Happy Holidays!

I hope everyone is having a good holiday season! Eddie and I had a great Christmas. We spent Christmas Eve at home in front of the fire while watching It’s a Wonderful Life and sipping hot chocolate (reduced sugar one for me). The only thing that would have made Christmas any more wonderful would have been cuddling on the couch together but we only have one comfy couch and one not so comfy one and the comfy one is only a small love seat which really is not big enough for the two of us. He almost always gives up the comfy couch to me. We went to bed after the movie finished around 11 p.m. because we wanted to get up fairly early in the morning to drive over to Mom and Dad’s for breakfast and presents.

We got up about 7 a.m and drove over just after 8 a.m. to my parent’s place. My parents gave us all the stuff from “Santa” for Christmas. We got a new 12 piece reversible comforter set for our bed in blue and beige and a car remote starter kit which hasn’t arrived yet as they had to order it from a store up in Halifax and some gift cards. I got 2 sets of PJ’s, 2 sweaters for work (oh and I got a job like 3 days before Christmas but I’ll explain more about the below), socks, a toque and a Fortnight hoodie and my father had the idea of putting lots of chocolate and candy lose in all our stockings which is why it is in a ziplock bag.  I am ashamed to say I ate most of it already. So much for self control.

I laid all of my presents out on the bed on top of our new comforter set which came with 4 pillowcases, 2 shams, 3 throw pillows, a flat and fitted sheet and the comforter below and took a picture:

Eddies stuff is not in the picture because he had it all put away but he got 2 pairs of PJ bottoms (apparently sets are hard to get for men), 2 long sleeve t-shirts, socks, a toque, a spaetzle maker (we love spaetzle and he cooks more then I do) and honestly I can’t remember what else he got but I feel like there was more. Oh yeah, we both got 3 expansion packs each for Cards Against Humanity. He got expansion packs 1, 2 & 3 and I got 4, 5 & 6. Mom didn’t realise they were just the expansion packs so we still need to get the main game but that’s okay. We love playing it and you can get it online for about $35.

My parents also bought a dart board for out in the 3-season room at their place for Denton, Eddie and I or anyone who wants to play. They had made a skating rink outside but it leaked and the water all came out before it could freeze over so we never got to go skating which we wanted to start as a Christmas tradition. I am so looking forward to Eddie and I started some of our own Christmas traditions over the next few years. Ones I hope will include kids eventually. I can’t wait to get going on the paperwork to foster. We have to get the bedroom’s finished first and the bathroom so it’s still on hold until after the holidays.

We had Christmas dinner at their place at about 3 p.m.  A traditional Turkey dinner with all the trimmings and then hung out till about 5 until we headed back to the cottage. We finished the evening with Season 3 of Fuller House which I hadn’t watched yet.  Boxing day we just stayed home and watched more Christmas movies and more of Fuller House and then today Eddie and Dad went to finish packing up and cleaned the apartment. So as of today, we are officially moved 100% out of the apartment.

I mentioned above I got a job. I will be working as a tax preparer part-time. I will be starting the course late next week and then will need to take the test but I am excited. I enjoy working with numbers and have always enjoyed doing my own taxes and Edwards. I will be working in the office and it will only be part-time but may be full-time hours potentially during tax season depending but that’s exactly what I want as I would like to continue typing as well. I really enjoy transcribing as well.

Who really likes giving injections?

I know I certainly don’t. I don’t think any diabetic does, do they? Whether you have Type 1, Type 2 or Gestational Diabetes, if you need to take insulin you just do… don’t you?? You don’t act like a two-year-old, well unless you really are a two year old and scream and cry or pout or refuse, do you? Well… maybe you do? I know I sure feel like it sometimes. I literally want to lay down on the ground and have a full on temper tantrum and yell at my husband that he’s so mean when he tries to convince me that I need to. Sometimes times I want to be that petulant little toddler who stubbornly refuses to do as I’m told or as I know I should do. Why? Because it hurts… It just fucking hurts. There I said it.

Some of it is probably in my mind. So yeah, great now on top of being a temper tantrum throwing 2 year old, I’m crazy to boot. But am I? Nothing about diabetes is easy. It’s all a struggle. From counting carbs, assuming you do so, and I’ll admit, I really don’t. To testing your blood sugar. Thank you to the diabetes gods for inventing the Freestyle Libre, or no, maybe that was Abbott. To trying to eat healthy and in my case failing miserably. To getting exercise and losing weight, assuming your overweight. To trying to just understand the disease and control it. It just really really sucks sometimes.

