back to the cottage. We finished the evening with Season 3 of Fuller House which I hadn’t watched yet.  Boxing day we just stayed home and watched more Christmas movies and more of Fuller House and then today Eddie and Dad went to finish packing up and cleaned the apartment. So as of today, we are officially moved 100% out of the apartment.

I mentioned above I got a job. I will be working as a tax preparer part-time. I will be starting the course late next week and then will need to take the test but I am excited. I enjoy working with numbers and have always enjoyed doing my own taxes and Edwards. I will be working in the office and it will only be part-time but may be full-time hours potentially during tax season depending but that’s exactly what I want as I would like to continue typing as well. I really enjoy transcribing as well.

First large snowfall

We had our first large snowfall last night and today. It started off with freezing fog and mixed precipitation yesterday afternoon but turned to snow right at bedtime about 11 p.m. and kept all through the night until about 3 p.m. today with lots of wind as well. We woke up this morning around 6 a.m. to no power and had no power until about 10:30 a.m. which is quite common during the winter around here. We got about 10 cm of snow total, some parts of the Maritimes got upwards of 30 cm!

This afternoon just a few hours ago I decided I needed to take a break from typing and went outside with my Cannon and took a few photos. Nothing spectacular but still pretty all the same. Here are a few of them and I’m sorry they all ended up slightly out of focus because I didn’t use the autofocus and apparently I need new glasses.

Apple trees
The first one is of the apple trees which I am in love with (the trees not the picture). It’s our little mini apple orchard that has 4 trees.
The second picture I took was of a barn up the hill a little behind us. I really love the barn and wish I had a better lens to take a better picture but honestly I could have gone farther back on our property still to get closer.
Not really exciting but here’s what’s left of the wood pile outside, most of it is stacked inside the lean-to to get dry. I thought it was pretty.
I tried to capture the water dripping from the ice but I am not sure how to do so, it still made for a pretty picture though I thought.
This is looking towards the road which is to the far right in the picture and covered in snow.
Last but not least is our little bird feeder in front of one of the corner windows in the living room, which needs some tender loving care, actually it needs to be re-built.

Eddie and I decided that the next big snowfall we are going to go out when it dies down a little but the snow is still fresh and make a huge snowman in front of the apple trees and decorate him. I can’t wait for more snow.

Who really likes giving injections?

I know I certainly don’t. I don’t think any diabetic does, do they? Whether you have Type 1, Type 2 or Gestational Diabetes, if you need to take insulin you just do… don’t you?? You don’t act like a two-year-old, well unless you really are a two year old and scream and cry or pout or refuse, do you? Well… maybe you do? I know I sure feel like it sometimes. I literally want to lay down on the ground and have a full on temper tantrum and yell at my husband that he’s so mean when he tries to convince me that I need to. Sometimes times I want to be that petulant little toddler who stubbornly refuses to do as I’m told or as I know I should do. Why? Because it hurts… It just fucking hurts. There I said it.

Some of it is probably in my mind. So yeah, great now on top of being a temper tantrum throwing 2 year old, I’m crazy to boot. But am I? Nothing about diabetes is easy. It’s all a struggle. From counting carbs, assuming you do so, and I’ll admit, I really don’t. To testing your blood sugar. Thank you to the diabetes gods for inventing the Freestyle Libre, or no, maybe that was Abbott. To trying to eat healthy and in my case failing miserably. To getting exercise and losing weight, assuming your overweight. To trying to just understand the disease and control it. It just really really sucks sometimes.

I get overwhelmed by the fear of pain. It only lasts for a moment, even the burning sensation when it enters the skin. It’s definitely not the worst pain I have ever experienced. So why do I want to scream and cry and throw a temper tantrum? Just because I can… because in some little weird way, it makes me feel better, it makes me feel a little more in control… is that weird? I guess so, but I really don’t care. It’s not about wanting a pitty party. It’s not about making a scene. I just that I really don’t like giving injections. In the end, I usually do, but sometimes I chicken out and then feel like a fool. Am I the only one?? Probably not…