Work, Medication & Relocation

I am about half way through my third week back at work. I am doing six hour shifts this week. So far I am doing okay. Not great but okay. I am still having considerable pain but I am just glad to be back. I started Lyrica about the same time I started back at work (the night before). That is not going so great so far, not that I really expected much. It’s not really helping at all with my pain during the day. At night it makes me so sleepy that I am unsure if I am sleeping okay because of that or because it is helping my pain. I think more just that it is knocking me out

I started at 75 mg and was supposed to increase it after about a week slowly up to no more then 300 mg. I haven’t gone up at all. The reason is that I don’t think I would be a fully functioning human being if I did. I can barely tolerate the 75 mg. I tried last night just the one time to increase to 150 mg, today I struggled with every word at work, I was staring off into space and I felt as if I had cotton balls in my mouth. I am not doing that to myself again tonight so back to 75 mg I go.

I am going to see if I can get a prescription for 25 mg from my doctor and try going up more slowly from 75 mg. I can see why I hate this medication the first time I was on it. It really does a number on you. I am so dizzy as well. I am scared to drive and won’t drive right after I take it. So I take it at night. I am not sure it’s going to work for me but I need to give it some more time I think. It’s hard because I am tired of dealing with the pain which is still pretty considerable. I have pain which is sometimes feels like a stabbing pain and other times a burning or searing sensation down my leg. I have pins and needles and a numb sensation that happens often. I am also getting a lot of swelling still.

I want so badly to just ditch the crutches and walk but I am scared to as well. Sometimes I wonder if that part is in my head. If I am just limiting myself because I am scared. The medication is making me unsteady and dizzy, plus my leg tends to give out from underneath me but should I just stop using the crutches? I am trying to slowly come off them. I can put most of my weight on my leg with them. Without them though I tire so quickly and I hurt so much more. I really am not sure what to do there.

Anyway, so as you can guess from the title of this post, Edward and I have been considering relocating for a little bit now and guess what? We are moving! We’re doing it! Edward found out today he has a job in Digby at Gidney Fisheries! He starts November 19th and gave his notice at his current job today. He was concerned how his boss would take it but he took it pretty good and was happy for him.

I also put in my resignation at the bank today, or at least that was the plan. Instead though I am going to see if I can take a leave of absence at their suggestion. Apparently they have an option when moving to another city or town in the same or different province that you can take a transfer leave which gives you 90 days to apply to and get a position in the same bank with another branch, location or department. If you don’t get one then on the 91st day your employment ceases as if you resigned but it also gives you a chance to keep your benefits and seniority while I attempt to find something and 90 days in case nothing is available right away. I read somewhere I have to give 4 weeks notice to do this but they suggested it so hoping no one notices

When I mentioned I was resigning my manager asked me to give him about an hour before I put in my resignation and talked to his manager then came back and told me this. They said they hope I can stay with the bank. They have branches in both Digby and Yarmouth. Yarmouth is only about an hour’s drive. We could settle somewhere between Digby and Yarmouth if I got something there eventually. In the meantime my parents have offered to rent us the cottage they just bought for quite a bit less then what we are paying for rent here.

They bought it outright so no mortgage. We would pay the utilities and a small rental fee all in one, the utilities will be on budget plans that will be the same each month, they plan to keep them in their name I think and we just pay them one amount to cover it all and even if we don’t and we pay the utilities ourselves in our name we will still be ahead. We’d be looking at half to two thirds what we are paying here once everything is said and done. About a $200 to $350 savings a month over our current living situation here. Edward will be making a bit more then $2/hour more there then here, plus after 6 months he will have full benefits.

If I stay with the bank I will still have everything I have here (full benefits plus lots more) but be $1 to $2 less then I make here. So in the long run it would even out pay wise. I have a lead on a job outside the bank as well and have been talking to a recruiter for a domain registration and web design/hosting company that has an office in Yarmouth and one here in Halifax, they are really interested in me. I have actually worked for them before.

They are looking for both domain specialists (sales) and technical support in Yarmouth. I enjoyed it the first time I worked there but I left to go to Afghanistan and when I came back they weren’t hiring and I moved on to somewhere else and honestly never considered them again till now. I know a few managers and other employees. In the meantime I can do some transcription work for my mom who has a lot of work right now and could use my help.

