First day back

I did okay today, my first day back since being sick and getting in the accident on Saturday. I have to say I had some anxiety about the drive, especially the drive home in the dark. I will admit the drive there involved some tears. I was really anxious and every bump I hit caused the tears to just roll down my face and I was questioning whether or not I was ready to go back or still too soon after the accident but I was okay once I got there and got out of the car. I stopped in Annapolis Royal for something to bring with me for lunch and a bit of a break from the car. After that, I got back in and drove the rest of the way to Bridgetown.

The day went by fairly fast and other than having issues getting up on the task chair at my wicket (I work in a bank) and just some pain and soreness from being up and moving around a lot for the first time since either being sick or the accident, I made out okay. Now I am cuddled up on the couch under my heated blanket, watching TV, writing this and waiting for 9:30 to come along when I have to go get Edward at work. I think I am more anxious about that than anything because the last time I picked him up at 10 is when I hit the deer and I am terrified of it happening again. This area has so many deer and they are really bad at night. Almost every night we see them especially at certain times of the year. We have black bears as well, no moose thankfully but big raccoons and porcupines as well. READ MORE

How fibromyalgia affects other illnesses and injuries

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Fibromyalgia & Oseoarthritis

One thing I have noticed over the years since being diagnosed in my early 20’s with fibromyalgia is that it tends to intensify everything else that is going on. Whether it is a psych issue such as anxiety or depression, a physical issue such as osteoarthritis or a disease such as type 2 diabetes, fibromyalgia seems to make dealing with them so much harder. I have learned a lot over the years about my chronic illnesses but there are times when they still take me by surprise and times when I wish things could go back to the days before any of this started affecting me. If there ever really was such days. Honestly, I can’t really remember a time that I didn’t get sick easily or injured easily. Even as a child I had strep throat and ear infections constantly. I caught everything going around from rubella as a baby to chickenpox to scarlet fever mumps, measles, and hand, foot, and mouth among others. I’m surprised I didn’t have the plague to be absolutely honest.

I am very prone to injury. I am not sure if this is just because I am clumsy or if it is more related to the fact that people with fibromyalgia seem to be more prone to falls. One study mentioned on WebMD suggests that this is because people with fibromyalgia tend to have balance issues. We apparently score worse on balance tests than people who don’t have fibromyalgia. It also mentions that the number of medications had no relationship with the scores but as we take more medications typically it can’t be ruled out. Not sure how they came up with that one… READ MORE

Mental Illness & Me

This is always a tough topic for most people to talk about and I am no exception. I really wish I had some of my posts from my blogs from the worst phase, depression wise in my life. They would really provide me with some insight I think into the way my mind works sometimes and maybe some insight for other people in my life to see where I was then and where I am now. I don’t want to say that it is all a thing of the past for me, because it is not. I still and always will suffer from depression, anxiety and panic disorder. It’s not something I think that will ever 100% fully will go away for me.

However, that being said I think I am at one of the best points I have ever been in my life in regards to mental illness and me. That doesn’t mean I don’t still get depressed and have bad thoughts. Not talking suicidal, I have not had those in many many years. I do still sometimes think very negatively about some things that have happened to me past or present. Much like anyone would I guess. I don’t want to say I suffer from PSD because I don’t but sometimes I do have a little bit of stress from past traumas or past life experiences that have affected me. I’m not really going to get into detail about them right now. I’m not sure if there is posts about them on this blog or not but feel free to dig if you want to know. I can’t honestly remember what’s there. READ MORE