A Post About Nothing In Particular

This post is going to be pretty short and sweet. As the title implies, it’s a post about nothing in particular. I’ve spent most of the last week sitting on my couch working on The Great Canadian Housewife, taking a crash course in blog monetization, and setting up a mailing list. Today I worked on creating a header for that blog and then I created one for this blog and changed the theme (somewhat) on this one. It’s still the same theme, one I created months ago and have been using ever since, I love it and it’s super easy to customize. So why start from scratch when you don’t need to right?

Oh, the picture above of the dragonfly?… has nothing to do with anything. My particular theme today. Not in a bad mood or anything, just the opposite, it’s just been a day of tying up loose ends with both blogs and thinking more about school and getting anxious a little as the date approaches closer and closer. Only 16 days till I start I am excited but just as the days get closer those normal concerns and anxieties anyone gets are setting in.

We had to go down the valley the other day for an appointment that was not canceled due to COVID-19 so on the way back we decided since we were already out on the roads we would take our time and just go up into the mountains and down to the water on the other side in a few places. I took a few pictures. I did not realize when I did though that someone (could have even been me since it’s been a while since I picked it up) and messed with the settings and so none of the images turned out that well.

Other than that it’s been a pretty quiet (and cold) week and Eddie’s been working and there is nowhere we can go so it was pretty boring. One highlight of the week (well, today really) is that the NS government has lifted or modified a few more restrictions, nothing major but we are allowed to have a two-family bubble now. Basically for anyone who’s area is not doing this it’s where two families can get together without social distancing, the catch is they have to be mutually exclusive and not join with any other families. Also can’t have gatherings such as barbeques or reunions, I think you still have to follow the no more the 5 people gathering things still. Works for us since there is 3 of them (mom, dad, Denton) and two of us (Eddie and I).

Basically, in a nutshell, that means that if my brother did not live at home with my parents they would have to choose between him and us. No big deal for us since he does live at home, that and if he didn’t it wouldn’t be that hard a choice for us because Eddie and I are self-sufficient and Denton really is not and I don’t think would be able to handle it so it would be obvious they would have to do the two-family bubble with him. Thankfully we don’t have to make that decision, but a lot of families will have too.

Other than that, they are opening beaches, golf courses, equestrian, tennis, archery, paddling, boating, and sailing as well (how can you tell I live in the Maritimes? :lol ) provided social distancing, environmental cleaning and participant hygiene can be maintained.

So that’s it for this post about nothing in particular, funny, I actually had a lot more to say then I thought, being couped up is starting to get to me…

Overcoming Phobias

One of the things I really want to work on over the summer is overcoming some of my phobias. I don’t have that many but I want to work on them and see if I can either overcome them or improve my response to them significantly. I have two in mind to start with that I really want to work on.

The Phobias

  • • Spiders
  • • Heights

What happened to cause them?

That’s something I really can’t pinpoint or even a timeframe when they started happening. I can remember as a kid that neither bothered me much and my parents have confirmed that. One of them though I think my father might have shed some light on the other day when I was talking to them and my brother on the phone.

Spiders

When I was younger I can remember being fascinated by them. It didn’t matter how big or small I loved watching them. I guess looking back I was never a fan or touching them or having one on me but I could watch them move or make a web. I was fascinated by their webs as well. Somewhere along the way I stopped watching them and became fearful if I saw them. Eventually, I have gotten to the point where I freeze in fear or sometimes I scream and run.

My dad said he figures this has to do with my childhood when we were living in Germany. We used to go for bike rides quite often into Hügelsheim and then towards the Rhine, along the Rhine and across into France. We would go about once a week to a little restaurant there. To get to it you had to bike under a highway bridge and dad said that it was just teeming with spiders under there. He said for him that’s when he first remembers me showing any fear of them.