Overall this is a move in the right direction for us I think. We will be getting out of the city which we both want. We are tired of it here. We will be living in an area we love doing things we love. We’ll miss our friends in the city but plan on still doing a once a month game night with them and they can come visit and we will be in the city a lot still. We have to keep our doctor in the city as there is currently a shortage and over 50,000 Nova Scotian’s who don’t have family doctors. Plus we like him and want to stay with him anyways

So anyway, in the long run though it will mean saving more and much faster. We can save a down payment now, it would actually be possible. I plan on taking the full amount we would pay for rent up here each month, pay my parents what they want and take the rest and put it in a savings account. Something we can’t easily access. Also it will be good as well because the cottage is 2 bedroom, or will be in a few months when we make it back into a two bedroom. So we will start the process again for fostering/adoption. We are so excited!

October & Forza Horizon 4

I can’t believe it is half way through October already. Fall has just flown by! It’s the 14th already but it seems like September. Our weather has been so nice I don’t even have winter tires on the car yet. Speaking of cars, Eddie downloaded Forza Horizon 2 for me while ago when it was free with Xbox Gold. I never played it but was looking for something to do the other day so I decided to play and loved it. I noticed Forza Horizon 4 was released October 2nd for Xbox One and was part of Xbox Game pass. I decided to get a 14 day free trial as we had it once before but the games weren’t that great. I downloaded Forza Horizon 4 and started playing and I am in love!!!

I honestly can not get enough of this game! Seriously. I’ve only been playing 4 days and I am at level 50 already. For me that’s pretty impressive because I get bored of things easily but there is so much to do! There are races, an open world to drive around in and things to find including rare cars (barn finds) that you can fix up. It’s like a giant treasure map. I can’t believe we had Forza Horizon 2 all along and I never played it.

The shots are of my actual cars, it has a great photo tool and the scenery and graphics in the game are amazing. I have played racing games before and enjoy them but never really played anything that I couldn’t put down. That’s what all started this. We were over at Eddie’s sisters place and the kids wanted to play on the Xbox and of course the adults got involved and started racing each other and the kids. It was Forza Motorsport 5. She mentioned they downloaded it for free a while ago so when we got home I went looking. I saw we had Forza Horizon 2 but didn’t really think I would be interested because I was looking for a track racing game.

Eddie mentioned to me that it was open world sort of like GTA but without the violence. So I decided to try it and now I am hooked. Seriously he may never see his Xbox again

 

Insulin & Glucose Monitoring

I am such a baby sometimes. I hate pain. I hate pricking my fingers to test my blood sugar, hence the Freestyle Libre FGM (Flash Glucose Monitor) on my arm. There have been points in my journey so far with learning how to control my blood sugar levels where I have literally had panic attacks when trying to or thinking of checking my blood sugar  with my Contour Next One or giving myself an insulin injection. It’s not so bad now that I am only taking Basaglar once a day and only need to test when my blood sugar levels are changing rapidly  or don’t match how I feel and otherwise can just scan my arm.

When checking my blood sugar with my blood glucose meter instead of the FGM I found it quite painful each and every time I tested. My fingers were a mess as I imagine any diabetics who doesn’t use a FGM or CGM would be and who tests often. They were bruised and sore and sometimes when I pricked my finger and got no blood and so I would squeeze it would not only come out of the hole I just punctured but also sometimes out of old ones as well. It got so painful I would skip checking and wait until I felt really horrible before checking which is why I decided I wanted to see if Manulife would cover the Freestyle Libre and asked my doctor about it after his receptionist who uses it told me about it. Now when I have to use my old machine to test since I do it only occasionally I find I’m not as hesitant and somehow it doesn’t seem to hurt as much.

As for insulin injections I find that they really hurt almost all the time. If the needle itself doesn’t hurt going in then the insulin burns like hell when injecting it. Very rarely is it pain free. I only inject in my stomach because that was the only place they taught me to. I watched videos on my own of injecting into the outer thigh and in the back of the arms but to be honest I am not flexible enough for the back of my arms and am terrified it will hurt, which it might not since out of the 8 or 9 Libre sensors I have applied only the last one I did a few days ago hurt or bled, it did both. The other ones not one of them hurt or bled more then a tiny bit under the sensor. As far as the outer thigh I tried one leg once and thought I was going to pass out from the pain. Then again I am a bit of a wuss.

