So why is it that I’m bound and determined to fall in love with someone who wants to just be friends. I’ve been trying hard to let the feelings I have kinda fizzle out some. But it’s hard. He’s in university and this week between the hours I’ve been working and the ones he’s been working I haven’t seen him all week. Talked to him on the phone for a few minutes on one of my breaks but that’s it. I hate the fact that the more I’m around him and even the more I’m not I just fall deeper and deeper. Do I love him? Can you love someone you’ve only known a few months? I don’t know. All I know is that the time I’m with him is magical. When he touches me I feel like I’m the most beautiful and treasured woman alive. He makes me forget all the feelings of aloneness and abandonment that I often feel. I care about him so much. He knows to a point how I feel. But he doesn’t feel the same. So what the heck do I do? How do you forget feelings for someone like that? I care about him so much. In the little bit of time that I’ve been around him I feel so much better about myself. I feel the love that I crave so much. Is that just because I’m seeing in this what I want to see? Am I mistaking a little caring for love? Is it odd that I want just want to be around him. That all I can think about is how much I care about him.