A lot has happened in the last month. I have not felt much like posting or doing anything really. I have been really struggling with a lot of stuff. The good news is we have our car back we got it just before Christmas. I am driving again and doing well with it and starting to enjoy it again. I am pretty much back to where I was pre-accident during the day when driving. At night however is still a whole other story. I driven quite a bit at night to pick Edward up but I am so nervous. I figure though that I just need to do it and eventually I will gain that confidence back. I am doing well in that respect.
As for the anxiety and depression I was put on Cymbalta and it is helping. I am now at 60mg and the side effects are low and tolerable. Mostly dry mouth. I am not sleeping at all but wasn’t before starting it so it’s not from the Cymbalta. I am really struggling with being restless at night and being in pain and uncomfortable. I started physio as I mentioned in a previous post but only got to do a few sessions. I had applied again for short-term on the advise of my employer and my doctor but was denied. Short-term in denying me did suggest a gradual return to work so they set that up.
It did not go very well, quite horrible actually. I was actually excited and happy to go back but a little scared on how I would handle it but either way I showed up at about 12:30 for my 1 pm shift. Used the washroom and then was in the lunch room when the branch’s assistant manager (there is no branch manager at that location just an assistant as it is so small) requested I come into her office to talk about my return. I went in and the community manager was sitting there as well. [...]