In the stomach the injections hurt most of the time but at least I am used to it hurting and know what to expect. They welt which is likely the Dermatogrphia according to the endocrinologist I was seeing and the allergy specialist. At least it didn’t end up being an allergy to the insulin like they initially feared. They also bruise often and I get large lumps. I am chubby around the waist area which I was told would lessen the pain but it doesn’t really seem to. The insulin I am on I read can burn a lot more then some of the others. It’s kind of hit or miss.

Another issue I find is I am really unsure about dosing and when to increase or decrease my insulin. My doctor started me on 50 units of Basaglar because I was on 60 of twice a day Levemir (I don’t remember how much in the morning and how much at night but together it was 60 units a day) and because of the welts which would itch something crazy so he switched me to Basaglar. After reading horror stories of it not working or major reactions to it or it burning like crazy which it can sometimes I wasn’t overly enthused but it does seem to have worked.

It worked to well at first, 50 units was too much. I think the 60 of Levemir was too much as well. I was told as a Type 2 diabetic I would require more insulin then a Type 1 typically as a Type 1 diabetic especially younger Type 1 diabetics are not insulin resistant like I am that they just don’t produce it and that I likely do but am resistant to it and therefor need more because my pancreas either doesn’t create enough or that it was not being utilized by my body correctly (or something like that). It’s all rather confusing to me.

Either way. I am still unsure of dosing. I decreased it myself as no one really told me to but I knew it was too much when I was having 3-4 or more hypo’s each day. I was going down as low as 2.4 mmol which is way too low and was frequently under 4.0 mmol. I find anything under 4.5-4.7 and I start getting symptoms of a low. Not sure if that is right or not but that is what it seems so I have decreased it down to 32 units each night before bed. I did this on my own by decreasing 2 units each night if I had 2 days in a row with more then 1 low. I just googled it to be honest. I mentioned this to my family doctor and he said 32 was fine and agreed to decrease or increase it by 2 units if I went to low to often (I didn’t count it if I did something stupid like forgetting to eat, etc). And up 2 units if I had mornings in a row that I was over 6 mmol when I woke up.

Right now I am staying mostly between 4.3 and 9.0. But I would like to try and get the 9.0 which is mainly after meals or if I snacked a bit to much down by controlling what I eat better and exercising more. I know that exercising which I admit I don’t do much of could change things more because I may be lower overall if I get more exercise throughout the day which I am by walking more.

I find it frustrating that I am not getting much support by my doctors. I don’t know if I have too many or too little people helping me honestly sometimes I think too many and to much is getting lost between them with no or little communication or if it is to little because the Endo is no longer following me since I am not pregnant and am where she wanted to get me to before getting pregnant so now she does not want to see me again until I am pregnant which is a whole other ball game and a whole other post for another day. If you are new to my blog and don’t know you can look back through some of my TTC posts. Even though there is more to it then what I have blogged since well it’s been a year and a half since my post a few days ago and the one before it.

Right now I feel overwhelmed with information I have gotten from reputable sources (I don’t look at the others I go to sites like the Mayo Clinic or the American, British or Canadian Diabetes associations and some of the other well known better sourced sites) as well as information I have gotten from support groups on facebook and blogs which I know to take with a grain of salt and to research and check with my doctor or pharmacist who is a diabetes educator and was trying to help me sort through some of my confusion this winter and last summer when I first started insulin.

I started out with NovoRapid first 3 times a day (meals) around this time last year and then they added in Novolin NPH twice a day and then they switched kinds and at one point dropped the NPH and just did the Novorapid again and then the added Levimir and said that I was controlling it enough and with the issues I was having with the welts and itchyness they said I could just do the Levemir and then at some point in the last 3 months switched that to the Basaglar.

I am happy with the Basaglar and hope that I do not have to start taking the NovoRapid again (the only one I do not have a reaction to) but I guess only time will tell. In 3 months I have to have my A1C repeated and if it’s high I will have to go back on it again. So hopefully I can figure out the eating right, the exercising, and the insulin and glucose monitoring. I would have thought after a year of insulin and 18 months of glucose monitoring I would have figured it out by now.