Taking control back

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Some days I really feel like a miserable failure at controlling my diabetes! Being sick the last few weeks with a bad infection and having to go on antibiotics, steroids and anti-inflammatories have really taken a toll on my blood sugar. Before all this, I was starting to get some control back. I was doing good enough that I was down to 10 units of long-acting insulin at night after starting Glumetza. I was told at that point that if I could get down to 10 units and maintain an A1C within range of 5.6 to 6 then I could come off the insulin altogether and I did it!

Now though my Freestyle Libre is now estimating my AIC to be in the 7.9 range and climbing. It’s amazing how one infection over a 2 week period can throw everything off so much. I have to admit that even before getting sick I was starting to slip. I had switched from using my Libre reader to the new android app using my phone and NFC as it uploads directly to Libreview cutting out some extra steps. At some point, I stopped bothering to scan and was only doing it once a day instead of at least every 8 hours as needed to capture 100% of the data and get all the proper charts and everything else. On top of that, I was missing doses of Glumetza as I would just forget to take it. So really this started before getting sick but getting sick has just made it get out of hand.

I know I need to get that control back. I just don’t have a clue how. I have been careful the last few days to ensure I am taking my Glumetza each day since I am also on a ton of other meds (5 other prescriptions at the moment, 9 in total over the last two weeks). I am really struggling though. It’s as simple as scanning my sensor to capture the data. I don’t know why that’s so hard to remember. I am not using my glucometer at all either. I haven’t pricked my fingers at all in weeks to even see if the Libre is working correctly beyond one finger prick when inserting a new sensor.

So overall my control has become very poor again and to make matters worse today I find out my new drug plan does not cover Glumetza at all in either its brand name or generic forms and so I am now going to have to either go back on insulin, or switch back to Metformin, which was causing major stomach issues, or be switched to something else altogether. I guess it means going back to the table and re-looking at everything. I can not afford $114 every three months for it. So something will have to give. Maybe going back in insulin is the best thing? I mean at least it would allow me more control, right?

I know I can’t beat myself up too much about the actual numbers right now as first Prednisone and then Dexamethasone has really raised them through no fault of my own, not to mention the other meds. But I really need to be scanning my sensor at least every 8 hours or even better, before and an hour or two after meals and double-checking a bit more often with test strips. I can’t even remember the last time I bought any test strips. I have been on the same pack for almost a year. I have a ton of needles, lancets, test strips all just lying around not being used. I got a little too comfy with the Libre and not looking beyond the AIC to the actual numbers.

I don’t even want to talk about meals… right no I am on a soft food diet and have been for 2 weeks and will be another 1-2 weeks most likely. So I am really struggling cause it is all carbs, starches and sugary stuff. Even though I know it doesn’t have to be I just don’t have the energy to cook and have been so sick that I am unable to stand for any periods of time and so I am eating ready-made sugary things which is not helping at all. I can’t even stand up long enough to do a couple of dishes so cooking is out of the question.

Once all this stuff is over with my tooth, jaw, and face I am really really going to need to take back some control and once I am feeling better start figuring out some meal prep once I am back to work. All stuff I needed to do anyways since I royally suck at it. I suppose I should give myself a break and chalk this all up getting so out of hand to being ill but I kind of feel like a failure anyways and it’s bugging me so much and making me really frustrated and mad.

Point Prim Lighthouse

Tonight Eddie and I went over to my parents for supper. We cooked hot dogs, hamburgers and bratwurst around the firepit. We had to pack up a little early as it was starting to rain a little. Mom decided she wanted to go into Digby for ice cream at Recardo’s. Ever since I was a kid I have loved Farmer’s bubble gum ice cream and their cotton candy ice cream. Tonight I got a scoop of each. It’s not something we do often because it puts my blood sugar up. After this, we went for a drive and we ended up at Point Prim Lighthouse. It ended up not really raining, just a few drops so we deviceded to get out and walk around a little.

The current lighthouse is the 4th lighthouse built at Point Prim since 1804. It was built somewhere around 1964 as far as I can tell based on the information I looked up on it. The first lighthouse built in 1804 and lasted only 4 years before burning in 1808. The second lighthouse also burned down about 52 years after it was built in 1817. The third lighthouse was built in 1874 and was pushed over the cliff with a bulldozer in 1964. I’m not sure the story there. It doesn’t really say. Just old maybe.

The 4th and current lighthouse was built sometime after that, not sure when exactly but I don’t think it was more than a year or so. It became unmanned in 1984. There are two houses nearby that were built at some point around the turn of the 20th century I believe. This is the one pictured in both pictures above which is still standing today. It’s not the most spectacular of lighthouses but it’s still charming in its own way and has some spectacular views as you will see in the pictures below. All the images in this post were taken by me tonight just with my LG G6 phone camera. It’s got a nice little camera.

The above picture is taken from one side, sort of the front I guess of the lighthouse and overlooking Digby Gut which is a narrow channel connecting the Bay of Fundy with the Annapolis Basin. The lighthouse overlooks this area and is still in use today. It is an unmanned lighthouse but still used.

