Don’t play with your WordPress theme at 2 a.m. because you can’t sleep. You are bound to mess it up, or worse yet, accidentally delete it altogether. I guess it’s about time I started from scratch anyway. For now I am going to have to find something to use until the weekend…
This is going to be another all over the place post and it’s a bit lengthy because once I start sometimes I can’t stop. I think at this point my mind has just decided that it’s shutting down partially to protect me from the emotional side of things. I am doing okay, happy even, sometimes really happy but at the same time, I am really struggling at the same time. I honestly don’t know how to process these past 5 months. To say they have been a mix of the best and the worst of times would be an understatement and COVID-19 is just a small part of it for me (for us). And yet, I am okay. I just need to process things in my own time and just not let the emotions bottle up, which I have not been doing, maybe a bit on this blog but not really.
On Friday the Nova Scotia government announced loosening up on some of the restrictions in place. It seems to me that they are taking it really slow and watching to see how it goes, which I think is a good thing, the whole learn from other’s mistakes and all that. Previously they had re-opened the provincial and municipal trails but that was pretty much it. That was more than a few weeks ago I believe, to be completely honest time seems to be both standing still and racing forward and the weeks seem to bleed into one another at the moment.
Starting yesterday they are allowing two households to join up (two household “bubbles” is the term, I am not sure if this is a Canadianism or not) to hang out at one house or the other without social distancing providing that they are mutually exclusive and do not join up with more than one household. There are still fines for violating social distancing in place and will be for a while I’m sure. It seems multiple provinces are doing this now. Which is good. I think. Honestly, I don’t know anymore.
Overall, I feel as if both Edward and I have been handling the whole COVID-19 situation okay considering, It’s everything else that we haven’t been handling well. This has been 5 months of pure hell for everyone I know, for everyone who lives in my province or has any connection with it and some of that hell is a little personal. I had some major issues with depression and anxiety even before this hit with COVID-19. It’s no wonder though. It started with the car accident in October and spiraled from there. If you had asked me at the end of 2019 if I thought 2020 could be any worse than the end of 2019 I would have said no. And I would have been so so wrong. Yet, there have been some really great times thrown in there as well. Some real breakthroughs for me as well.
I am looking forward to going to the beach. I don’t even have to worry about crowds as we have beachfront property access on the St Mary’s Bay. This is something I am looking forward to, it keeps me going, keeps us going, keeps us all going. I have never gone swimming there (not on that side but I have on the side of Digby Neck), just gone walking when the tide was out in the wet sand. It was one thing I really enjoyed about last summer and I am looking forward to it again. We can camp, we can swim, wade, walk, and beachcomb. I have never loved Nova Scotia more then I do right now and I have loved it here since day one. I will love it to my very last breath I imagine.
My parents seem to be dealing with everything for the most part as well. It’s been hard for everyone, my brother especially. My mom is in good spirits and was keeping herself busy knitting and with crafts and DIY projects. My dad has had a harder time, mostly because of pain and weakness from a herniated disk and pinched nerve in his back. He is awaiting surgery for it. No telling when that will happen, but he has been gardening when he can, cleaning up down at the beach and camp (about a 1km walk from the house through woods behind the backyard) and just generally switching between puttering around and trying to stay active and sleeping and resting when he needs too. Other than that it’s hard to tell with him. He keeps things to himself, always has. He’s loving and caring, but just likes his privacy and doesn’t complain much.
They were both excited to see me yesterday and today. Mom and I bought a Cricut Explore Air 2 yesterday and we played around with it a bit yesterday and today. We did the above glass as a test just to see what we could do with it, my parents are renewing their vows next year down at the beach and my cousin who owns the property is planning it (she lives in Connecticut) and mom and I are going to make her dress and all the decorations. We did everything for our wedding as well. I absolutely love the Cricut. There is so much you can do with it!
That’s been our weekend mostly. I felt bad for Edward because he worked both days, he’s off tomorrow though, it’s Victoria Day, a holiday in most provinces. He’s also off Thursday and then this coming Saturday as well. We are going to spend some time with mom and dad and my brother tomorrow and on Saturday we were planning on going to a local trail for a hike as it’s something we can actually do now, all day-use provincial parks are open so long as we still distance when we come into contact with anyone. It’s one we’ve never been to before called Mickey Hill Provincial Park and it’s less than 10 minutes away and it opened for the season yesterday at 8 a.m.
