Work, Medication & Relocation

I am about half way through my third week back at work. I am doing six hour shifts this week. So far I am doing okay. Not great but okay. I am still having considerable pain but I am just glad to be back. I started Lyrica about the same time I started back at work (the night before). That is not going so great so far, not that I really expected much. It’s not really helping at all with my pain during the day. At night it makes me so sleepy that I am unsure if I am sleeping okay because of that or because it is helping my pain. I think more just that it is knocking me out

I started at 75 mg and was supposed to increase it after about a week slowly up to no more then 300 mg. I haven’t gone up at all. The reason is that I don’t think I would be a fully functioning human being if I did. I can barely tolerate the 75 mg. I tried last night just the one time to increase to 150 mg, today I struggled with every word at work, I was staring off into space and I felt as if I had cotton balls in my mouth. I am not doing that to myself again tonight so back to 75 mg I go.

I am going to see if I can get a prescription for 25 mg from my doctor and try going up more slowly from 75 mg. I can see why I hate this medication the first time I was on it. It really does a number on you. I am so dizzy as well. I am scared to drive and won’t drive right after I take it. So I take it at night. I am not sure it’s going to work for me but I need to give it some more time I think. It’s hard because I am tired of dealing with the pain which is still pretty considerable. I have pain which is sometimes feels like a stabbing pain and other times a burning or searing sensation down my leg. I have pins and needles and a numb sensation that happens often. I am also getting a lot of swelling still.

I want so badly to just ditch the crutches and walk but I am scared to as well. Sometimes I wonder if that part is in my head. If I am just limiting myself because I am scared. The medication is making me unsteady and dizzy, plus my leg tends to give out from underneath me but should I just stop using the crutches? I am trying to slowly come off them. I can put most of my weight on my leg with them. Without them though I tire so quickly and I hurt so much more. I really am not sure what to do there.

Anyway, so as you can guess from the title of this post, Edward and I have been considering relocating for a little bit now and guess what? We are moving! We’re doing it! Edward found out today he has a job in Digby at Gidney Fisheries! He starts November 19th and gave his notice at his current job today. He was concerned how his boss would take it but he took it pretty good and was happy for him.

I also put in my resignation at the bank today, or at least that was the plan. Instead though I am going to see if I can take a leave of absence at their suggestion. Apparently they have an option when moving to another city or town in the same or different province that you can take a transfer leave which gives you 90 days to apply to and get a position in the same bank with another branch, location or department. If you don’t get one then on the 91st day your employment ceases as if you resigned but it also gives you a chance to keep your benefits and seniority while I attempt to find something and 90 days in case nothing is available right away. I read somewhere I have to give 4 weeks notice to do this but they suggested it so hoping no one notices

When I mentioned I was resigning my manager asked me to give him about an hour before I put in my resignation and talked to his manager then came back and told me this. They said they hope I can stay with the bank. They have branches in both Digby and Yarmouth. Yarmouth is only about an hour’s drive. We could settle somewhere between Digby and Yarmouth if I got something there eventually. In the meantime my parents have offered to rent us the cottage they just bought for quite a bit less then what we are paying for rent here.

They bought it outright so no mortgage. We would pay the utilities and a small rental fee all in one, the utilities will be on budget plans that will be the same each month, they plan to keep them in their name I think and we just pay them one amount to cover it all and even if we don’t and we pay the utilities ourselves in our name we will still be ahead. We’d be looking at half to two thirds what we are paying here once everything is said and done. About a $200 to $350 savings a month over our current living situation here. Edward will be making a bit more then $2/hour more there then here, plus after 6 months he will have full benefits.

If I stay with the bank I will still have everything I have here (full benefits plus lots more) but be $1 to $2 less then I make here. So in the long run it would even out pay wise. I have a lead on a job outside the bank as well and have been talking to a recruiter for a domain registration and web design/hosting company that has an office in Yarmouth and one here in Halifax, they are really interested in me. I have actually worked for them before.

They are looking for both domain specialists (sales) and technical support in Yarmouth. I enjoyed it the first time I worked there but I left to go to Afghanistan and when I came back they weren’t hiring and I moved on to somewhere else and honestly never considered them again till now. I know a few managers and other employees. In the meantime I can do some transcription work for my mom who has a lot of work right now and could use my help.