The sun was peeking out from the clouds while we were there and getting ready to start setting. It’s about 8°C (48.4°F) at this point. It was nicer, about 16°C (60.8°F) earlier in the afternoon. They have some walking paths around the lighthouse and some benches and picnic tables. They are apparently in the process of extended the path along the water and supposedly it’s supposed to go all the way down Digby Neck which is quite a distance. I’m not sure how far it goes right now but we are planning to go back so and explore a bit and see.

Behind the lighthouse, the path stretches towards Digby Neck and that’s the part they are extending according to my mom. We walked a little way down, just as far as the rocky cliffs above the shoreline. There we found a small Inuksuk someone had built on the rocks. It was pretty against the suns reflection on the water. The sky was so beautiful.

Overall I don’t think it was more than a 500-meter walk around but it was still insanely beautiful. I love the area. I remember going there as a kid with my parents or grandparents and a few years back my parents lived at the beginning of the long road it is on and I used to go down there often just to enjoy the view and reflect. We had a great evening and a great weekend. Also, I created a new theme this weekend. I hope you like it. I plan to do some more. Learning more about theme development and using starter themes, etc.

And I’m offically hooked!

We had our first little geocaching adventure today! I just needed to get out. Still coughing or not I didn’t particularly care. I bundled up warm, took my inhalers, diabetes supplies, water, food and our geocaching kit we put together and went. Initially, we were actually going to drive this afternoon to Berwick (about an hour away) to get me checked out at the walk-in clinic there but my voice and cough have started to improve so we figured we’d give it another day or two and see how I feel on the weekend.

I just really needed to get out. 3 weeks of only leaving the house once or twice (to go to the hospital) and weeks before of rarely leaving have gotten to me and I’m really shack wacky to say the least! So I convinced Edward to go get some gas and pick up a few things at the dollar store, put together a little kit and some supplies and we headed out for a few hours. I’m pretty sure the fresh air did me some good!

Our first stop was near the Digby airport as there was supposedly a cache a few hundred meters off the road into the woods. We searched high and low and couldn’t find anything. It’s great because the geocaching app will lead you right too it, has comments and logs of finds. But we still didn’t find anything. Even with the hints. But getting out in the fresh air inspired us.  I used my phone to take the pictures below because we forgot our camera.

Next, we headed up North Range to the North Range United Baptist Church where there was supposedly a cache there. We did find that one, our very first find, but sadly it was all wet inside (wasn’t that great of a container) the log book was just some strips of paper that were damp but I was still able to write on one. So I was able to write our names on it and put it back, everything else (the swag) was soaked and covered in mud so we didn’t take or leave anything.

Nearby was a second cache (like 2 min down the road) near another church. I couldn’t find the name of the church. The app indicated the cache was in behind the graveyard on the outside of the fence. The image above is taken from behind the cemetery. It was so beautiful and peaceful back there. It was a little hike in, about 10 minutes due to fallen trees and rocky and hilly terrain along the fence, but it wasn’t too bad. I loved the hike but we couldn’t locate it anywhere. So we left with nothing but a picture. Eddie did slip and fall but only because he was trying to rush. I gave him shit for it. We need to be careful obviously and watch every step. I still enjoyed it immensely and so did he



After we left the second church we headed back towards where we live and up the Waldeck Line Rd a little bit. There are a few on the road but the road gets pretty rough. It’s literally above our house on the hill and over the highway. We located the first one in the series on the road. It was the first one we actually got pictures of. Again it was wet inside and you can’t really tell from the picture but it was all frozen in ice (it’s still cold in the woods). This one the paper was frozen and we couldn’t pull it apart so we just logged it on the app and put it back. It was a little bit of a hike down an old path in the woods. It wasn’t too hard a find. A little further down Waldeck Line road at the corner of Purdy road, there was another. We found the broken canister but everything else was long gone. So we marked it as needing maintenance.

We headed back towards our house after that but I wanted to try the 4 that were in Cornwallis Park. The first one we stopped at was supposed to be on or near the tank above. We looked all over, following the clues and couldn’t locate it. But I got a nice picture of the tank anyways. We live really close so maybe we will try it again someday. Another one was on the beach and over some rocks. It was a bit too much for this time of year so we didn’t bother with that one for now. The third was in a park near the water and it was getting really windy and cold so we decided to save that one for another day as well. The last of the 4 was supposed to be in a tree right beside the road. It was so high up. I couldn’t reach to see. Eddie looked as best he could but couldn’t find it. By then it was 5:30 and we were getting hungry so we decided to head home.

All in all, we really enjoyed it. We found 3 out of the 6 we looked for. One was totally destroyed and the other 2 were wet. We took nothing, we left nothing but we still managed to have tons of fun! I managed to get about 5100 steps in total which is half of the goal I have set. So really good exercise and fresh air. I feel great. He really enjoyed it as well. I can’t wait for the next time we go out. We need to do a little more planning next time I think. Maybe map the route we want to take rather than just driving all over the place. The problem was is that you can’t tell that a road is mud/gravel and then you get there and realize that you can’t drive down it in an Altima Lesson learned. Plan plan plan ahead!