I get overwhelmed by the fear of pain. It only lasts for a moment, even the burning sensation when it enters the skin. It’s definitely not the worst pain I have ever experienced. So why do I want to scream and cry and throw a temper tantrum? Just because I can… because in some little weird way, it makes me feel better, it makes me feel a little more in control… is that weird? I guess so, but I really don’t care. It’s not about wanting a pitty party. It’s not about making a scene. I just that I really don’t like giving injections. In the end, I usually do, but sometimes I chicken out and then feel like a fool. Am I the only one?? Probably not…

Working from home

We’ve been in Digby now for 2 full weeks, half way through our 3rd week. In this time Edward had not worked at all for the first two weeks. Department of fisheries stopped the boats from going out so there were no lobsters. He finally got a call Monday night he was working Tuesday. I drove him in at 6 a.m. to Digby to meet Dad and Denton at Tim Hortons. He worked from 7 a.m. to about 6 p.m. and I went back into town to meet them at Tim Horton’s again and then we were going to grab some groceries at the Superstore. We got groceries, got back in the car and got about 3 minutes down the road and I started to have issues breathing and felt like I was having an Asthma attack, something I haven’t really had much in years, just the occasional one. By the time we got home I was really having issues.

What neither of us considered in this whole thing is I am allergic to shell fish! Of all the things not to take into consideration, that had to be the worst one not to think of. We made it home, I didn’t have an inhaler but he did, so I took his. I made him strip out in the lean-to and throw his clothes right in the washer and I washed them twice. We talked it over and decided we couldn’t chance it as I have gone into anaphalactic shock before from eating shell fish. We just never considered the smell an issue or touch, just ingestion. I had heard of people reacting to the smell but never really experianced it myself. Only ever had issues if trying to eat it. On top of that he came home soaked and reeking of it. Needless to say he now has to look for another job. He’s frustrated and I feel for him he hates not working and not bringing in money for us. But we will survive, we just can’t chance it. On a good note though he has an interview at Walmart.

As for me I have been working exclusively from home transcribing and I have to say I love it! I really do. It gives me so much flexibility. I can sit and type for 2-3 hours, break for 30 minutes or so then type again. I can take a few hours anywhere in the day to run errands, clean up or do whatever I want. I can work 12 hours one day and 6 hours the next. I can take a day whenever I need it (as long as there is nothing that is a rush and needs to be done ASAP). I can get up, putter around, sit down, type, get up, move around and I can sit and type infront of the fire or the TV (or both ) I can work in PJ’s or sweats or get dressed and I don’t have to deal with customers on the phone or face to face and I can still make pretty close to what I was making in the city.

I still hope maybe to get hired on by the bank I was working for and still technically work for for the next 3 months at the local branch here in Digby but if I end up not getting on I may just continue working from home as long as Eddie finds a job with benefits. That’s my only real concern, that we have some kind of benefits to cover my insulin, needles, test strips and libre sensors but we could look into purchasing insurance. There are garenteed plans if needed in case neither of us has benefits but they cost a bit more, but we will figure it out.

I also signed up for a transcription work from home website and have done a few small things for them and got graded really high for the work. It’s not legal either so it’s like typing up video or other regular transcription type stuff. I really want to look into staying home and working especially if we plan to go ahead with our foster parenting plan and it pays okay, not as good as the work that I am doing for my mom’s business but it’s still decent and would help out if I need extra work or need a little extra money on top of what she is paying me. So I’m not too worried.

I’ve also been able to take an hour or two each evening before bed to read as well, which I am really happy and excited about. I have read about 4 books in the last two weeks and have a bunch more on hold through my local libraries through the app so that I can read them on my phone. I can’t wait to start a list of books I want to read. There is something so warm and comforting about stretching out on the couch in front of a warm fire on a cold winters night with a good ghost story or other book and reading by the light of the fire with a bowl of popcorn (or the occasional chocolate bar, yes being diabetic doesn’t mean I can’t treat myself once in a while) and to be able to do it every night. I feel like I am in heaven!

I would like to start walking a few times a week initally and then eventually every day as well. I want to get myself into a routine. Up by 6:30 to 7 a.m. get showered, dressed and start working by 7:30 to 8 a.m. until 1 or 2 p.m. with a 5-10 min break each hour or so to get up move around, load the dishwasher, sweep etc and then a hour or two in the afternoon to run chores, clean, cook or whatever. Then work from around 2 or 3 p.m. until about 5 or 6 p.m. then eat and maybe go for a walk then back working around 6:30 or 7 p.m. until about 9 or 10 p.m. and then relax until bed and watch TV or read or play cards, game, etc and just spend some time with Eddie.

Supper time and weekends will be family time, and we can have the occasionally night where I just don’t work after supper and we go out or something. It’ll be easier once he is working and I can kind of set it around his hours so that we can have some time in the evenings and on weekends/days off to have family time or dates etc. Money wise I think once he is working and I get into a routine it will not take long for us to start saving since we really owe nothing but the car and less then $1000 on our visa which I plan to pay off and just use the way we were last year and paying it off each statement.

I think this is going to be a lot better for us in the long run once we have it all figured out. As long as we can pay all our bills/rent and set some aside for savings each month I will be happy to live a simpler life here without all the extras we don’t really need or want that city life kind of pushes on you.