Overall this is a move in the right direction for us I think. We will be getting out of the city which we both want. We are tired of it here. We will be living in an area we love doing things we love. We’ll miss our friends in the city but plan on still doing a once a month game night with them and they can come visit and we will be in the city a lot still. We have to keep our doctor in the city as there is currently a shortage and over 50,000 Nova Scotian’s who don’t have family doctors. Plus we like him and want to stay with him anyways

So anyway, in the long run though it will mean saving more and much faster. We can save a down payment now, it would actually be possible. I plan on taking the full amount we would pay for rent up here each month, pay my parents what they want and take the rest and put it in a savings account. Something we can’t easily access. Also it will be good as well because the cottage is 2 bedroom, or will be in a few months when we make it back into a two bedroom. So we will start the process again for fostering/adoption. We are so excited!

Fostering & Adopting

After 3 years of trying to concieve we finally decided a few months ago to go to a Fostering & Adoption orientation. My parents came with us as they were also interested in fostering as well. The orientation was very informative and pretty much what I expected of it. We have the paperwork all filled out but have yet to get the required police checks.

It’s not a decision we just came to a conclusion on quickly before going. It’s something for me that has been in my mind since I was a teenager and my parents adopted my brother and when we first got together and the relationshop got serious even before we experienced infertility issues it was something I brought up and he agreed with me that he would love to foster and/or adopt with me.

As I mentioned the forms are all filled out. We just have to get the police record checks done and submit it. I’ve been sitting on it a bit because I need to call and clarify which of the checks we need to get done and submit with the application. We decided first on fostering and maybe adopting down the road.

There is such a great need for foster homes, especially for children with disabilities and for babies. I’ve just also been holding off hoping to get our schedules and little more open because we spend hours getting to and from work each day added to working 8 (me) and 9 (him) or more hours a day. If we foster there is no parental leave so I was hoping one of us could get on a day shift and the other a night shift so that we only paid for childcare for a few hours each day but that’s not working out so well as neither of us can get days, they wouldn’t even give it to me for valid medical reasons after I first got diagnosed.

I kinda feel like we are juggling health and logistics problems with our desire to be parents and it’s not really working out to well for us.

At one point in my life before Edward my desire to be a parent (I was all for adopting on my own or fostering) was hampered by dept and financial issues and in the case of pregnancy lack of a partner. Now that everything seems to be on track in those departments now there is infertility, health issues, and logistical issues with just never being home. I don’t want us to be parents that never have the time to spend with our kids. so we just have to find and make the time. Eventually hopefully everything will fall in place. We haven’t given up on pregnancy yet. We know what the issue is, it’s just a lack of finances and resources to try and overcome it which is so frustrating. Right now we are just hoping for a miracle but we really need to stop stalling and get the paperwork in so that we can become the parents I know we were meant to be.

More then a month!

It’s been almost 40 days since our wedding and how does it feel? About the same lol  I’m not really sure if I expected it to feel different? I really don’t know. Eddie and I talked about it some over the last few days and have come to the conclusion that that’s a very good thing

If anything I love him more and more and more every day so I know it’s the right decision for us. We are settling down and enjoying the married life but honestly day to day life doesn’t feel so different and I love it. I know that if you don’t live together first it must really seem different but we already knew what we wanted and had already established a pattern before getting married.

I love being at home with him during the day and I love still having the weekends together. I wish I liked to clean more and was a better housekeeper lol but I can learn. Cooking too. I really need to concentrate on cooking and nutrition and getting my diabetes more under control. I need to take some cooking classes or something.

I am loving working from home. I am not doing too bad. My speed is picking up and I can get each transcript done a bit quicker and I think my quality is improving as well. It’s all proofread by my Mom anyways as she is certified in Nova Scotia and I am not. We created a web site for our company and my mom is sending letters around to all the lawyers to let them know she started a new company with me.

I have created a LinkedIn page for the business and have been submitting it to sites like Yelp.ca and others. It’s going pretty good. I was also planning on selling Avon in my spare time but I can not get into it much. I love the products but I am not much of a sales person I will admit. I am going to try though.

I am really loving being home all day and working from home. I am however going to a job interview with Chapters/Indigo Friday and hoping I might get at least a part-time job out of it as 1) I would love to work in a bookstore and 2) I need something to keep me occupied until business picks up more for our transcription company.

We are still trying for a baby but still having no luck. It’s really frustrating but at least now that the wedding is over and we are settling down we wont feel so stressed with it and maybe we will have better luck. We are continuing with testing to see if we can figure out what is causing the issues but now we can also start the adoption process which I am really excited about. We still have to be living together 2 years, married or not but we are 1 year into it now so we can at least get the paperwork going and start taking the needed classes so we can either foster or adopt, both of which we are interested in.