Heights

This one is a little harder to place. When we were in Germany we were close to the mountains and the Black Forrest. Looking on a map now I believe that we were most likely closest to Belchen, which is a summit to the south of Baden-Söllingen in the Black Forrest. I remember we would go on almost weekly drives up in the mountains not just Belchen but all over the place. We also went camping all the time, we traveled all over and went skiing in the winter every year in Lucerne (Switzerland) and I had no issues being in the van when we went up the sides of those huge mountains. I had no issues when on ski lifts or gondolas. By 11 I was skiing double black diamonds so that meant going on some pretty big gondolas up high and I never experience any fear that I remember.

It wasn’t until the 90s when we were in Calgary that I remember the first inklings of fear when going on ski lifts or gondolas there, but that being said I would close my eyes and ride it out. More uneasiness then a true fear at that point. We moved back to Nova Scotia in 1997 and I don’t even remember any issues with heights for a while. It was not until a friend of mine got me in a ferris wheel at the Halifax Busker Festival that I really remember freaking out, crying terrified, hiding behind her, and just absolutely panicking. Since then it has just gotten worse. My mom is afraid of heights so maybe that has something to do with it, the number of times I saw her freak out, but at the same time, dad and I used to tease her (yes, I know, now looking back I seriously regret that).

What do I hope to accomplish?

I am really hoping that as far as spiders go that I can work on my fear enough that I can at least deal with one when home alone. Right now I panic and throw things at them, but killing it is something I do not have the heart or the courage to do. And I don’t want to anyways. If I could get to a point where I could get it into a container or something and take it outside to let it loose that would be awesome. Also, I’d like to be able to look at pictures online without freaking out and getting the major heebie-jeebies.

When it comes to heights I would like to try and determine where my fear came from if possible and see if I can overcome it a little at a time. I love amusement parks and love waterslides but this is interfering because I am terrified to go up to the top of waterslide towers and scared to get on high roller coasters, ferris wheels, etc. I was able to do it at Disney World back in 2015 when my mom, dad, and I went to Florida. The only reason I was able to do it was because my 24-year-old brother (at the time) was able to usually place himself between me and the edge where I could see how high up I was, that and excitement. I mean, come on… Disney World!!!

How am I going to overcome them?

That… is the question of the year. I really have no idea. Thankfully I am getting counseling so it’s one of the things I plan to talk to her about. Should I tackle them head-on? Is there any specific methods that seem to work. Is there any coping strategies, etc. All things I plan to ask about.

So those are two phobias I really want to tackle this year. What about you?

Questions
  1. What’s your greatest phobia if you have one?
  2. What are some ways you attempt to deal with it?
  3. Do you have a plan to try and overcome them?

Happy Mothers Day Mom!

Happy Mother’s Day Mom! I love you so much! You have always been my best friend and the greatest influencer in my life. You have always been there for me from day one. You gave me life, a sense of purpose, and have always done your best to ensure that I was given all the love, caring, and tools I need to grow into the woman I am today. The photo below is my Gram, Mom, and I. Gram was about 103 this picture. She lived until 106 years old! I have to say I am lucky when it comes to my Mom, not everyone has this kind of a relationship with their Mom and I am eternally grateful for the bond we have. She is one of a kind and there is no other Mother like her in my opinion.

I never realized until now when trying to write this post for Mother’s Day today just how hard it is to find pictures with my Mother in them. Every time we go to take pictures she gets in the picture and just before the button is pressed she’s gone Mom’s never liked having her picture taken, much like me. I prefer to behind the camera not in front of it. The picture below is Mom, Me, my husband Edward, my brother Denton and my Dad from our wedding pictures. It’s always a little easier to find pictures with my Dad or brother in them.

My family has always been a close one, something that it took Edward a while to get used to. Mom and Dad took him in right away and treated him like a Son almost from the beginning. They love him and he loves them. Mom and Edward have a special bond as well. It warms my heart to see that we are still as close as we were before I got married and as close as we all were when my bother and I were little. So, I just wanted to say again, Happy Mothers Day Mom! I love you!

Happy Mother’s Day to all the other Mother’s out there as well! I hope you are all having an awesome Mother’s Day despite the restrictions in place due to COVID-19 and that you enjoy the day and spend as much time with the family in your household as you can and video chat with your parents if you do not live with them.