We need to get out after everything going on so far this year. It’s been a bad one, not just COVID-19 but more everything else that’s been going on as I mentioned above. It’s been a devastating year for us, for all of us. I don’t think there is one person that I know that has not been affected by the events since Jan 1st. In January our dentist was killed when her plane was shot down outside Tehran in Iran. Nova Scotia, more specifically Halifax lost a number of people in that incident, mostly professionals and students.
Then after that the events in April with the mass murder in Portapique in which someone with ties to our family was killed as well as 22 other people (I did not know them personally but honestly it was so horrible that everyone is dealing with it) and then the military helicopter crash off of Greece that killed 6 all of which most had a tie to Nova Scotia, some were from here. May 6th and the days and week’s following were devastating again as a 3-year-old from Truro went missing and has not been found and then today, we’ve had another tragedy for the province. One of the Canadian Snowbirds (an aerobatics team) planes crashed during their country-wide tour in support of the victims of the previous 2 incidents I mentioned. It crashed near Kamloops, BC, and one of the pilots was a Nova Scotian from Halifax. It’s just been non-stop.
So, yeah, basically I am done with the first half of 2020. I know it’s not technically till the end of June, but I am done with it now. I am ready to move on and make the rest of the year more positive, find the positives in as much as possible. I am not worried about this as I know I’ve got this, but it’s hard all the same. I just feel like the rug has been pulled out from under my feet and I am falling and falling. I know I am not the only one though and that keeps me going. I know my family and friends and strangers are suffering just as much as I am. COVID-19 is just an added insult to the misery that has been 2020 so far.
And that is why I need to keep looking on the bright side, wherever that is… not really finding it right now sitting here with tears streaming down my face as I think of all this while my husband sleeps on the couch at 1:30 a.m. but whatever, it is what it is. He’s always here for me and me him so I am not worried about that either. We are solid and that brings me some relief. I should really wake him up though and go to bed.
This post is going to be pretty short and sweet. As the title implies, it’s a post about nothing in particular. I’ve spent most of the last week sitting on my couch working on The Great Canadian Housewife, taking a crash course in blog monetization, and setting up a mailing list. Today I worked on creating a header for that blog and then I created one for this blog and changed the theme (somewhat) on this one. It’s still the same theme, one I created months ago and have been using ever since, I love it and it’s super easy to customize. So why start from scratch when you don’t need to right?
Oh, the picture above of the dragonfly?… has nothing to do with anything. My particular theme today. Not in a bad mood or anything, just the opposite, it’s just been a day of tying up loose ends with both blogs and thinking more about school and getting anxious a little as the date approaches closer and closer. Only 16 days till I start I am excited but just as the days get closer those normal concerns and anxieties anyone gets are setting in.
We had to go down the valley the other day for an appointment that was not canceled due to COVID-19 so on the way back we decided since we were already out on the roads we would take our time and just go up into the mountains and down to the water on the other side in a few places. I took a few pictures. I did not realize when I did though that someone (could have even been me since it’s been a while since I picked it up) and messed with the settings and so none of the images turned out that well.
Other than that it’s been a pretty quiet (and cold) week and Eddie’s been working and there is nowhere we can go so it was pretty boring. One highlight of the week (well, today really) is that the NS government has lifted or modified a few more restrictions, nothing major but we are allowed to have a two-family bubble now. Basically for anyone who’s area is not doing this it’s where two families can get together without social distancing, the catch is they have to be mutually exclusive and not join with any other families. Also can’t have gatherings such as barbeques or reunions, I think you still have to follow the no more the 5 people gathering things still. Works for us since there is 3 of them (mom, dad, Denton) and two of us (Eddie and I).
Basically, in a nutshell, that means that if my brother did not live at home with my parents they would have to choose between him and us. No big deal for us since he does live at home, that and if he didn’t it wouldn’t be that hard a choice for us because Eddie and I are self-sufficient and Denton really is not and I don’t think would be able to handle it so it would be obvious they would have to do the two-family bubble with him. Thankfully we don’t have to make that decision, but a lot of families will have too.
Other than that, they are opening beaches, golf courses, equestrian, tennis, archery, paddling, boating, and sailing as well (how can you tell I live in the Maritimes? :lol ) provided social distancing, environmental cleaning and participant hygiene can be maintained.
So that’s it for this post about nothing in particular, funny, I actually had a lot more to say then I thought, being couped up is starting to get to me…