Endless frustration

So, It’s December! 2013 is almost over. Since I seem to be having a little trouble with inspiration (with the exception of the last 3 days) lately when it comes to posting, I have decided to join BlogHer‘s NaBloPoMo for December. My goal is to post every single day for the whole month of December. Since the weekends are for free-writing, I decided to tackle something that has been on my mind a lot lately. It took me 2 1/2 hours to write this out last night, by 2am I was not quite done so I decided to finish it this morning and proof read it and then wait till I got home before posting it. So here goes…

I’m going to be thirty-four in seven months. Up until recently age has never been something that has really bothered me much. I just skated by feeling like I have all the time in the world. I’ve known since I was about eight years old that I wanted to have kids someday. But it was the furthest thing on my mind. In my teens, I had a little brother who was really young. He was just barely four when I was fifteen. He had lots of little friends and my Mom babysat neighbourhood kids during the day when their parents were at work. I often babysat them after school and in the evening. I have always been around young children and always loved kids. READ MORE

3 more days…

Until December! It’s my favorite month besides July (summer and Birthday gifts, nothing can beat that!), I love the festive lights, the snow, candy cane hot chocolate , cinnamon, peppermint, holly and the smell of a fresh christmas tree!

I decorated my blog before I decorated the apartment. I couldn’t help it. I was looking for some inspiration and found this free theme and I love it! I figured I couldn’t have done better myself right now so why bother. Plus it features an adorable snowman. I love snowmen! I also added a math captcha, I was tired of sorting through the spam akismet stopped for the occasional legit comments that it caught. READ MORE

I need a vacation

You would think that after months of off work due to health reasons and only being back about 2 weeks full-time that vacation would be the last thing on my mind… but its not! Everyone at work is going on vacation this month and early next and its made me realize in 16 years of working the only official vacation I took was 2 weeks about 3 years ago!

It’s been a rough couple of weeks but they pretty much have everything sorted out. I do not have [glossary slug=”multiple-sclerosis-ms”]MS[/glossary], which is really good news. The bad news is: I have [glossary slug=”fibromyalgia”]Fibromyalgia[/glossary] and [glossary slug=”diabetes”]Diabetes[/glossary]. Between the two of them they account for almost all of my symptoms and a few I had that I never even really thought of until I was told by other people symptoms they had. For example. I have had “floaters” or black or dark grey spots in my vision for a while. I always assumed it was just part of getting older. Never thought much about it. But apparently they can happen because your sugars get high, the numbness I started experiencing can be from either/or [Fibro or Diabetes]. READ MORE

A blast from the past?

My doctor brought up a very valid point today. 4 years ago this time I was coming home from Kandahar, Afghanistan. I was over there in a military support role (not in the military just a civilian support position with a contractor). In May while I was there I was bitten by a spider. Unfortunately I do not know and likely never will know what kind.

A friend of mine saw the spider crawling on me, it had apparently climbed up the back of my camp chair and down my hair onto my face. I swatted at it and it bit me on the right side of my forehead. I screamed and my friend looked over, panicked and swatted it off of me. It hit the ground and took off running. We could not get it to kill it as we were told to do when bitten by anything potentially poisonous. READ MORE