A Story About A Girl

Insulin & Glucose Monitoring

I am such a baby sometimes. I hate pain. I hate pricking my fingers to test my blood sugar, hence the Freestyle Libre FGM (Flash Glucose Monitor) on my arm. There have been points in my journey so far with learning how to control my blood sugar levels where I have literally had panic attacks when trying to or thinking of checking my blood sugar  with my Contour Next One or giving myself an insulin injection. It’s not so bad now that I am only taking Basaglar once a day and only need to test when my blood sugar levels are changing rapidly  or don’t match how I feel and otherwise can just scan my arm.

When checking my blood sugar with my blood glucose meter instead of the FGM I found it quite painful each and every time I tested. My fingers were a mess as I imagine any diabetics who doesn’t use a FGM or CGM would be and who tests often. They were bruised and sore and sometimes when I pricked my finger and got no blood and so I would squeeze it would not only come out of the hole I just punctured but also sometimes out of old ones as well. It got so painful I would skip checking and wait until I felt really horrible before checking which is why I decided I wanted to see if Manulife would cover the Freestyle Libre and asked my doctor about it after his receptionist who uses it told me about it. Now when I have to use my old machine to test since I do it only occasionally I find I’m not as hesitant and somehow it doesn’t seem to hurt as much.

As for insulin injections I find that they really hurt almost all the time. If the needle itself doesn’t hurt going in then the insulin burns like hell when injecting it. Very rarely is it pain free. I only inject in my stomach because that was the only place they taught me to. I watched videos on my own of injecting into the outer thigh and in the back of the arms but to be honest I am not flexible enough for the back of my arms and am terrified it will hurt, which it might not since out of the 8 or 9 Libre sensors I have applied only the last one I did a few days ago hurt or bled, it did both. The other ones not one of them hurt or bled more then a tiny bit under the sensor. As far as the outer thigh I tried one leg once and thought I was going to pass out from the pain. Then again I am a bit of a wuss. [...]  READ MORE

Testing

We had a doctors appointment on Wednesday. Eddie doesn’t have a family doctor so I asked mine to take him on. Dr. H said yes. We discussed trying to conceive and he agreed that after 9 months we should be starting to do some testing on both Eddie and I to see if there is anything wrong, any reason we haven’t conceived yet since we are trying quite regularly, at least every second day.

He is starting with Edward as he said it is much easier testing him then it is me. So we are officially starting testing as well which I am happy but scared about. I am terrified it is going to come back that one of us is not fertile. I am more concerned about myself them him as I am really sure he is not the issue. A feeling or intuition I’m not sure. I just think I am the cause of the trouble.

I know in the scheme of things that 8 or 9 months is not very long but I am just scared. My mom had so many miscarriages before they adopted my brother and I remember how hard it was on her and them both and I just am so scared of going through that.  [...]  READ MORE

Let the TTC begin!

Eddie and I have been trying a few months now to conceive and so far nothing much has happened. I am 35 going on 36 and with the medical issues I’ve had I am a little concerned about conceiving in general. About 2 months ago I came off of Lyrica, Naproxen and even Reactine. I have been taking a pre-natal multivitamin since then as well as a supplement called Vitex which is supposed to regulate everything and help with conceiving.

I am so happy that Eddie and I are on the same page with this and he is willing to do whatever it takes for us to have kids. We have decided we want to consider adoption as well. We have called the adoption hotline for Nova Scotia and have been invited to an orientation session. We can not make this one due to our schedules but we are hoping to make the next one in May in our area.

I am so excited and want to be a Mom so bad and Eddie loves the idea of being a Dad. I ordered and just received some ovulation tests strips from Ebay or Amazon, can’t remember which. I am hoping that it will help us better predict when to try. I have an appointment with my family doctor next week and am going to ask him again to refer me to someone. He wanted blood work last time but I lost the requisition and need to get one again. [...]  READ MORE